Chapter 2: I am my own.

I was trying so hard to control the fury, burning through me. I bit my lip, ouch!

"Jacob what did you tell him, I know you did so don't deny it. WHAT IS GOING ON?" Edward walked over to me, no longer cautious of his proximity to Jacob and without looking at me handed me the little silk dress that I had thrown onto the floor earlier. "Dress yourself Renesmee." He walked away from me. I had completely forgotten that I wasn't wearing anything. I hurried to put the dress back over my head. "I'm sorry! For whatever I've done I'm truly sorry but don't you both give me this silent treatment, its worse, far worse than anything." Jacob let out a low growl towards me, not aggressive, but to let me know that he disagreed. "Jacob phase back, I want to talk to you both."

He hesitated, looking warily at Edward. "It's fine Jacob, I won't kill you in front of my daughter." He hissed through gritted teeth. Again with the possession thing. I'm not a freaking object to be owned. Not by either of them! Edward slid out of his jacket and threw it to the ground by Jacobs paw. "Don't want you getting cold now would we?" I sensed the sarcastic hatred in my father's tone but ignored it. Jacob phased back to his human form. And wrapped the coat around his lower half, grinning at Edward, taunting him. "Jacob," I warned.

"Dirty bloodsucker, this thing stinks." Jacob sniped at Edward. Ouch, that one hurt a little. Realising what he had said he turned to me with an apologetic look. "Not you Nessie, you know I don't think that of you. You're my everything..."

"Can it Jacob before I lose all self control and go for your throat!" Edward forced the words through his bared teeth.

"Dad please! Stop this, tell me what that was all about. What exactly did I do?" I waited, watching their expressions change. There was a small amount of pain in both their eyes.

Finally Edward spoke.

"Renesmee, you know that the past is the past. But what you said just then it, it was something that stirred a memory for both myself and Jacob. Of a time when the lines were not so clear between simply friendship and something more than that." He paused to glare at Jacob, which gave me a moment to think what exactly I had said. Jacob sighed, lost in the past by the look on his face. "Your mother said that to myself and Jacob, Renesmee, when Jacob discovered that your mother was going to become one of us, end her mortal life to be with me and not him. That she loved me and not him." Whoa! Too much information I think there. The reality of this stabbed me in the chest and I could feel myself falling. Jacob snapped out of his tantric state and caught me a second before I crashed to the floor. "My mother said that to you? Because she wouldn't love you? Oh man that's beyond ... creepy. I don't know what to say!" I stuttered over what I wanted to say and what I should say. I looked up into Jacob's amazing eyes, he was analysing me and my reaction. His thick brow furrowed into a frown, "Ness, it's history. I don't feel like that for your moth... Bella any more, not since the first time I saw you. I was never meant to be with her, I know that now because I know you. Don't find it weird, it's just one of those things."

Before I knew it I was standing again, free of his grasp. "One of those things? No Jacob, it's not just one of those things. How many daughters can ask their mother what it's like to lock lips with the guy they're with? Was he good mummy, huh?" Jacob winced at that but I continued anyway in a state of confusion and shock, defending myself unnecessarily. "What was it like when he held you? I know it's great for me!" I became aware of Edward standing by the tree furthest from us, listening intently, wanting to say something but not being able to interrupt us arguing. This was what he wanted, me and Jacob apart! Well congratulations, looks like we were well on our way. Anger boiled up through my body, swallowing me, drowning me. I love Jacob, I've never told him that, but then we are meant to be, force of nature and all that. Love out of hate, enemy to lover, Romeo to Juliet, Heathcliff to Cathy. After all, he had imprinted on me. I've always known about them, the history there. Alice, Jasper, Emmett, Rosalie, Edward they had all told me, warned me that this was not a good idea. But I could help it, couldn't help myself and certainly couldn't fight the strings that pulled me to him. When I was away from him I missed him, when I saw him I would smile, when he touched me there were sparks. HE WAS MY JACOB.

The point was not that he had lusted for my mother, she was beautiful, but that he had loved her. I know that the feelings were not there for her anymore, he had reassured me of that constantly when I was 'old' enough to be told about imprinting and that Jacob loved me, not in a protective way anymore, but a love that was uncontrollable and real. Where I was free to love him, despite the endless attempts from my family to prevent it, like Bella and Edward, I just had to be with him.

"Renesmee?" Jacob looked into my eyes, concern roaming over his features. His arms wrapped tightly around my waist to pull me close, "I love you."

"Enough Jacob, I'm still here and she is still my daughter." Edward looked ready to pounce, to kill. He had accepted that we would be together, that that was beyond our control, but that didn't mean he had to like it. And believe me, he didn't. Neither did Bella.

"Dad, leave it. This is between us, not you. Pease just leave us for a moment." I tried to sugar coat that fact that I didn't want him near us right now, but I knew he would read my true thoughts. Get lost! Back the hell off you overprotective freak!

Fury began to stir in Edwards eyes. "Don't forget why I'm here Renesmee. How dare you be here! Out in the open, with..." He struggled with the images of me and Jacob and no clothing. "Don't think I'm leaving this, you are my daughter, and he's ... a mutt."

"Change the record daddy," Jacob taunted him further. I nudged him in the abdomen, with little effect. But he got the point and released his arms from around my waist and stepped back.

"I'm not leaving her Edward." He said no longer angry, but he was quiet, soulful, and I knew in that instant he meant it. I was his and he was not letting go this time, not going to lose this game again. I saw Edwards eyes darken, his teeth bare from behind his lips.

"If you touched her Jacob, I will not hesitate to destroy you." He was burning fury and I could see it. Thinking unwillingly of the images of Jacob and I together, as one. Jacob was loving this, smirking an evil smile, designed to get beneath the marble skin of my father. His thoughts obviously driving Edward crazy. Not allowing him to see the truth, what really happened and Edward was not focusing on my mind, not listening to me. I looked at Jacob, my Jacob, and then at my father, my overprotective father and sighed. "Listen, Dad, I know what you're thinking. I don't need to read minds to know that."

"Why were there no clothes Renesmee, why is he wearing NOTHING?" I could really do with Jasper here right now, to help control the mood swings Edward was having.

"WHAT?" I jumped in reaction to the voice behind me and saw Bella crouching behind us, eyes transfixed on Jacob. "What does he mean there was you two and no clothes?" Oh crap, here we go again.

"Dad, you knew she was there, ARGH. And you Jacob! For heaven's sake! Nothing happened, we weren't even together when the clothes were 'removed'." I tried to explain myself and it wasn't long before they all ignored me again and erupted into a shouting match.

"How dare you Jacob?"

"She loved it."

"My daughter!"

"I'll kill you!"

"Don't push me bloodsucker!"

"DOG!"

"I'd kill you if she wasn't here!"

"I'd like to see you try leech!"

Jacob was shaking again, trying hard to control his anger, not wanting to lose his temper being that close to Bella. That annoyed me a little, I know she's my mother and I love her the most in the world, but, sometimes, I just wish she'd leave us be. The first chance I had, I reached out for Edward's face, showed him the memories of the day. His face fell.

I heard a scream; Jacob lay on the ground, wincing in pain holding his arm. I'd heard the crunch. It looked like a broken wrist, thanks to Bella's consistent lunges and attacks. She had no right to do this! No right to hurt MY Jacob. I reached for her, not to show her my memories but to hurt her. I'd never ever wanted to hurt her before. I'd never dreamed that I would be lunging at my mother to attack her. "Renesmee NO!" I heard Jacob calling to me, but I couldn't detract my focus, my raw anger. Bella stood facing away from me completely still. I reached her in a split second but already she was somersaulting over the top of me. Before I knew it, my arms were being restrained behind me. Emmett and Jasper of course. Carlisle was at Jacob's side in seconds. "Let me help Jacob, it's broken, I'll need to set it quickly before it heals." Carlisle spoke as calm as ever.

"Chill, Nessie," Emmett encouraged me "Let it go." I knew he was right but I was still in the midst of fury at my mother. My breathing almost out of control, my heart thudding at my rib cage wanting to burst free. Bella was stood in front of me looking at me like I was her perfect angel again. "I love you Renesmee, I'm so sorry, I'm always hurting people. My instinct to protect you took over again." She turned to face Jacob, and in that moment Edward was at her side. Carlisle set about fixing Jacob. How did he have his equipment with him?

"Alice." Edward muttered in answer to my thoughts. Oh! Now he was listening to me!

I watched the scene unfolding before my eyes. What had I done? What had we done? Something so destructive created out of something of total innocence. I looked at Jacobs face, scrunched in agony, eyes tightly shut. Should I live without those eyes ever opening to see me again? Maybe it would be better, no safer for him if ... if I just ... let him go. I felt my heart sink, tighten. Tears welled in my eyes. Maybe I could be without him, or maybe I could be without my family, after all, this was because of them.

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