A/N- So I originally intended for this to be a one chapter, one shot. But have a few ideas and am hoping to make it into a multi chapter fic. This is a slightly smaller chapter than I was hoping but I think it ends well and I wanted to get it out before the episode tonight (which, btw, I am so excited for!) Hope you're all well, let me know any thoughts or feelings!

"Those three words,

are said too much.

They're not enough."

"If I lay here.

If I just lay here.

Would you lie with me,

And just forget the world."

-Chasing Cars, Snow Patrol

Donna was left lying dumbfounded on the floor of her bosses office. What the hell had just happened? She actually pinched herself, wondering if it had all just been a really weird but fantastic dream.

She pulled herself up into a seated position and observed the office. In the rush, her and Harvey had knocked over most of the paperwork on his desk, thrown pencils and pens everywhere and made a right mess of the couch area. Despite the tension she still felt at the situation they were in, Donna started laughing hysterically. In fact, she must have been laughing like some lunatic for a good couple of minutes before taking hard breaths to calm herself down. Even after this, she was still giggling quietly to herself as she managed to redress quickly in a pale blue silky top and tight black pencil skirt.

As she did this, she wondered how they had managed to get to this point. It was only a year ago after all, that she had left Harvey for Louis in an attempt to move on and escape the feelings that she felt for him. But there lives had changed dramatically since that time period and things felt different now. Harvey was going to need her over the next couple of weeks, more than ever. Everyone was going to need Donna to be their rock; Rachel would need comforting when the time comes, Louis would need her to support him as Gretchen still wasn't back, even Jessica may need a hand. It was going to be all hands on deck. The only person she couldn't be much use to was Mike. Mike...

She thought back to the afternoon. Rachel had looked absolutely beautiful and pure in her dress. Donna had to hold back tears when she saw her best friend looking so pure and innocent. She had been so proud of how far her and Mike had come despite a few hiccups. And the day was all the more emotional, the constant thought in the back of Donna's mind that this wasn't fair. That they didn't deserve this punishment.

As soon as Mike had come into the room, she had known what he was about to do. She was Donna after all. Her heart broke for them both.

She went to join Harvey, giving them both the privacy that they needed in their final moments. She smiled and bantered with Louis until Rachel had reentered the main hall of the church and thanked everyone for coming but stated that this wasn't under appropriate circumstances and therefore the wedding was going to be postponed. Donna hadn't been surprised when she had looked behind her for Harvey only to find that he had disappeared. Rachel had caught her eye and looked confused but quickly realised what Donna had spotted as missing. The beautiful brunette had scurried to the huge doors at the back of the church as it occurred to her what was happening.

It destroyed Donna's heart when she finally reached the doors and watched as Harvey's Lexus drove off and Rachel broke down on the steps of the church that was supposed to hold so many happy memories. She had left Rachel in the comfort of her Mother and Father with the knowledge that there wasn't much she could do to help her poor best friend at this time. In fact, Donna believed that her presence would have actually deteriorated Rachel in a way, bought back too many unwelcome memories. She needed space.

Donna was absently clearing up Harvey's office, placing everything back in its preferred setting as her thoughts kept running. A noise behind her made her jump and she quickly dabbed at the tears that had formed in her eyes and returned to a more composed posture as she heard Louis and Jessica approach.

Jessica's head was high and she was walking with confidence but the thunderous look on her face and the way that Louis was scurrying along behind her revealed that they had been unsuccessful in their attempts. Donna sighed internally. This was going to be a long night. And where did Harvey disappear to again? Surely it hadn't taken him that long to redress. It certainly hadn't taken that long to undress him.

But just as Jessica and Louis were hurrying up one empty corridor, Donna turned to see Harvey striding up the other. She looked away, still nervous at how he would react to the twist in their relationship. But Donna couldn't resist not looking for long. Harvey was still beaming from ear to ear and he winked at her impenetrating glare.

"Donna. I thought we'd find you here. Has the man of the hour turned up yet?" Jessica booming voice penetrated her reverie and Donna couldn't help but smirk at her chosen words.

Before she could reply, Harvey commandeered in behind them. His face was serious now, but he still smiled fondly at Donna when he thought no one else could see. Donna observed the tension in his cheeks and neck muscles and noted his shortness of breath. Harvey must still be overcoming his horrifying panic attack from earlier in the evening. Or maybe he was still recovering from their session.

"Jessica, I like what you've done with the place whilst I've been gone. Nice to see you've finally got rid of those annoying Harvard douches." Harvey displayed himself as cool and relaxed but Donna knew that deep down, this was destroying him.

"You went to Harvard?" Jessica questioned with a scowl on her face.

"As I've said many times before, I'm the exception." Harvey grinned but it was obvious his heart wasn't in this.

There was a pause before Jessica asked "How did it go with Mike?"

Donna watched Harvey compose himself and swallow before answering. She knew he felt the same dark hole in his heart at the mention of his former associates name.

"He's turning into a right little troublemaker," Harvey said quietly, his words laced with guilt and regret. Donna pondered about how long it would take Harvey to overcome and accept this. And then she realised that he probably never would.

"I'm sorry Harvey, but we don't have time for this," Louis' voice broke the silence. "Meet us in the conference room in 5 minutes." And with that he strutted out of the office. Jessica raised her eyebrow but followed him out. Just as she started to head back down through the empty floor, she turned back, "Harvey, you're flies are undone. And Donna, you may want to run a brush through your hair."

Harvey and Donna both turned towards each other with shocked expressions.

"She knows," Donna said, her lips pulled tight.

"Don't be stupid." Harvey reassured her. "It was totally a coincidence."

"You know she knows," Donna glared at Harvey. If Jessica knew, they were in trouble. This was not the right timing. They both needed to be focused and on their game right now. And Jessica could make life very difficult for them both if not.

"You're just being paranoid," Harvey noted before grabbing some files and heading out of his office himself. But as Donna strolled down the hall to follow him, Harvey turned and grabbed her by the arm, pulling the both of them into an empty office.

"Donna, I need you to listen to me-"

"Harvey, what the hell is going on? Don't just grab me like that. You scared the shit out of me."

They were both only inches apart, with Donna pushed up against the wall and Harvey with his hands on her arms. Her skin ignited with his touch and she was resisting the urge to meet his lips. But Harvey was breathing hard, not looking at Donna and obviously contemplating whether to tell her what was on his mind.

"Look, I can't go in there." Harvey said quickly and took a step backwards, raising his arms to show exasperation.

Donna quickly realised what was happening and took a deep breath, she thought she had fixed Harvey, but obviously something had spooked him, made him change his mind.

"You saw the way that Jessica was looking at me. And Louis, he's pissed. I've never seen him act like that before. You need to go help them, but I'm leaving. I need to go work on Mike's case and find a way of getting him out." Harvey was talking quickly in between heavy breaths. She could see the panic starting to rebuild.

"Harvey, do you really believe that Jessica wants you to leave, after all the people that has left tonight, you are the only one that can help. You aren't getting Mike out of there tonight, they need you here. We all need you here."

"Donna-"

"Harvey-"

"I Did THIS." Harvey exploded. "I'm the one that has destroyed this firm, I've ruined everything that Jessica has worked so hard to achieve. Named partner? Ha, I don't deserve junior partner with the mess I've made."

"Harvey, how many times have you caused a jeopardy that could have destroyed this firm? That's what you do, you make a mess and then you clear it up, you fix things."

Harvey glared at Donna, "Don't compare me to Stephen Huntly."

"I wasn't. You need to understand that this wasn't just on you. Both of them knew about Mike and could have stopped it years ago." Donna moved forward to touch him and reassure him but Harvey swatted hand away.

"I'm not letting you persuade me on this one. I need to go. Now. Can you just go give this to Jessica and deal with this for me?" Harvey pushed past her and hurried down the hall but Donna quickly grabbed him herself.

"You listen to me. This is not the Harvey Specter that I know. Yeah, you are a lot of things; arrogant, selfish sometimes, difficult, some might even call you a criminal. But you are not a coward. The Harvey Specter that I fell in love with would be thrilled by a situation like this. In a crisis, you don't run. You don't freeze. You fight and keep moving forward. Now swallow your ego, get your ass in that room and help them sort this shit out."

Harvey felt his mouth drop open, and he stared at Donna dumbfounded. Had he just imagined what she had said? Maybe this was just some big bad dream. Despite the situation, he couldn't help thinking that she was really hot when she got angry. She returned his gaze questioningly.

"Look, I don't know why you're staring at me like that. I've told you before, if you want a secretary who is going to sit and answer phones then you need to put an add in the paper because that's not me."

"Donna-"

"Look Harvey, you know that I speak my mind. Sometimes you need me to shout at you that's all."

"Donna-" Harvey was trying desperately to get her to stop talking, to make her listen to him but she was still rambling.

"Look, I'm not going to apologise. You're being an absolute dick, and you needed to be put straight. Now can we go and start operation right the shit?"

She had finally taken a breath and they both met eyes, his brown depths penetrating.

"You just said "the Harvey Specter that I fell in love with"?"

Harvey was almost speechless. His mind was a mix of emotions but overall he was petrified. For years they had tiptoed over the subject, tried to pretend that everything was normal. He knew their relationship was special. They were the perfect team at work and were highly protective of each other. Harvey was thinking back to the time when Donna had been charged and faced prison time. The thought of losing her, of her going to jail had destroyed him. He was up most nights worrying. But was what he felt for her love? He had never felt like this for anyone before. Not Scottie, not Zoe. He thought that what he felt for them was love, but it really wasn't. He could live without them in his life, but Donna, she was a whole different story.

As his mind reeled with these memories, he looked at Donna. She was gazing at the floor, a look of horror stretched across her face. Her skin had paled, making a stark contrast with her radiant hair. Donna's stomach had dropped at Harvey's words and she had quickly gone over in her mind what she had said. But she had been rambling, trying her best to make him stay, to make him listen to her. She was terrified that he was going to break. She had been terrified for days that he would finally throw himself overboard. She wouldn't be able to do this without Harvey. Pearson, Specter, Litt wouldn't survive without Harvey. But had she really told him that she loved him?

Hastily, Donna looked up and ended up staring right into his eyes. A penetrating silence had stilled the room and she felt completely alone. It was like time was stood still as they both contemplated the meaning of this. Although so much else was happening, her mind had forgotten about everything else. Maybe Harvey should go? Or maybe she should take the hint and leave? After all, there wasn't anything she could do to resolve this situation. She shook her head at Harvey, unable to speak. Her throat felt constricted and dry and she couldn't find the words anyway. She pushed past him now, making her way towards the exit. Something which she knew in her mind should have happened a long time ago.

But it shocked her to find that his arms were on hers again, dragging her back into the abandoned office. He didn't say a word but suddenly his lips were on hers again and they were kissing. She could taste the scotch that they had both been drinking back in the office. The kiss wasn't desperate or much near passionate, it was long and lingering but Donna was too scared to pull away. Finally Harvey pulled back for breath and looked dead into her eyes. His were on fire, lit up like a flame in the dark office. He pulled back her hair and whispered quietly in her ear.

"Please stay."

And then she heard his voice break for the second time this evening.

"I need you." He paused again, looking out into the skyline. A look of confliction crossed his normally stricken face.

"I want you."

And with that, he turned and left, with the file back in his hand, leaving Donna startled and astonished at his revelation