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A/N: Hey everyone. thanks for telling me what you guys thought. So i decided i will continue with this story. I do have a plan as to where i want it to go and what will happen so get ready for a nice little emotional rollercoaster :) lol So please continue to review and tell me how you like the story. So Enjoy :) Also, a little warning: This chapter does contain smut
Santana's P.O.V
You ever met someone who's in love with their best friend/ fuck buddy? Cuz that does happen a lot, So I'm sure you have, but did said best friend/ fuck buddy happen to be in a relationship and won't end it for their best friend/ fuck buddy? No, this is your first time hearing of this? Well let me welcome you to my hell.
My best friend, Quinn Fabray, is lying between my legs asleep. It's like 10 o clock and I just want to lie like this forever. But I can't because Quinn has a fucking girlfriend. A girlfriend who's never home, never there for her, cheated on her and I doubt really loves her. How could you want to stay away from her? She's perfection. She's everything anyone could ever want or need. I just don't get it
What's wrong with me? Why can't she just dump Rachel and be with me? I mean, she's a whole lot cooler after living out here but she's kinda a douche. She's a total player, which honestly shocked me, because hello it's Rachel Freaking Berry. I used to like her until I found out she cheated on Quinn. Now I just want to hit the little hobbit bitch with my car!
Quinn is the real reason Britt and I didn't work out. I've been in love with Quinn since we were teenagers but I was too afraid to do anything about it. Then I found myself falling for Britt and I was just happy she felt the same we and we went for it. But Britt knew I was in love with Quinn and that's why she dumped me. She knew if I ever wanted to be happy, I needed to be with Quinn. So when we broke and then I decided I was going to tell Quinn how I felt, but she told me she was dating Rachel so I didn't say anything.
Then I waited. I figured they weren't anything serious so I could wait. When Rachel cheated the first time I thought that was my shot, but no. Then the second time I knew she'd dump her ass but once again she took her back. Then the third, but I think you can figure out how that ended.
They took their little breaks every time she cheated but that never lasted more than a day or two. And now it's been six years. Six fucking years! And they're still together. I just don't get how she could come here, fuck me and then go back to Rachel. They don't even act like a couple…they act more like friends. Yeah they say 'I love you' or whatever but they really don't act like a couple. Like when Rachel introduces Quinn it isn't 'this is my girlfriend Quinn' it's just 'this is Quinn' and whenever we go out Rachel would leave Quinn and go dance with the first skank she saw. They don't even hold hands in public because Rachel claims she doesn't like PDA.
Seriously if I had Quinn I would be proud to show her off to the world. I wouldn't want a minute away from her and I would rush home to her every night, but she doesn't want that with me. She doesn't want to be happy…or at least happy with me. Even though we do this it's not like I'm her secret girlfriend, No we're just fuck buddies. But I would be her secret girlfriend if she wanted so I could have something more with her than just sex and her friendship.
Quinn and I act like more of a couple then those two. I open doors for her, we hold hands down the street- when she lets me hold her hand, she says we look to much like a couple so we don't do it a lot-, I take her to expensive restaurants, and I rub her feet after a long day. I do all the things Rachel should be doing but she doesn't. And Quinn doesn't even realize that I'm not doing this just because we're fucking or because she'd my best friend. It's because I actually care about her.
We've been doing this behind Rachel's back for a while and I still haven't told her how I feel. Ugh I wish I would stop being such a pussy and tell her how I feel. But I'm so afraid I'll lose her all together, so I act like I want them to fix things so she won't think I'm actually in love with her.
I feel her moving around and then she sits up and looks at me. She gives me a sleepy smile and then moves up to lie on her stomach with her head on my chest. I stroke her hair and I fall asleep.
When I woke up the next morning the first thing I notice the smell of bacon and I smile to myself. I sit up and look to my right into the kitchen and see Quinn with her ear phones in, dancing around my kitchen, cooking bacon. I stretch and get up.
When I get in the kitchen she's in the refrigerator singing some song and hearing her sing makes me smile. I haven't heard her sing since Glee club in high school, or the occasional times I'll hear her when she's in the shower.
She bent over and is looking for something in the back of the refrigerator. I walk up to her and grind into her but and she jumps and screams because she hit her head on the top of the refrigerator. And I laugh she stands up and pulls on ear bud out and says
"Ow S! Seriously you keep sneaking up on me like that and I'm going to knee you in the balls!" when she says that I put my hands over my groin and say
"Okay! Sorry, please don t do that. I DO want kids one day." I say and she raises her eyebrow at me
"You want kids?" she asks and I'm slightly offended. She closes the refrigerator and walks back over to the stove.
"Yeah I want kids. I'd be a super kick ass mother. Why would you think I wouldn't want kids?" I say, sitting on the island in my kitchen. Swinging my legs back and forth
"Because that would actually require you to settle down, unless you just plan on having a baby mama." She says and I roll my eyes
"Poor, poor Quinnie. You actually think I'm incapable of a real relationship don't you?" I ask and she nods her head while taking two plates, which already had pancakes on them, and putting bacon on them. Then she puts some left over bacon on another plate.
"Well you my friend, are sadly mistaken. I plan to settle down someday." I say and she turns around and walks over to me to hand me my plate. She sits her plate one the island and goes to grab two glasses and a carton of Orange Juice.
"And when do you plan on doing this?" she says while pouring the juice. I want to say 'when you finally realize we belong together' but I hop off of the island and sit on one the stools and say
"When I find the right girl – Can you hand me the syrup? – and when I do I'll marry her and have some kids or whatever." She walks over and puts my glass down in front of me with a new bottle of maple syrup. I grab the syrup and use half the bottle before giving it to Quinn. When she see's how much I used she shakes her head and pours some on her pancakes.
"You do know that that requires actually getting to know her, and not just because she's a good fuck" she says while taking a bite of her pancake. I glare at her and then she continues
"Well I hope you find her and you're happy and settle down and have some demon children, because if they're you off spring…" she says laughing and I glare at her.
We ate the rest off our breakfast and made small talk. When we finished she grabs my plate and hers and goes to put them in the sink. I quickly ran behind her and put my hands on her hips. She turned around in my arms and I kissed her. It was slow but then she licked my bottom lip and I allowed her entrance to my mouth.
Our tongues fought for dominance like they always do, and I bite her bottom lip. Eliciting a low groan from her and that spurred me on. I took one hand that was on her hip and ran it up her stomach. I broke our kiss to move to her neck and softly suck.
"Mmm… Santana. That feels so good" she moans in my ear and I can't wait anymore, I need her now. I slip her pants and panties down and then lift her on to the counter.
"Fuck." She says when I put her hot bare skin on the cool counter.
She pulls me back into a passionate kiss and she's sucking and biting my lip.
"Fuck me Santana." she says and I kiss her again and push my boxers down. I'm about to enter her when I remember I don't have a condom. I break the kiss
"I don't…I don't have a condom." I say panting for air
"Its fine…I'm on birth control, Now Fuck ME!" she says and then kisses me hungrily. I pull her forward on the counter and enter her. We both groan and she wraps her arms around my neck as I pump into her.
"Fuck Santana! Just like that baby! Right there!" she moans. I pump faster and harder and she wraps her legs around me and locks them at the ankle. She starts to move her hips to meet my thrusts and it feels even better.
"Oh Yes! Santana I'm gonna cum…Oh god I'm gonna cum!" she screams. I push her shirt up and she lifts her arms to help me take it off. Oh Thank God she doesn't have a bra on. I grab her left breast and suck her nipple into my mouth. While rolling the other between my fingers.
"Ah! Fuck!" She moans. I bite down hard on her nipple and she drags her nails across my neck and down to my shoulders
"Fuck! Oh Santana fuck me harder!" She says. I let go of her nipple and push her chest down until she lying on the counter. I take my shirt off and my bra and then I place her legs on my shoulders and I feel myself going deeper. Then I start and even faster pace and slamming into her.
"Fuck! You feel so fucking good Quinn." I moan. She lifts up slightly to grab my left breasts and rolls my nipple in between her fingers.
"Fuck Quinn! I'm gonna cum!" I start to thrust faster and I reach a hand down to rub her clit. With my thumb and she screams out as orgasms
"OH MY GOD YES! SANTANA!" and that threw me over the edge and I orgasm long and hard.
"Oh Fuck! Quinn." I lay on top of her as we tried to catch our breath.
She stroked her fingers through my hair and I stood up and we both groaned as I pulled out of her. I helped her off of the counter and then we heard her phone ring. She ran to grab it and her face dropped instantly when she read the caller I.D.
Quinn's P.O.V
I think I just had one of the best orgasms of my life. That was so amazing. I was just about to suggest we go take a shower when I heard my phone ring. I rushed to my purse – on the island - and pull out my phone and my panicked for the first time since I've been here. I didn't go home last night, which means Rachel was probably looking for me and it's probably why she's calling. I take a deep breath and answer.
"He-Hello"
"Hey babe, I'm so sorry I didn't come home last night…the uh director wanted us to go over a few more scenes and I just went to sleep at a co-worker's. I'm sorry I know I should have called."
"I…uh…it's fine Rachel. I'm just glad your safe, but I have to go okay so call me later."
"Okay, I'm so glad you aren't upset. So I'll call you the first break I get okay? Love you bye." She says and hangs up before I respond. I looked over to Santana and she has a worried look on her face.
"What's wrong?" she asks coming to stand next to me.
"I…Rachel didn't come home last night." I say softly and she says
"Well you didn't either."
"Yeah." I say and sigh.
"Why don't you just dump her? I know you can find someone who will actually treat you the way you deserve to be treated Q. you deserve better." She says resting her hand on my shoulder
I look down and shake my head. I'm disgusted with myself. I'm no better than her. I'm just too afraid of being alone to leave her. And leave her for what? I know if I dumped Rachel I'd go right to Santana but I know she doesn't want me. I'm just a good fuck to her, not someone she could see as her girlfriend or her wife or even the mother of her children. No, I'm just another notch in her bedpost. I don't want to be alone. I just want someone to love me, and be faithful to me and for us to actually be happy together.
"I think I'm gonna go take a shower." I say and she nods. I get up to go to the bathroom and get in the shower. I try not to cry but I can't hold it in and I start to sob. All I want is for someone to love me, to actually love me. But I only want Santana to be that person. Why won't she love me?
A/N: Second chap. So tell me what you guys think. Reviews make me happy and i write faster when i'm happy :) and i just want to make sure you guys like it, so let me know