Thank you guys for the massive amounts of reviews/subscriptions. I was really shocked at the amount of people who liked this ship. I beginning to like it too, though we all knew this will never happen. Because of the love you guys have given me, I have prepared another chapter for you guys to read. Please enjoy!
That One Night
Everything after the drunken encounter became a blur to Rachel. Rachel recalled the New Directions winning Regionals, but losing at Nationals their junior year. Kurt came back to McKinley again for his senior year with Blaine following him. It was then that Kurt and Blaine became an item at McKinley, forming a club of haven for the homosexuals in the school. Their last year at McKinley was really memorable as the unity between the Glee club members grew, although Rachel barely talked to Blaine during the school year because she delved back into a relationship with Finn. Rachel had the high hopes that the relationship would've lasted, but it seemed that as their graduation date approached, Rachel and Finn slowly grew apart.
Blaine and Rachel did have their little moments together. Mr. Schue gave them the opportunity of performing a show stopping duet of their own at Nationals after recognizing Blaine as having a far more superior voice compared to Finn. Though Blaine was in a relationship with Kurt and was somewhat sure of his homosexuality, he found himself confused during that time with Rachel. Somehow their drunken kiss the previous year left a lasting impression on their minds. But Rachel remembered her promise to not break Kurt's heart and Blaine remembered that Kurt was his boyfriend and that he is gay, so their time together, though it carried an underlying sexual tension, was spent professionally as possible. And the duet they did, a song from the seminal musical Oklahoma aptly named "People Will Say We're in Love", was spectacular and it wowed the audience so much that both Blaine and Rachel received a minute of a standing ovation. That along with the New Directions performing the theme for the Glee club "Don't Stop Believin'" was enough for New Directions to clinch the National title. Rachel remembered Will tearfully congratulating them and informing them that "Don't Stop Belivin'" was finally a 10. Rachel recalled hugging Blaine (well she hugged everyone) for a long time before she ran back into the hands of Finn Hudson.
The following week was the prom, which was an important time for the seniors as it was the last time they thought they would be with each other. It was during that time, Rachel made one final push to feel something again with Finn, to reignite the spark they once had. She lost her virginity that night to Finn, hoping that it would reawaken their love for one another. It didn't. The following day, she called it quits with Finn.
Kurt found out about this and he informed Blaine of what had happened. Out of the blur, Rachel recalled Blaine coming to comfort her in the middle of the night.
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The night after Finn and Rachel's breakup
Blaine's POV
As much as I hated to play around with this doubt again, I knew Rachel needed some cheering up. I kept running the idea across my mind as I walked to Rachel's house that warm May night. I had no idea why Rachel did what she did, but I think being a girl has something to do with it. Kurt informed me in school that Rachel and Finn had just broken up after she gave up her virginity to Finn. Now as much I love sappy romance, losing one's virginity to someone that you're not sure is your true love is not romantic or special. You don't make love with someone who you think you might love. That's why it's called "making love". Well, I'm just a hopeless romantic. Besides, I don't think I'm ever going to make love to a woman anyway, so that shouldn't be an issue.
Moving on.
If Kurt hadn't told me, I don't think I would've known. I glanced over at her during Glee rehearsal. I should've known something was going on because Finn was not present at practice. Rachel's behavior was strange. She acted as if she didn't just go through a break-up. Rather, she was smiling and continued with her usual "I'm better than all of you" antics. It was so strange. Kurt thought she must've thought nothing about it at all or she must've gotten over it pretty quickly, but I knew something was up while I was observing Rachel at the end of rehearsal. It was just a quick moment, but when Mr. Schue dismissed the group and everyone started packing up, I noticed a frown formed on her face and I could've sworn I saw a tiny droplet of tear (yes, I am that acute at observation, though people say I lack the common sense). If you didn't see it in that first five seconds, you wouldn't have guessed that Rachel Berry was sad over her breakup because as soon as those five seconds passed, her face perked up again. She flashed a smile at me, but I wasn't going to fall for that. Needless to say, I was going to go cheer her up. What better way to do that than to serenade her with a song while playing my guitar.
As I was setting out on this endeavor and carrying the guitar in my hand, I regretted not telling Kurt about where I was going. He and I have been dating for awhile now. Let me tell you that Kurt is probably one of the best friends I have ever known. I quickly fell in love with him after he informed me of his crush on me and the fact that we were singing flirty duets together after the incident at the Gap. I didn't have the courage to ask him on a date because I was still sorting myself out after that drunken kiss with Rachel.
A pause for a moment in my life story please.
First of all, I wanted to clarify something. That drunken kiss with Rachel was exactly like it sounded. It was a kiss that was done during a game of "Spin the bottle" while she and I were drunk. I admit, I was somewhat aware of the situation and to this day, I still swore to Kurt that I was extremely inebriated when I kissed Rachel, but the truth of the matter is, I was not THAT drunk and I definitely had my mind intact when I kissed Rachel.
I don't know. After kissing Kurt, I could still not tell what my preferences were. Rachel was my first kiss and you know how people usually say the first kiss was the most memorable. I will affirm with this statement. Kissing Rachel was one of my fondest memories. Because of that, I came upon a crisis in my life. At Dalton, I gave off the appearance of being confident in my sexuality. I was certain that I was gay, but my kiss with Rachel made me look not just at that one angle. I started doubting myself, thinking that I was not gay at all and maybe I was straight or even bi, but somehow, Kurt brought me back to play for the team again.
After our defeat at the Regionals competition, I was really devastated because the Warblers and I practiced our asses off and we sang with everything we had up on that stage, but it still wasn't enough. New Directions won a well-deserved victory, showing their unity once more. I felt depressed, but Kurt comforted me afterwards. After talking for a bit, Kurt did the unexpected. He gave me a peck on the lips and I gave into him. At that moment, I realized that I shouldn't doubt myself anymore. Kurt made me realize that he was always there whenever I had my ups and my downs. And that kiss was spectacular. Just like that, I reciprocated and from then on, we started dating.
After hearing the news of the New Directions losing horribly on the National stage, Kurt propositioned to me that we should go to McKinley High in order to help the New Directions. Kurt was my boyfriend and I promised that I would do whatever he wanted, so we ended up joining the New Directions once more. The doubt of being straight never came up again even after I met Rachel for the first time since the party at the first Glee rehearsal. It wasn't until Mr. Schue assigned me and her as duet partners at Nationals did that uncertainty come up again.
But that's another story for later, I thought as I approached Rachel's house.
I could see Rachel's room on the second floor (the Barbra Streisand poster was a dead giveaway). I did not know whether or not she was in it until I heard her faint voice warbling "Think of Me". It was muffled, but I could still detect that hint of sadness behind it. It really broke my heart to see Rachel trying to stay positive, even though she was hurting on the inside.
I began looking around for pebbles on the ground to throw at her window in order to get her attention, but strangely, there weren't any. There were pinecones, however.
"I guess that'll work," I thought, picking up a handful of pinecones and began chucking them at Rachel's window. After throwing several pinecones, I saw Rachel's figure approaching the window. She was wearing a breathtaking white gown that did little to hide her feminine assets. My heart immediately started pumping faster.
"Okay, Blaine. Calm down. You're gay, remember," I reassured myself.
Rachel opened the window and peered outside, trying to see who it was. It was really dark, so I don't blame her. I knew she could see my clothes since I was wearing the brightest clothes possible. I must've been really tan, I thought.
"Blaine?" Rachel asked, confused, "What are you doing here?"
I flashed a smile at her and replied, "Well, I thought you could use some cheering up. I heard about your break-up."
"But I'm all right. You don't have to do that," Rachel said, but I could tell it was a lie, hearing the strain when she said it.
"Can't lie to me, Miss Berry," I answered with a laugh, "You're just in denial and you're trying your best to bury that hurt, but I can tell that you need a good cry to let go of that pain"
"Blaine, I'm not going to cry and I'm not in pain, you loveable oaf," Rachel giggled.
"Okay, we'll see how you feel after I sing my song. Sit back and enjoy my impromptu performance. Forgive me though ahead of time. I just heard it on YouTube," I replied, picking up my guitar.
"Oh, my God! You're not seriously going to sing to me, are you?" Rachel asked incredulously.
I didn't answer her question as I strummed the first chord of the song.
Not just you, Rachel, but me as well.
I've been alone I've seen you crying Baby, you're not alone Now I know it ain't easy Baby, you're not alone I still have trouble
Surrounded by darkness
I've seen how heartless
The world can be
You felt like it's hopeless
I'll always do my best
To make you see
Cause you're here with me
And nothing's ever gonna bring us down
Cause nothing can keep me from lovin' you
And you know it's true
It don't matter what'll come to be
Our love is all we need to make it through
But it ain't hard trying
Every time I see you smiling
And I feel you so close to me
And you tell me
Cause you're here with me
And nothing's ever gonna bring us down
Cause nothing can keep me from lovin' you
And you know it's true
It don't matter what'll come to be
Our love is all we need to make it through
I trip and stumble
Trying to make sense of things sometimes
I look for reasons
But I don't need 'em
All I need is to look in your eyes
And I realize
Baby I'm not alone Cause you're here with me
Cause you're here with me
And nothing's ever gonna take us down
Cause nothing can keep me from lovin' you
And you know it's true
It don't matter what'll come to be
Our love is all we need to make it through
And nothing's ever gonna bring us down
Cause nothing, nothing, nothing can keep me from lovin' you
And you know it's true
It don't matter what'll come to be
You know our love is all we need
Our love is all we need to make it through
As I played the last note of the song, I glanced up to see Rachel overcome with emotions, her eyes glistening with tears and her hands held close to her heart. When she saw me look at her, she immediately wiped the tears from her eyes as her body disappeared from the window.
Wow.
She probably didn't like it, I thought. Though I was disappointed, I felt accomplished that I made Rachel realize that she was hurting on the inside. I was supposed to cheer her up, but I think that I somehow made her even more depressed. That was a stupid song to sing anyway, I thought. Thanks a lot, Darren frickin' Criss.
I began walking away from her house, but I heard the front door to her house open. I immediately turned around just in time to see Rachel run up to me and tackle me with a hug. Let me just say, she was a very aggressive hugger. And also, I come to realize that we're about the same height and pretty hobbit looking too.
"Thank you," I heard her whisper.
"Actually, don't thank me. I don't think that was an appropriate song to sing in order to cheer you up," I laughed. Damn, I really was clueless.
"No, it was a great song. I really appreciated it," Rachel replied, looking up at me. I never realized how close she was to me or how beautiful her eyes looked. You know how some people compare the eyes to the stars or whatever. Well, I saw an immense twinkle in her eyes. I don't know why I did it, but the moment just felt right. I leaned forward until my lips crashed into hers.
I remember being extremely passionate, applying even greater pressure on her lips. I felt her doing the same. This kiss was much better than our previous kiss because this kiss was done sober. Maybe it had something to do with me being out of breath from that song I just sang to her. Lack of oxygen can heightened one's sensations…and it can also kill you, of course.
But back to the kiss.
What felt like an eternity slowly crumbled into seconds when I felt Rachel's hands pushed me. My lips (and I suspect her lips too) were tingling from one hell of kiss.
Her face contorted into shock at what had happened, though her body was doing the opposite. She wanted it. She wanted me, but her thoughts pulled her back.
Rachel immediately cried, "I can't do this," as she ran back with tears in her eyes again into the house, leaving me standing outside, embarrassed about what happened and more confused than ever. Apparently, we weren't alone as I could hear the neighbors groaning in the distance.
As I walked home slowly, my embarrassment immediately turned to shame. Rachel was the one who initiated the kiss last time that caught me off guard. This time, I was the one to do it. I not only kissed a girl, but I was also cheating on Kurt with a girl!
I don't know how I can face tomorrow.
God, please just strike me now!
Do you guys like it? Hate it? Please comment and I will love you forever. As for the update, I have to balance this out with my other story "Let Me Go", so it might be a little while (just a little though I promise). I hoped you enjoyed the chapter. I'm not sure how the storyline will go, but I somewhat have an idea. Have a great day and please comment!
PS: Can't wait for tomorrow's episode.
PSS: For the non-AVPM fans out there, the song is called "Not Alone" and it was written by Darren Criss, who plays Blaine of course. Listen to the song and petition the song so that it will played on Glee. Yay!
Question: Does anyone know what Blaine's future career could be (not showtunes though)? I might head the story in that direction, but if someone can give me an idea as to what Blaine might do in the future, I will add that in the story. Thanks a lot!