(this is like the last one, only Alex's thoughts)
Discapline and commitment. The two defining qualities of my world. This sickening, twisted yet brilliantly clever place I call reality insists that I obey the rules set by these narrow minded qualities.
Us vampires, we take pleasure in draining humans. It's more than a nessesity, it's enjoyable. Sucking the life out of them. Destroying their oh-so-differentreality, the spontaeous, creative, exciting one that only true happiness and a clear consience brings. I think we envy the open human mind.
I don't wish to be human. I am proud to call myself a vampire, and a member of the Volturi. I have a self satisfaction not many others have. I have true family (Jane) and the circumstances of my change has resulted in my thankfulness of everyday.
But sometimes I wish or something to capture me. To control me so completely. A burning desire that will never fizz out. But it comes at too high a cost.