thanks for the reviews and follows. sorry delena shippers. while there will be soem delena moments in Damon's story i just don't like elena. its been about a week since caroline's story. if you need me to clarify anything or just want to know who is in for what just ask. now on with the story.

Elena's Story

Waking up to a mental breakdown is never fun. The scream came from the bathroom down the hall. As my head cleared I realized it was Caroline.

Everybody breaks down their first week. Usually because of adjusting to the institute. Still I stumbled over.

The smell of vomit gave her away. Rebekah guessed right. Bulimia. I placed my arms around her in comfort while the nurses called her nurse.

Nurse Jayne led her away from me after a few minutes.

My weekly session was this morning so I headed to Dr. Fell office at the wall (main building). She had chocolate curls and a summer tan.

"I heard you where there when Caroline had an accident," she prompted.

Oh so I cut to deep and it's an "attempted suicide" but when Caroline makes herself throw up it's an accident.

I avoided eye contact as I nodded.

"Why did you comfort her?"

"Because she's my friend. She's adjusting and it sucks."

"Is she," added Dr. Fell. When I didn't reply she chooses a different track. "You've been taking care of Caroline since she arrived. Do you blame yourself?"

Yes.

"Why would I? Because I knew this would happen. I knew and I did nothing.

"Elena you-"

I interrupted, "I knew she'd breakdown this week and I did nothing. If I had done something, if I had told someone it wouldn't have happened."

She sighed, "it's a natural reaction to breakdown and resort to thing you're here for. It's not your fault."

"But I knew and did nothing! I could have stopped IT!"

"Elena," she explained, "we know the North Korean's have bombs yet if they bomb us it's not your fault or mine. You can't fix people. You can only tell them. It's up to them to fix their selves."

Tears were streaming down as I shook my head.

"You don't understand! It's my fault we went out! They didn't want to! I KILLED THEM" I yelled in sick desperation.

Guilt. It felt good to finally admit out loud. I killed my parents. If it wasn't for me we wouldn't have gone out. The crash wouldn't have happened.

"Ele-", she started but our time was up and I rushed to my room.

Sometime later Bonnie steered me to the cafe. I switched onto automatic again.

I spent the next hour out of my head listening to Caroline pretend she's fine and babble about people I didn't know.

Out of sight, out of mind. As long as I don't have time to think I'll be fine.

"Klaus and Rebekah are getting a visit today," Bonnie smirks.

Elijah.

Caroline catches on quickly.

"So is he as cute as his brother?"

"In a teacher crush kind of way. He has the whole gentleman thing going on," Bonnie comments.

I let my hair fall as I blush.

"My lady would you like me to open the pill box for you," Caroline deepen her voice. "I'm on Zoloft. Apparently I need pills."

" tongue them," says Damon sliding in next to Bonnie. "Hey Elena, Sabrina, and Carebear."

"Hi fluffykins'" Caroline smirked. I smirked unable to help myself.

It took Damon half an hour to teach Caroline to tongue her pills. Bonnie and I frowned.

"Damon" I whined, "She won't get better that way."

Damon smirked, "look who's talking Elena."

I rolled my eyes as Bonnie turned to stare at me. She sighed and looked away.

"Caroline wanna go flip through channels," asked Bonnie.

Caroline was oblivious to the cold shoulder Bonnie gave me as she walked away with her. I got it. Bonnie thought I wasn't taking treatment seriously. Out of sight out of mind.

"So wanna walk around the courtyard now that Sabrina's ignoring you," smirked Damon.

"I'm not suicidal," I justified, "I don't need pills. I didn't try to off myself. I'm not like you Damon!"

"Wake up sweetheart. You're here for a reason," retorted Damon. There was an edge to his voice and I'd knew I'd overstepped.

He grabbed my arms hard enough to leave bruises. "Oh but I'm just crazy, right! I'm just not normal, but you're fine! Get over it Elena, your one of us. Just like you view us, they view you," he shouted as he shook me.

I whimpered. No he was lying I'm not crazy. I'm not like them. I'm-fine.

Suddenly the nurses appeared and got Damon off of me. Someone was making mewling sounds. I wasn't sure who was holding me, pulling me towards Dr. Fell office when I realized the sounds were coming from me.

"Elena. . . Elena. . . Elena. Do you want to talk about it," asked Dr. Fell. She let me cry and sob for who knows how long.

"I told them to go out. I made them," I started.

"Who did you make go out," she asked.

"My parents. It's my fault."

"Did you crash their car?"

I was confused, "No?"

"Did you give the other driver alcohol?"

I didn't understand what she wanted to know. "I'm sorry I don't understand."

"The drunk driver was responsible. Had they not gotten drunk your parents would have been fine."

I shook my head, "but I convinced them to go out."

"And they would have been fine had it not been for the drunk driver. You are blameless Elena," Dr. Fell said.

I was stunned. And the sobbing finally stopped. She allowed me to leave once the tears stopped.

I stepped out to be greeted by Elijah Mikaelson, Rebekah and Klaus' older brother. Worst timing ever.

"Elena, am I correct," he asked.

I nodded not trusting my voice.

"If it is not a bother could you tell me where I might find my siblings?"

To this day I don't know how Bonnie finds out these things. "Uhh, yeah. Sure. Why not." I'm an idiot.

"Thank you," he replied.

I walked towards the rec center. Klaus usually hung out in the art room, and he knew where Rebekah would be.

We walked in silence for a bit before Elijah broke the silence, "Are you, alright? I loath to intrude on your personal business but you seem rather down."

I swallowed, "I've just been dealing with some internal struggles. And I'm not sure what to believe or what to do."

He stopped walking. Great now I've scared him off.

"I believe that you should do what you think is right for you, but do not disregard your friends opinions," he looked slightly awkward when he added, "and your doctors."

"Thank you," I blushed hopping he didn't notice. I smiled towards him and started walking again.

He noticed my smile and smiling added, "You look better with a smile Elena. It lights you up."

OH MY GOD. Is he trying to flirt? Before I could say anything else we arrived at the art room and he went over to Klaus.

"Thank you," said Elijah.

I left them to do their brother thing while for the first time in eight months I didn't feel any guilt or weight on top of me. I was just happy. And it felt good.

I laid down in a quieter spot of the quad and let the sunlight dance on my skin. Maybe I should just take the damn pills. Bonnie had improved. So it might help me. And then me and Elijah might have a shot.

No. That would never happen. I was an eighteen year old girl with no future or career in mind. Meanwhile Elijah was, from what we'd found out, a successful business man in his early to mid twenties. Why would he bother with me. He was just being nice. My good mood faded as I faded into sleep.

I jumped as Rebekah appeared above me.

She grinned, "he's back. Called it."

"Oh god," said Damon.

We all gathered at the windows to see him being led in again. Klaus looked pleased. His favorite playmate was back. Kol Micheals.

Kol isn't related to Elijah, Klaus or Rebekah so i changed the last name. Read & hopefully review. thanks