I don't know what made me do it. I just couldn't take it anymore. Anything and everything that Rach did made me so angry. It wasn't the fact that she was nagging, she always did that. It wasn't the fact that I felt like I failed her. I don't know what made me pack that bag and speed off towards anywhere that wasn't Lima. But I needed out.

I loved Rachel. Of course I did. My love for her was stronger than anything I'd ever thought I'd loved in my entire life. More than football, more than singing, more than my mom and Burt and Kurt. But something... changed. And I couldn't figure it out. Rachel was acting weird. I didn't know if she was seeing someone else or what, but she wasn't herself. Not at all. I needed to figure out if this was really what I wanted. Or if we'd separate and I stay here in Lima with Arianna and Rach could finally go to New York and watch her dreams come true. Maybe that's what I'd do. Let her go. If she really loved me, then when she was happy, when she found herself again, she'd come back to me.

I pulled up to a hotel that was right on the outside of town. This would be as good a place as any to stay for a while, I supposed. I walked into the hotel and up to the front desk. "Good afternoon, welcome to the Freedmont Hotel. Can I help you?" The young woman couldn't have been older than twenty or twenty-one. She was blonde, and looked kind of like Quinn when we were in high school. Her nametag said Jillian.

"Yeah, I was wondering if you had any rooms available? I'm not really sure how long I'm going to stay… My wife and I are having some trouble and I needed to get out of the house." Wait, what? I don't need to tell her that. I don't even know this girl. "Is there a way I could rent a room and then pay for it when I leave? My wife and I are sort of having some trouble at home."

"Let me check with my manager, please wait just one moment." She smiled as she walked into the back room to get the manager. Jillian came back out a few minutes later and started putting something into the computer. "It looks like you're in luck, Mr…"

"Hudson. Finn Hudson." What? Why did I just say my full name? I don't even know this woman. She was attractive, though.

"Mr. Hudson." She said, putting emphasis on my name. "We have one room on the top floor. It's actually a suite, but I can give you a special rate if you're staying longer than 3 days." She entered my name into the computer and then handed me a room key. "There you are, sir. Room 1202, top floor."

"Thank you." I took the key from her hand, and it lingered for a few seconds.

"If you need anything, just call down here and I'll get you whatever you need." Jillian said before I walked away. "Anything you need." She winked at me just before I turned around heading towards the elevator.

I got in and looked at my feet as the doors closed. I didn't even know what to say to myself as I rode the elevator to the top floor. 'What did she mean by anything?' I really had no idea. After a few minutes, the doors opened and I walked down the hall to my room. I was so thankful that they even had a room for me, I didn't complain when I found out that it was a really big suite. There were at least two rooms in just the front. I walked through some more and found there were two bathrooms as well. 'This place is huge.' Just then the phone by the bed rang. "Hello?"

"Mr. Hudson? This is Jillian. From the front desk? I was just wondering how you were liking the room."

"Oh, well, it's beautiful. I feel like I'm in New York or something." I responded, chuckling.

"Yes, that is actually the New York suite." she said. "Do you need anything? A bottle of champagne? Company?"

I was taken aback. She really was hitting on me. I didn't know what I was doing as I heard "Some company and champagne would be lovely." come out of my mouth.

"I'll be right up." She said seductively.

I was stunned as I hung up the phone. What had I just done? I hadn't cheated or even thought about cheating since high school. And I couldn't just call and say I'd changed my mind, Jillian was already on here way up! I quickly put my bag down on one of the beds and took my toiletries bag into the bathroom. I heard a knock at the door and I knew that had to be her. I looked through the peephole and then opened the door. "Hi."

"Hi." she said, handing me a bucket of ice with a bottle in it. "This was the most expensive bottle we had. But don't worry! You don't have to pay for it. I took care of it already."

"Well, thank you. Please, come in."

"Thanks." she said, brushing her hand against my chest as she passed. "Mind if I turn on the TV?"

"No, go ahead." She turned it to a music channel that was playing soft, slow music like the kind Rach and I had had for our first dance.

"Come and sit." she said, motioning to the spot on the bed next to her. "I don't bite."

I went and sat next to her. We didn't really say anything for a while. After about twenty minutes she got up and went to the bathroom. I just awkwardly say on the bed, not really knowing what to do. Did I want to do this to Rachel? Could I do this to her? I didn't have time to think about it because when Jillian came of the bathroom, she was in nothing but her lingerie. She came right over to me and kissed me.

Oh shit.