Ch.2 One more week till summer festival
The pain is still in my heart, even after all these years. It's been 3 years since I last saw sensei. I don't want to think about it, my heart ache just thinking about it. I still have nightmares about it at night. I was really glad that I didn't have to face him anymore after that day. I know that he doesn't want to see me also, because he went to work in another school. My heart has been frozen since then. Boys have asked me out, but I refused them, I didn't want the same scene again, not for me or anyone.
Summer festival is coming in a week. Boys have asked me out, but I HAD to refuse them all. I couldn't bare anymore pain, I'm still hurt… I don't know when or how I will heal, but I know that I'm still hurt… I decided to go with Sakura and her "gang". That's the reason I told the guys who asked me out… They are always happy, I always feel happy when I look at them. I think the reason that I'm healing is because of them, looking at them makes me smile…, even though I don't know why…
The last time I look Rika in the eyes is 3 years ago. Ever since that incident, I didn't dare look her in the eyes. I don't know why I did it. I don't dare to tell her that I was the one who took her to the hospital. I don't know why, but I just don't have the courage to tell her. It seems like Rika has her own kind of magic, it seems to make me curios about her; I've never had that feeling before, the moment my lips touch hers, I still remember that feeling… I've seen so many girls, but I've never seen one like Rika, one that makes me… absorbed to her. I don't know what it is. Rika makes me want to know more about her, Rika seems like a mystery to me.
One more week to go then it will be summer festival. I heard from Sakura that Rika is coming with us. I wonder what will happen, Toya, for the first time, won't come with us. Seem like he already trust Syaoran a lot more than before. Though he still warns Syaoran telling him if he hurt Sakura, he would get a very unfortunate life. Syaoran would go with Sakura, and most probably they will want to be alone, but maybe Tomoyo will follow Sakura. And most of them are already a couple. It seems that Toya and I are the only ones that are single. As for Rika… I don't know… Rika seems like a mystery to me.