AN: I appreciate the positive feedback thus far, so thank you very much.
To the reviewer who was confused about the "refreshing" line, I pulled that piece of dialogue because Therese is talking about interning in Newspaper publication. Newspapers have been going out of business for a long time and next to no one shows interest in keeping them alive - it is a dying art and there is not much money in it as everything is going electronic. So it is refreshing for Carol, who grew up with newspapers more than Therese, to see a younger person interested in the art and experience.
Also, I made Danny gay because, well frankly, why not? I am changing things and want to create a new atmosphere. Also because the representation of sexualities is important in all literature, even just fanfiction, so whenever I can play with sexuality I do. I also really admire the friendship he and Therese have and would like to explore that without him being a "rival", but him being gay does not have anything to do with that.
Therese woke up to bright sunshine. It was incredible to her, to feel the warm sun filter in across her face and warm the bridge of her nose. She slid her arms from under the covers, feeling stifled by the heat. She smiled.
She loved winter and Christmastime, but she hated the lack of natural light. Michigan was so dreary when the sun didn't shine. Everything was gray and sullen. It did nothing for her mood. She would wake up in the morning for class, wrapped in a blanket, and just sit at the end of her bed and scowl. Whenever the sun did peep out, Therese's mouth would pull at one corner before she even opened her eyes.
She looked around at the familiar room. Whenever there was a break, Therese went home with her college friend, Genevieve. The tall girl with dark curly hair had sat next to her in a theatre production class, asking Therese everyday if she could borrow a pencil until Therese started pulling one out to hand to her everyday. Once Genevieve, or Gi as Therese called her, learned that she had nowhere decent to go on breaks, she invited Therese along with her. They were close, but Therese kept her at arm's length. There was something intrusive about the way Gi looked at her and talked to her. It made Therese weary of sharing too many secrets for fear of what Gi might say in response.
What Therese did tell her was about her past. She talked about her mother, how they lived just the two of them, but never really talked. Therese was kept in an all girls boarding school for her entire school career. When it came to college, her mother willingly handed over any and all information, but insisted that all loans be taken out in Therese's name. Therese didn't mind, though. She didn't want to be in debt to her mother, in any way. She didn't know her well enough for that. So Therese went her own way, sending cards to her mother on her birthday and holidays. By her third year in college, she had stopped receiving any reply until around February when it was time to apply for FAFSA money again.
Therese laid in dark purple sheets, staring out the window at the residential street. Gi lived in a town just over from where she grew up. The sun reflected off the street sign on the corner and lit the soft grey walls of the room. She looked over at the bedside table. Carol's earring was shining brilliantly in the warm light. Reaching across the empty space, took in in her hand and stared at it. She would have to get Danny to take her back to the gallery to deliver it. He was heading over to take her out for coffee anyway.
She leaned over the side of the bed, pulling her backpack out and rifled through it for a pen and paper. On it, she wrote: I believe this is your earring from the other night, during the citywalk. We talked briefly at the gallery about that watercolor painting. I found this on the street. Have a lovely holiday season. ~ Therese Belivet
She would have to ask Gi's mother for an envelope.
Therese sat at the bar in the kitchen, listening as Gi and her mother playfully bickered with one another over breakfast. The two of them had no shame in name calling each other and yelling and cackling, even at nine in the morning. Therese could only sit and watch, smiling at their antics. Sometimes, Genevieve would rile up her mother and then turn to smirk at Therese. Therese would smile back, feeling her heart flutter a little at the excitement and at the mischief in which Gi would smile. Therese was never able to pinpoint what that meant exactly.
Therese was confused about a lot of things. Even though she had decided on a career path, she questioned it everyday. She wasn't sure where she belonged or what she really wanted. All her life she had made snap decisions only because there wasn't any time to be slow about it. She rushed through her life, and now she didn't really know where she stood. All she knew was the feeling in the pit of her stomach that happened at random it seemed, and there was no distinction between it and nervousness.
"Therese, would you like some french toast?" Gi's mother, when she wasn't yelling after Gi, was a sweet woman. Therese never felt out of place in her home. It was more more comfortable than any weekend spent with her own mother, and she was always so well taken care of.
"Yes, please. Thank you," Therese said.
Gi plopped down at the barstool next to her, drowning her french toast in syrup. "What's in the plans today, Belivet?"
"Coffee with Danny, and then some writing. I've got assignments due at the end of break."
Gi seemed a bit distant, slicing through her breakfast with a fork and bringing it to her mouth. Therese could see the pout before her mouth opened. "Sounds fun," was all she said.
Therese turned back to her own food. "I'll have time for a movie, though, later tonight?"
Gi smiled again. "Alright, I can get with that. Besides, I thought I might go see Richard."
Therese swallowed hard. "Why?"
"Well," Gi began, pushing her food around, "he's lonely and -"
"And he will buy you lunch," Therese finished for her.
"I like lunch."
"But you don't like him."
Gi turned to her, her eyes defensively shifting. "I do so!" A pause. "Just… not how he wants me to."
Therese rolled her eyes.
"Well, what, Terry, it's not like you're into him anymore. Besides, he really is decent to talk to and we did go to school together with Jack. We have a lot in common."
It was true, Therese supposed. But Therese still felt protective of him. She had unknowingly strung him along for a whole year, convinced that she liked him before calling it off out of frustration. He kept pressuring to move in with her and she just wasn't ready. And each time he slept over she felt more distant, no matter how tight he held her.
Richard had been introduced to her by Genevieve. She had gone to school with him and his friend Jack. Jack was friends with Danny and his older brother Phil. How Therese never met Richard or Genevieve until college was beyond her. When she was introduced to Richard, it seemed he was the only person interested in her. He asked her out, she said yes, plain and simple.
He was always in love with Gi, though. At at the end of the day, when she looked him in the eye and said she wasn't in love with him, he seemed to hold back. He wasn't as upset as she had thought he would be. He told her that maybe he was lying to himself, too. It was better for everyone involved, including Gi who seemed bitter whenever the three of them were in the same place. Therese assumed that Gi had feelings for Richard, but she would never say it. When Richard was single and Gi still didn't go after him, Therese was only confused more.
So now, here they all were. Genevieve was using Richard for free food and conversation and there was nothing she could really do about it. She was sure to hear about it from Danny as well. Gossip was sure to travel down the sticky web connection of friends. At least coffee this morning would be unusually interesting.
Danny picked up Therese, behind schedule as always. Therese constantly jokes with him, telling him he was perpetually a day late and a dollar short. She had no idea how he managed deadlines in his college work but it gave her anxiety to ask, so she didn't.
For coffee, Danny drove them to The Crow, where Angelo worked. Therese was happy about the change in scenery. The quaint little town was on the water and they would see the river from the top floor of the coffee shop. Beyond that, she knew that Angelo would be working and she didn't get to see him often.
"Do you two need another minute, or are you ready to order?" The waitress looked between them.
Therese looked at Danny with apologetic eyes.
"We will need another minute," he said for her.
The waitress walked away. "Therese, it's coffee, there are only so many options."
"Well, there's hot or cold, strong or weak, plain or latte, whip or no whip. There's endless possibilities, Danny." Therese looked at him very seriously before lifting her mouth into a smile.
By the time their waitress had come around again, Therese was ready, but changed her mind last minute, ordering tea instead of coffee altogether. That's when Angelo appeared.
Angelo walked toward them with a huge smile as Danny stood to hug him. Angelo ruffled his hair a little and then pulled himself a chair to sit in.
He placed a hand on Therese's shoulder. "Heya, lady. How've you been, hm?"
"Fine, just fine. Surviving."
"Oh you and Danny make a perfect match, so melodramatic."
Angelo's words always had a bite, but he looked at Therese so kindly that she never took it personally. She smirked at their held hands on the table. She never knew someone who could tease so hard, all while holding his lover's hand and thumbing it affectionately.
They caught up, each reliving horror stories of their second to last semester of college, laughing at the amount of laziness with which they all managed to push through. They all agreed that once you made it to your senior year of college you were too exhausted to even pretend you wanted to be there anymore.
"Hey, Therese, what's with the envelope?" Danny asked.
Therese hadn't realized she'd been fondling the envelope with the earring and message for Carol.
"Well, since we are out I figured we could head your way and return Carol's earring."
Angelo's face twisted. "Who's Carol?"
"She's the new curator for SmoothWater's gallery," Danny explained.
"OH, oh! Carol Aird, of course! That woman's name is getting around. She breezed in from New York or something. Heard she's battling a grizzly divorce." Angelo's eyebrows lifted.
Therese watched as Angelo and Danny went back and forth talking, but all she could think about was Carol. She was divorcing? Angelo had used the word grizzly. She thought about that night she had seen her, how put together she was, how calm she was. It always amazed Therese when people were going through trauma but it never showed. Carol seemed so… special. She was independent, intelligent, artistic. Therese couldn't figure out what would make someone want to divorce her.
Danny dropped Therese off in front of the gallery while he went to fill up his gas tank. Therese was glad for that as well, feeling like she wanted to deliver the message herself. She was pulling the envelope out of her purse when she saw a flash of blonde from behind one of the gallery windows. Therese would have to improvise, so she tore to envelope open and put the earring in her hand.
The door made a soft tinkling sound as she opened it and two heads whipped around to greet her. Carol smiled brightly. The woman beside her had mahogany colored hair and an intense stare. Her eyes were nearly black.
"Hello," said Carol, walking toward her.
"Hi," said Therese. "I don't know if you remember me, but I'm-"
"Therese. Of course I remember." Carol smiled again. She turned and motioned to the other woman. "This is Abby, my dear friend. She came all this way to help run this place while I curate."
Therese bowed her head a little and smiled to Abby. The woman continued to stare, but her eyes softened and her teeth flashed in a brief smile.
"What brings you in," Abby asked.
"Well, actually, I wanted to return something to Carol."
Carol looked at Therese, her gaze burning directly through her, just as radiant as the sun that was still shining. "Return what?"
Therese placed her hand out to Carol. "I think this is your earring. It was on the ground after the citywalk."
Carol took the earring, immediately sure that it was hers. "Oh thank you! I thought this was gone forever." She looked at Therese again. "You didn't have to bring this all the way back here. Or do you live nearby?"
"I live a city or so over, but my friend lives here. It's no big deal, really."
Therese watched as Abby disappeared into the back of the gallery, leaving them alone.
"There are real silver you know, I really thought I lost them. Will you let me repay you, please? Do you have any time? I could buy you a coffee or something just next door."
Therese felt her heart rate increasing. "You really don't have-"
"It's the least I can do." Carol looked at her, a small smile playing about her lips and she stood tall. Therese couldn't say no.
"Alright, you win."
Texting Danny her current situation, she walked through the alley and into the coffee shop, following close behind Carol. The sway of her hips as she walked was hypnotic and Therese wondered how she did it. She walked over ice without slipping, regardless of the thin black heels on her feet.
"What would you like," Carol asked. She referenced to the overhead menu.
Here it was again, another panicky moment for Therese to make a split decision.
"I'll have whatever you're having." Therese smiled.
"Well," Carol began, "that's that. Why don't you go find us a table."
Therese sat down at a table for two by the window. It was a secluded little spot, but she could watch and faintly hear as Carol ordered, her low voice seeming to bounce gently off of the dark woods within the coffee shop.
When she returned, she was balancing two drinks and pastries on a wooden tray.
"I'm much for black coffee but something tells me you're more of a sweet and cinnamon kind of gal." Carol set the tray down. "As for snacks you have no choice because the glazed donuts here are the best and I won't hear anything different."
Therese laughed and Carol did as well. There was an easy feeling between them, even though Therese's face was feeling hot and her pulse rapid. If she had ever been confused about attraction, she was not confused now. This woman's perfume was circling her and Therese wanted nothing more than to succumb to those dizzying circles and collapse into the woman's neck, right at the source.
"I think it's your perfume I smell… it's nice," Therese managed to say.
"Carol looked straight at her. "Oh, well thank you. Harge bought it for me, before we were married. I haven't changed it."
Who was Harge, she wondered. "Is Harge your husband?"
"Yes, well, he was. We're separated, soon to be divorced." Carol said it flatly.
"I'm sorry."
Carol smiled. "Don't be, I'm not."
They both looked out the window then, watching snow fall lightly. Carol was the first to speak again.
"What about you? Was that a date last night?"
Carol was very forward, but it was thrilling, Therese decided. She cut right to the chase. "Danny? Oh no, he's my best friend. Definitely not into me. I remain single."
"Really?" Carol seemed surprised.
"Well there was Richard, but that didn't work out. I'm not decisive enough."
"How so?"
"Well," said Therese, feeling her cheeks growing hotter, "I can't even decide what to order at a coffee shop."
As they finished up, Therese peered down at her watch.
"I haven't made you late for something, have I?"
"Oh no, it's fine. What about you?"
"No. Abby doesn't mind." Carol took her last sip of coffee. "Do you have a ride home?"
Therese pulled out her phone. "I just have to call Danny."
"Are you sure, I wouldn't mind driving you." Therese wondered if she could ever say no to this woman. She would have to try.
"No no, I am twenty miles in the city over, much too far away."
"Nonsense! I am new in town and I don't really know what else is here besides this little area. Plus, Abby won't mind."
Therese couldn't argue with that. 'Well, alright then."
The walk to her car seemed nonexistent and before Therese could catch up with her heart, Carol was turning her car at the stoplight and heading out of town.
Her car was spacious with tan interior and mildly tinted mirrors. It was a mercedes, a classy car, and just what Therese would have expected. She didn't expect the minute smell of smoke, but when Carol cracked her window and lit up, it seemed almost obvious.
"Oh I should have asked, is this alright?"
Therese nodded. "I don't mind."
"I should quit, you know? My daughter Rindy… she makes me feel so guilty and I really should just do it, for her at least."
"You have a daughter?" Therese was surprised.
"I do. She's four. She's with our nanny right now while Harge and I work. His business brought him out here so I had to move in order to keep up to the custody agreement."Carol took a long drag on her cigarette and blew it out the window. "She's wonderful though, absolutely wonderful."
Therese was quiet, content in listening to Carol talk about her life. She talked calmly about Rindy and Harge, giving faint details about the divorce, but nothing too personal. Therese looked out at the road stretched ahead of them and felt as if there were endless possibilities. She felt safe.
"What about you?"
"What about me?"
Carol tilted her head back and laughed. "Yes, you. I've chewed up ten miles worth of time and you haven't said a word." Carol puffed again. "Are you staying with your parents?"
"No, with my friend, Genevieve."
"Surely you'll go home to your family for Christmas?"
Therese sighed. She had the urge to tell Carol everything, but she kept it short like she always did. "It was just me and mother, but she and I were never close. Sent me to boarding school. So I'm on my own now and I come home with Gi - Genevieve - for holiday breaks."
Carol was quiet for a moment. "So are you not from around here?"
"No, I actually lived about ten minutes from the gallery when I was a child. That's how I know Danny."
"I see." Carol looked on ahead, unblinking. "What do you do on off days?"
Therese thought for a moment. Nothing, she supposed. "Nothing really, and you?"
"The same. I work from home mostly, trying to find artists. I have some really great pieces at home that I think you would really like. Would you be interested in coming over, say on Sunday?"
Therese didn't even think about it. "Yes."
"So strange you are, so decisive about the strangest things."
"What do you mean?" Therese asked, turning to look at her for the first time since she got in the car.
"It's like you're flung out of space or something."
Carol locked eyes for a moment, clearly not afraid of swerving ir losing the road.
They both smiled.