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I know the previous chapters are too short so I'll continue
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Rachel POV…Before the meeting Blaine
I'm tired of trying …I'm sick of this… No matter what I do …everyone hates me… nobody cares about me… This hurts so bad... I want it most … but I can't have it… why do others get them effortlessly… this is so unfair…I just want to be accepted…To be loved for who I am is it too much to ask for a girl like me?
Rachel thought to herself as tears fall down through her face…sitting all alone in a cold hard bench….
Yes…she tried her best to be all optimistic with all confidence through all the insults, hate mails, hate looks, rejections and slushy facials….she was used to it …well she thought wrong
She just hit the breaking point it...She had enough...
Ever since I was a little girl I knew I was special but I never thought of myself as different until I started school ..the start of my worst part of my life
I was always alone during lunch time. I was lonely and sad but I always just let it all inside …Hoping it will go away. While most kids play during weekends, I was mostly in lessons (piano, voice, ballet ,etc).I was never out much. I was always left out by other kids at school. Kids make fun of me because I don't have mom and have two dads instead… my big nose and unflattering lips…I cried at first but stopped just keeping it all inside…but when I do cry no one never can see them…..sure I cry in front of people sometimes but that was just an act…I want to be in Broadway so I have to practice
I was never invited to any of her classmates' birthday party or sleep over nor had anyone over in her house for her birthday or sleep over
….Other kids find me weird… they say I talk too much...too fast…talking using big words most kids or even an average adult person can't understand…how I place a gold star sticker after my name every time I write it… I was a bit too addictive when it comes to musicals…that what all they say…well not in my safe at first..but after a while it became obvious….
Then comes high school, which made it worse…I just turned from weird to a freak… guys find me "undateable"…girls find me unfashionable…I was at the bottom of the food chain…I was the favorite target for a slushy facial…
2nd year …I thought it will be better this year now that I joined glee… once again. …wrong...
I met Finn…it was love at first song… I thought and knew that he felt the same but he was just too scared too admit it
And he was dating Quinn, the most popular girl in school then got pregnant …and Finn thought he was the father who is actually Puck who I had a short fling with him...Ugh…then Finn found out via me and he broke up with Quinn… then after the drama… Finn and became boyfriend and girlfriend but then Finn dumped me for two really hot cheerios who barely knows him…and because he doesn't want to be a loser like me
Then I met Jesse … the boy I thought was perfect for me. We are so similar…I thought he loved me so I let my heart on the line hoping she won't be hurt again…
But I was wrong so wrong! God why do I have bad taste in men…
He was just using me he didn't love me… He didn't even care... and Instead of sorry he broke an egg in my face just like the way he broke my heart…
I thought my heart will not be broken again when Finn came back to me… He loved me and I love him back but he lied to me...That he lost his virginity to that cheerio… he didn't even fight for me … All the glee members at Mckinley was on his side… can I have at least one?... I tried to get back at him...by cheating him with Puck… I thought it was okay now that we're even...but he broke up with me instead…
I know I'm selfish... but can I have something I want?
I tried to make up to him on Christmas … but he still hated me… when will I be happy with someone?
Why can't I have anyone who loves me for who I am no matter what? Or someone who actually cares?
… Finn… Jesse... The glee members... the whole school hates me… even my mo-…I mean Shelby doesn't want me…
She cried …letting it all out all the sadness kept inside alone…
Then came Blaine…
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To be continued …
It's a little short but I'll make up for it on the next chapters