So here's chapter two. I know that the feelings aren't described that good. But I hope you'll like it nevertheless.
Just listen to sad music while reading :D That always works.
Chapter 2
When Hiroki woke up the next day the other bedside was empty.
„ Nowaki?", he asked into the empty room as he vaguely remembered that Nowaki had left last night.
I wonder where he went? It was terribly early... I guess I'll ask him later.
He slowly stood up and blushed as his lovers semen dripped out of him.
„ Damn him..."
He somehow didn't feel good at all. He had a feeling that something wasn't right. Something with Nowaki. With what Nowaki had said last night. But he couldn't remember what it could have been.
That's ridiculous. He just went to work or something like that... He'll write me later like he always does. Annoying me...
Hiroki smiled at that thought.
But the smile dissappeared when he opened his phone and had no new messages as Nowaki always send him a morning mail everytime he was out.
A that's stupid... I guess he's still busy.
Although he tried to calm himself he worried about Nowaki the whole morning.
His students soon realized that he wasn't concentrating on his job so they began to talk.
He didn't care. He didn't even notice.
As he wanted to look for a mail in his break he realized that he had forgotten his phone at home and it made him uneasy.
He vaguely remembered that Nowaki had told him that he was leaving and that he'd write him.
„ Goodbye..."
Suddenly Hiroki realized why it had bothered him.
Nowakis voice... it had sounded so... final. Like he's never come back.
Hiroki shivered at the thought. His chest tightened.
Pull yourself together...It's not like that ever would happen.
But Hiroki couldn't help to tremble out of fear.
" Stupid! Write me!", he tipped into his phone and send it.
He was quite sure that Nowaki would answer to that. He almost could imagin the reply.
" Whatever I did...I'm sorry. I'm coming over now! I love you Hiro-san."
But the reply didn't come.
Two days had passed. And Hiroki still didn't get any message from his lover.
The last two days he went sleeping with his phone in his hands. The last thing he'd see before falling asleep was the screen, telling him that he had no new messages.
When he woke up it was the first thing he's look at.
His pride had kept him from calling his boyfriend. He thought of a reason why Nowaki wouldn't get in touch with him.
He tried to think of something that may have annoyed the younger boy. But even if he did...Nowaki wasn't the person to frown over it.
Hiroki took a deep breath as he opened his phone and entered Nowakis number.
„ This number is currently out of service. This number is currently out of service. This number is-"
He looked at his phone in shock.
Out of service? He got a new number? Why didn't he tell me?
His heart began to throb painfully.
Nowaki? Where are you?
He was really worried now. What if something had happened. What if Nowaki had been in a accident.
He couldn't bear that thought.
He grabbed his bag and went out of the house, towards the university as he didn't want to neglect his work.
His eyes were on his feet, trying to concentrate on the steps to keep his mind from wandering of.
„ Ah... Kamijou-san?"
Hiroki looked up seeing a young woman whom he didn't recognize at first. It took him a while until
he identified her as one of Nowakis friends.
„ Kotoko-san, right?" She nodded.
„ How are you?", Hiroki asked politly.
„ Oh...I'm good. And you?"
„ I'm fine, thank you..." There was akward pause.
„ Ähm...Kotoko-san...if you don't mind me asking... but do you know anything about Nowaki? I can't reach him on his phone and...and I don't know where he is..."
Kotoko didn't answer and just looked at Hiroki in great shock.
„ I thought...", she began but stopped.
Hiroki felt how his heart tightened.
„ You thought what?", he asked with a dry voice.
He saw her swallow hard and then she slowly began to talk again.
„ Nowaki...he moved to America about three days ago. He wanted to study there... As you might propably know he wants to be a doctor... But I thought you knew... I mean regarding your relationship..."
„ To America?", he asked while his voice broke.
She's joking right? He would have told me... he would have...
But he saw that Kotoko meant it.
„ Ah thank...you..."
His heart squeezed, leaving him no air to breath.
He didn't wait for the woman to answer him. He turned around and walked toward his apartment.
His eyes were dead, showing no feelings. They starred into the air while he walked to the house like he was in trance.
He couldn't think staight anymore.
He sat on his bed and then slowly bowed over and opened the drawer, taking a small black box out of it.
As he flipped the small item open it reveald two rings, lying there in peace.
And suddenly his feelings came back at once.
First there was the anger. His hands currled up in fists nearly crashing the box.
„ Shit...Damn...", he shouted while he threw his bedside lamp on the floor.
„ Shit... If he was going to leave me from the beginning...then why did he... Damn... Why? Wh-"
He coughed, trying to catch his breath.
Tears streamed down his face.
„ Why the hell-" He coughed time while holding his throat.
Can't breath...
He felt something cutting his hand. He looked down on the box that was now broken and covered with his blood.
„ Shit...why did I even..."
He threw the box away and then bowed over to ease the pain in his chest.
There's no use for it now... I don't need that anymore...Nowaki isn't here...He... left me...
He couldn't see anymore. His eyes were filled with tears that soon flowed down his cheeks.
He's fet up with me...
His throat hurt. No everything did.
He currled up on the bed. Like an fotus he built a ball.
At the end he hated my temper... I thought he really loved me... I guess that was just wishful thinking on my part.
So this was chapter 2 :d I hope you liked it. I hope it was better with the feelings at the end. But I still have to get into this story as I'm totally in Misaki&Usagi mode right now. Hope you will continue on reading.
please review :D And thanks.