The Price Of Solitary
Chapter 2 - Night Lessons
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Samara sat on the usual, cool floor of the Observation deck, meditating.
But, she found it difficult to concentrate for her mind is on the Commander. She couldn't stop thinking about him.
She will never forget how he helped her.
He was went in harm's way to bring her peace when she told him about her Daughter, the smartest of the three she's had. This daughter, now deceased, was an Ardat-Yakshi. It was a Genetic defection, which means, whenever she mated, she killed. Samara has chased her ever since she has become a Justicar.
Yet, despite how dangerous her daughter was, Steve agreed to help her in an unconditional way. He was able to resist her charming, which amazed Samara, but she couldn't tell him then, for she was grieving.
She delivered the final blow to her daughter, Morinth. Steve has witnessed it all. He has even held her when she shed tears in front of him. She felt ashamed when she did so. The only feeling she missed that night, was being in his arms. She has never felt so...lonely, when he let her go.
"Are you ok?" He asked.
Samara nodded, wiping a few remaining tears away, "I believe so, I shouldn't have done that..."
"Everybody's got emotions, Samara, whether you like it or not," he told her, "you're going to have to let them go, for you cannot keep them locked inside forever," were the words of wisdom he has spoken.
She will never forget the lesson of that night, he was right...in all of her years, despite her being a Justicar, and with training that told her over and over not to cry, she couldn't hold them in.
She wondered what he has been through, no-one spoke of his past, not even Garrus, his best friend, would speak of it.
For the short life he has lived, there was no telling of the amount he has taken and hidden.
Samara given up her Meditating, she could not focus at all. She got up and sat on the sofa, still thinking about Steven.
She has noticed how he was willing to help anybody and everybody. No matter the task, he took it. Miranda with her sister, Jack with her past, Garrus with his guilt, Tali with her treason, and others. Including her, and she considered hers the most dangerous. She wondered what has made Steven the man he was today.
One thing she noticed is that, there were periods of seclusion with Steve. Every once in awhile, he would withdraw to his quarters and stay there for hours before coming back out. Whenever he did though, she sees a different fire burning, than the one he always had when he was out and about. It concerned her. She felt herself wanting to know what was behind the burning fires. She saw sorrow, grief, and guilt. Enough to almost make her into tears. Something was killing him, and he seems to can't stop it.
It was nagging her. She pledged to him that she will stand by his side if need be, and her Oath to him...if he's falling, and she isn't catching him, then she's failing him.
"EDI," Samara called the AI.
"Yes, Samara?" EDI asked, popping up by the door.
"Is the Commander busy?" She asked.
"He is asleep, do you need him?'
Samara shook her head, "No, no, Let him sleep, he needs the rest."
"Very Well, is there anything else?"
"Is there something...troubling...Steven?" Samara asked.
"It's...hard to explain," EDI said to her.
"Can you elaborate?"
"It's his past, but I will not go any further for his privacy," EDI explained.
That was enough to confirm her observations,
"I understand," Samara replied, "Can you notify me when he is up?"
"I will do so,"
"Thank you."
EDI's avatar disappeared.
Steven turned and twisted in his bed, asleep. Nightmares ravaging him.
His eyes opened, his breathing heavy.
He sat up, and threw his legs off the bed. Burying his head in his hands,
"Shit...Can't sleep worth a damn anymore," he muttered, tears in his eyes from a certain memory.
He dropped his arms to his knees, "Goddamn it, Sarah, I wish I could have died with you..." He said as more tears spawned from his ducts.
Sarah was his lover before a certain day. She was everything he wished for and more.
She had blond hair, and beautiful blue eyes. The eyes he missed. She was a biotic, like him. The only difference, was that he had one of the prototypes of the L4 while she had the L3s. It didn't matter, she was nearly as powerful as he was.
They were under different COs, whenever they returned to Arcturus Station, they'd get together, and spend every minute they had before they were separated by duty. Sometimes, they'd even spar, just for fun. Steve took her down gently, unlike Garrus did with his. She was a quiet one, like him, but they would talk to each other whenever they were.
He missed her the most every day that passed by. It was like three nightmares in one, but Sarah being the worse. The other two...was losing his friends, and Thresher Maws.
Despite months of therapy, it didn't help at all, obviously.
And there's chapter 2!
Don't worry, Samara will show up in Chapter 3!
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~Dark