Disclaimer-if you didn't already guess I own nothing but the plot. I will place the artist of all the songs listed beside the title in [square] brackets. Also any words I would omit or will be in [square] brackets any words I'd add to make the song true to a female singing will be in { these type} of brackets. I own none of the songs or lyrics used.

Chapter 2
I.P.O.V-I ran over to the lift that would lower me down on to the stage. The music to my first song 'Angry Angel [-By Imogen Heap]' started it was always a good one to get the crowd amped up for the show. Just like that I was suddenly super-confident Issy Swanson-the Rock Star-as I began to sing;

This is an obsession, a kind of aggression with himself
It's the way he'll always be
He loves to rebel to go against his ten commandments
For him, that's just being free.

And he always will, get his thrills, the only way he knows how
Well it might make you frown
But he does the love, being that dove, roaming where he cares to go
To a state of mind that no-one knows

Over there stands my angry angel
And he's shaking his head, in disgrace of me
Yeah over there stands my angry angel
And he's frowning like hell, but I'm not feeling guilty

Over and over again, more and more for the pain
To release himself, from this shell
Time after time, you may glare at
Him for the way he looks like something drawn up from hell

But that's just his cover
From what is under it
All his imagination, his
Passion for a creation
Which he has discovered,
Uncovered a world, of
Amazing sensations
His own little nation

Over there stands my angry angel
And he's shaking his head, in disgrace of me
Yeah over there stands my angry angel
And he's frowning like hell, but I'm not feeling guilty

I don't care,
I'm flying

Over there stands my angry angel
And he's shaking his head, in disgrace of me
Yeah over there stands my angry angel
And he's frowning like hell, but I'm not feeling guilty(Repeat chorus X 2)

"Alright, how's everyone doing tonight? I know I'm having fun and we're just getting started. As it's my special Birthday concert, I'm going to be sharing some of the stories behind my songs as we go along. Angry Angel is about Damon by the way, he was quite a rebel when I found him-still is. And for those of you who don't know Damon he is my lead guitarist, and also my boyfriend who I hope loves me." I teased him and stuck out my tongue like a 5-year-old.

"Aww, you know I love you, Babe!" He shouted back loud enough that the microphones picked it up and a chorus of awe's went through the stadium.

"Alright let's get to my next song; it's about a hard time I was going though. I was about 17 at the time. I was not confident at the time and was a relationship that, well din's work, and I thought back to all the promises that guy made me and this is what I came up with. This is 'Permanent' [-by Acceptance]."

sometime ago
I keep losing track
over again
all these promises
wont turn golden
until you touch them

its permanent nothing is permanent
its permanent we'll be watching your back
following indecision's lasting for years
indecision's lasting for years

sometime ago
memories in my head are starting again
speaking fast still moving slow
running through the country
maybe they will find me

its permanent nothing is permanent
its permanent we'll be watching your back
be watching your back
following indecision's lasting for years
indecision's lasting for years

like a river in Arizona
dried up before you were born
it's starting up again
it's starting up again
it's starting up again (we'll be watching your back)
it's starting up again
it's starting up again
we'll be watching your back

its permanent nothing is permanent
its permanent we'll be watching your back
its permanent nothing is permanent
its permanent time is pushing us back (following)
permanent permanent permanent

"Okay, this next one is about right after my ex dumped me, after the initial sadness I was really angry that I was the last to know. This song it called 'Heels over Head' [-Boys like Girls]."

I got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby
Gonna cash it right in for a new Mercedes
You were worth a hundred thousand miles
But you couldn't stay awhile

I got your [ little] brown shirt in my bottom drawer baby
And your [ little] white socks in the top drawer
You were always leaving your shit around
And gone without a sound

Yeah I'm the first to fall,
And the last to know
Where'd you go?

Now I'm heels over head,
I'm hangin' upside-down
Thinkin' how you left me for dead
California bound

I got a first class ticket to a night all alone
And a front row seat up right by the phone
'Cause you're always on my mind
And I'm running out of time

I've got your hair on my pillow
And your smell in my sheets
And it makes me think about you
With the sand in your feet
Is it all you thought it'd be?
You mean everything to me

But I'm the first to fall,
And the last to know
Where'd you go?

Now I'm heels over head,
I'm hangin' upside-down
Thinkin' how you left me for dead
California bound

And when you hit the coast
I hope you think of me
And how I'm stuck here with the ghost
Of what we used to be

You're burnin' bridges baby (burnin' bridges)
Making wishes
Yeah you're burnin' bridges baby (burnin' bridges)
Making wishes
You're burnin' bridges baby (burnin' bridges)
Making wishes
Yeah you're burnin' bridges baby (burnin' bridges)
Making wishes

You're a chance taker, heartbreaker,
Got me wrapped around your finger
Chance taker, heartbreaker,
Got me wrapped around your finger

I got your runaway smile in my piggybank baby
Gonna cash it right in for a new Mercedes
If I drive a hundred thousand miles
Would you let me stay a while?

Now I'm heels over head,
I'm hangin' upside-down
Thinkin' how you left me for dead
California bound

And when you hit the coast
I hope you think of me
And how I'm stuck here with the ghost
Of what we used to be

Now I'm heels over head,
I'm hangin' upside-down
Thinkin' how you left me for dead
California bound

And when you hit the coast
Maybe you'll finally see
And then you'll turn it all around
And you will come back to me

(NEW SONG)

Paper bags and plastic hearts
Out belongings in shopping carts
It's goodbye
But we got one more night
Let's get drunk and drive around
And make peace with an empty town
We can make it right

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We wont hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

Tonight will change our lives
It's so good to be by your side
We'll cry
We won't give up the fight
We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs
And they'll think its just cause were young
And we'll feel so alive

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind me
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

"That last one was about escaping form my small town life and leaving it all behind for this! Which I'll tell you; I don't regret. It was called 'The Great Escape' [Boys like Girls]. This next one is about never forgetting the good times you've had it's not about anyone in particular, just all the people I've lost in my life-time. 'I'll Keep you Memory Vague' [Finger Eleven] is what's up next on the list." Demi ran out my acoustic guitar as compared to my electric I had on before and we started.

this wont break your heart
but I just think it could
cause I haven't tried as hard as I should
to separate you from everything I do
but I would never wanna come between us two

I'll keep your memory vague
so you wont feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
sometimes so it reminds me
I'll keep your memory vague
so you wont feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
sometimes so it reminds me

now I'm thinking back
to what I said before
I hope your heart wont have to hurt anymore
cause it's really not that sad
from here
because the moments I can feel you near
they keep you close to me my dear
and if they ever become to clear

I'll keep your memory vague
so you wont feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
sometimes so it reminds me
I'll keep your memory vague
so you wont feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
sometimes so it reminds me

now you're gone away
don't worry it's okay
that you're gone away
now you're gone away
further then yesterday
but you'll never leave these scenes
my mind replays

I'll keep your memory vague
so you wont feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
sometimes so it reminds me
I'll keep your memory vague
so you wont feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
sometimes so it reminds me

I'll keep your memory vague
so you wont feel bad about me
where in the world have you gone now?
I'll say the things that you said
sometimes so it reminds me
where in the world have you gone now?
I'll keep your memory vague
so you won't feel bad about me
where in the world have you gone now?
I'll say the things that you said
sometimes so it reminds me

Okay, so my next two kind of tie in together...sort of...okay not at all but anyway. The first is about my battle for Damon-which I so won by the way. But the second is about my relationship with Damon and my relationship with my ex. Now, I know what you are all thinking 'YOU NEED TO GET OVER THIS GUY!' Now believe me I am, but I just wrote these songs to get out my emotions at the time and so happens to be some of my best work thinkyouverymuch. But here is 'Misery Business' [Paramore], and 'crushcrushcrush' [Paramore]." Demi switched my guitars again and we hit it.

I'm in the business of misery,
Let's take it from the top.
She's got a body like an hourglass it's ticking like a clock.
It's a matter of time before we all run out,
When I thought he was mine she caught him by the mouth.

I waited eight long months,
She finally set him free.
I told him I couldn't lie he was the only one for me.
Two weeks and we caught on fire,
She's got it out for me,
But I wear the biggest smile.

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
just steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him now.
And if you could then you know you would.
Cause God it just feels so,
it just feels so good.

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change.
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged.
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passin' up, now look this way.
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right.
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
just steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got him where I want him right now.
And if you could then you know you would.
Cause God it just feels so,
It just feels so good.

I watched his wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving you
Just watch my wildest dreams come true
Not one of them involving.

Whoa, I never meant to brag,
But I got him where I want him now.

Whoa, I never meant to brag
But I got him where I want him now.
Whoa, it was never my intention to brag
just steal it all away from you now.
But God does it feel so good,
Cause I got what I wanted now
And if you could then you know you would.
Cause God it just feels so,
It just feels so good.

(NEW SONG)

I got a lot to say to you
Yeah, I got a lot to say
I noticed your eyes are always glued to me
Keeping them here
And it makes no sense at all

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies

Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two of us is counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this

If you want to play it like a game
Well, come on, come on, let's play
Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending
Than have to forget you for one whole minute

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies

Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two of us is counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this now

Rock and roll, baby
Don't you know that we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, honey (Hey!)
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, honey (Hey!)
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
Give me something to sing about

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two of us is counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this
No, oh

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one, two of us is counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
More than this

"Okay, okay, I only have two songs left for you guys tonight. They are both about my ex, the first is about me deciding I really didn't need him anymore and the second is about what I felt like after the break-up, and probably would feel like if it weren't for Damon supporting me." It was so loud I didn't even hear Damon come up behind me.

"And I want to always be there for you, to support you, and to love you. Issy Marie Swanson, I promise that I will be whatever you need in life- a friend, a lover, a crutch- I love you more then anything. Will you marry me?" He was down on one knee hold out a gorgeous ring on a blue velvet box when I turned around after he started speaking. If I could cry, I would have been. I threw my self at him,

"Yes, of course I will!" Everyone awed, again, as we stood up and he slid the ring on my finger. I whispered in his ear, "I love you so much, thank you."

"I love you too Hun, more then you can know. Finish up you show." He whispered back. I kissed his cheek and turned back to the audience in front of me.

"Okay, this is officially the best birthday ever. Way, way, better then my shitty 18th Birthday. First you guys, then Damon, wow. Just wow. The next song it called 'Going Under' [Evanescence]"

Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried.
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me.
(Going under)
Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself.
Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm going under

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies.
(So I don't know what's real)
(So I don't know what's real and what's not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through

I'm...

So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away (so far away)
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe I can't keep going under

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through

I'm going under (going under)
I'm going under (drowning in you)
I'm going under

"Alright guys it's time for…" It was then that I saw him.