Chapter 1: Feelings
My name is Claire Wihtlock. I live in Forks, in a house next to Main Street with my mother, my father, my brother and Grandma Renée. We live with her even if Grandpa Charlie left her his family's house when he died, because she is not able to live there alone (I mean, by herself), and besides, there are too many memories of her beloved husband and daughter between its walls. It really is not easy to live with her! She is stubborn, spends the day watching TV, and doesn´t seem to want to fit in our family... Actually, she is depressed because of what happened to her favourite daughter, Bella.
Only days after graduating from High School, she married her boyfriend, Edward, who by the way was the youngest member of a family with an obsession for vampires. And then, even aware of the risks due to her heart disease, Bella got pregnant, and decided to have the baby. During her pregnancy, she practically had to live in the hospital. She was in constant pain but she only cared about the baby. She really believed vampire magic would help her survive! But it didn´t. She gave birth to Renesmee during her seventh month of pregnancy, to held a battle against death for three more days until her heart reached his last beat. And my baby cousin, who got an old lady- like name, was also lost when her father and Rosalie took her away from us.
So, yeah, Bella was the young lover, the foolish girl, the brave mother, the victim. And of course, Renee's past fit perfectly with that description. That's why she never loved my mom the same way: Alice was brilliant, the talented one, the girl fate never took by surprise. The one that worked the hardest and reached the life she wanted: a loving husband, two loving kids, a home, a good job. She had all Renée could never have, so why extra love?
My mom had also another thing, because family is family, after all: a deep hole in her heart for the loss of her dear sister and her little niece. And same goes for me: I miss my cousin. I want to tell her how much I loved her, and get to love her again the same way. Get to know her again. And I will be able to do it! Last week, mom met Tanya, a friend of Edwards, and she put us in contact with him. Mom went to meet him, so they could choose a date and a place for our first meeting with Renesmee. Dad doesn´t seem very enthusiastic about it, but I know he only fears that Edward breaks our hearts again. And Alex, the only one who wasn't born at the time of the tragedy, was confused at first but now feels really happy about having a cousin.
Mom and Edward set the meeting for Saturday at lunchtime. Saturday! That's in two days! She also saw a picture of Renesmee in her father's phone, and got to talk to her for some moments. Aparently, our long lost cousin isn´t that scary: she has a sweet voice and do not read much (she didn´t get that from her mother's side). Sadly, she also looks very much like her father.
Oh! I really don't know what to do! Or how to feel... I mean, I feel happy and everything but... I am still scared... I think at one moment I started thinking I would never see her again. It is like when the most expected mail arrives several years later. One feels happy, but without the enthousiasm. I know I shouldn´t compare this situation with mail... but that is actually a pretty accurate metaphore of how I feel. Oh, I wish she is still a sweet girl... And that no one of us says something that can upset Edward or Rosalie.
I cross my fingers for saturday...