Thanks to Anna for beta-ing.
To imagine Bella's hair picture Dakota Fanning's hair in Push except Bella's is brunette.
EPOV"Edward! Over here! Give us a sexy look!" One reporter called from my left, I turned to her and gave her the sex smile as I tugged on my hair.
"Edward can I ask you a few questions!?" I walked over to the reporter closer to my Volvo and tried to block out the other dozen reporters and photographers that were yelling my name and trying to get the million dollar picture.
"How can I help you ma'am?"
She didn't waste anytime with cutting to the chase. "Can you confirm the rumors that you are indeed dating Tanya Denali? Why was she spotted coming out of you apartment early last Saturday morning?"
I tugged nervously at my uncontrollable locks, I wanted to tell the truth. Yes Tanya was a whore and I fucked her once or twice but there was no way in hell that I would date her but it looks good and promotes the movie if you are seen dating your co-stars so I just threw out 'the line' that all celebrities do when they are asked to confirm who they are dating. "I can't say." And then cue the nervous laughter.
I quickly hopped into my car and drove off to my brand new penthouse apartment. It was too modern for me, it looked like something out of a sci-fi flick or some shit. It wasn't me at all.
It was too cold and stiff, I like living in a worn in area with old beat up furniture and stained carpet, it's more comfortable.
I threw my keys on the steel counter and listened to the CLACK of metal on metal contact echoing throughout the entire apartment. I sat in one of the barstools and just well, sat there for what seemed like forever trying to figure out what to do now.
I didn't know many people out in New York except my sister Alice and her husband Jasper. Oh and I forgot about Tanya and the rest of the cast. But other than that I am completely on my own. I mean sure my fans recognize me and stalk me but I don't have anyone to talk to or confess things to, I lost all my real friends a while back when I started being a jackass and got all full of myself. Fuck them.
No, fuck me.
I heard my cell phone ringing and reach into my pocket.
I have had this phone for like four moths and I still cannot figure out how to work the goddamn piece of shit.
I pushed a few buttons and heard Alice's shrill voice through the speakers. "Edward! Will you please fuckin learn how to work your phone!"
I put the phone up to my ear, "Sorry sister dear, I'm working on it. What's up?"
"Well Jasper and I ran into a few of our old friends and they invited us to go to their bar tonight and we would like to know if you would join us."
Every time I go out I always get raped by fans or run down by paparazzi, going out usually isn't too great of an experience for me anymore.
Alice must've sensed my hesitation and she tried to reassure me, "You can wear your beanie and Ray Bans, maybe even a fake mustache, no one will even notice you. I'll ask Rose if you can go in the back way. Come on please please please!" Even though she wasn't right in front of me I could feel her puppy dog look effect hit me and weaken my refusal skills.
"Ugh! Fine Alice! Just this once, pick me up at 8. Bye."
"Love you big brother, see you then."
I ripped out what felt like four fists of hair and headed to my ultra chic and ultra uncomfortable bedroom and fell down onto my wood-like mattress.
I reached over to my side table and picked up my universal remote and pushed a few buttons to set the alarm for 7 o'clock tonight and then a few more buttons to completely block out any light that could come in through the large windows in my room.
I climbed into my bed and turned my body around until I got in a comfortable fetal position. I still couldn't fall asleep, so I turned to drastic measures. I grabbed my phone and called information to find the nearest furniture store and called them immediately.
"Hello, Ashley Furniture how may I help you?"
"Hi, I need your biggest and most comfortable bed in stock preferably in black. Price is not an issue." I told her my last name and address and she told me that it would be delivered sometime tomorrow.
I eventually fell asleep on my boulder of a bed and was awoken a few hours later by my stereo blasting Hey Monday. That alarm is fucking annoying but at least it gets the job done.
I rolled out of bed and stumbled to my weird bathroom that looks like it was made for a robot, are you starting to see the pattern of my interior decoration yet?
I took off my boxers and threw them into the laundry basket, which was overflowing since I had neglected to do my laundry over the past few weeks. Of course I had a maid that would be more than willing to do the laundry for me but something creeped me out about an old crinkly woman washing my dirty undergarments, plus the last one sold a few pairs on eBay to some crazed fans.
I stepped into the warm shower and let the shocking heat fully wake my sleep-deprived body. The nap I had just taken was the first time in two or three weeks that I had gotten more than four hours of sleep. After awhile I had just been sleeping in one hour spurts whenever I could manage it. I was glad that filming was finally over because maybe now I could actually sleep at night, I swear I've become nocturnal.
The water in the shower had reached a scalding temperature and I just fucking sat there and let the watery flames lick at my skin causing red welts to form. I was starting to look like Clifford the big red dog so I turned the dial to the left to turn down the temperature.
I grabbed my Axe shampoo bottle and lathered up my hair that was getting a little too long. I grabbed my loofa and washed my body with more Axe products that I got for free, but only if I promote it. So now everywhere I go I have to name drop Axe so I can keep getting free shit. I put the loofa back on the shower shelf and realized that I was using a fucking loofa and that I could now officially call myself a chick. I mean what man uses a loofa?
I got out of the warm shower and shivered, the air conditioning was on and it was November. Who in their right mind turns on the air conditioning on in one of the coldest months of the year?
I threw on a towel and ran into the kitchen to turn on the heat. I found the thermostat easily but figuring out how to work it was the tough part. I pushed about 6 or 7 different buttons until I heard the furnace blast to life and I took that as a sign that I did it right surprisingly enough.
I headed back to my room and went straight to my closet which was stocked with all the latest fashions thanks to Alice and a few of my own personal favorite vintage items from my old life that I couldn't bear to throw away.
I pulled out some overly expensive designer jeans-True Religion I think- and put them on. They fit too snugly for my taste but at least they weren't like the Jonas Brothers type of jean. I put on a snug navy blue shirt that was completely plain and I grabbed my old worn out leather jacket that I'd had for practically over 5 years now. The black leather was broken down now, soft and supple, not the usual stiff, unbreakable fabric that it once was.
I grabbed my gray beanie and Ray Bans and threw on a pair of black trainers and waited in the kitchen for Alice to arrive.
I grabbed an Oreo Cakester and shoved it down my throat. The soft chocolate cakes satisfied my sugar cravings, but paired with the cream it was almost sickly sweet. I gulped down about a fourth of the milk jug and put it back into the bare fridge.
I could feel the bits and pieces of left behind Cakester and I rushed to the bathroom and removed all traces with my toothbrush. I swigged some painfully minty Listerine and rinsed out all the bacteria and plaque from my mouth and then repeated the process. Okay so maybe I was a dental hygiene freak.
I faintly heard the pounding of small fists on my front door. I grabbed my wallet and phone and placed my Ray Bans back onto my face and made sure I wasn't too recognizable. I jogged to the door because everyone knew that it was a terrible idea to keep Alice waiting.
I opened the door and looked down at Alice, my little sister. "Mary Alice Cullen Whitlock! What in God's name are you wearing!"
She had on a skin-tight pair of jeans that looked painted on but worse than that was her top. If that what it was of course. It was a gray vest thing that looked like it was draped over her tiny body and it was completely open showing off her sculpted stomach that she worked so hard to maintain. Underneath it she had a black cut-off tank that covered up her chest, I was thankful for that coverage.
"Edward shut up. It's not like you have any fashion sense. You look like a bum by the way. Come on, we're going to be late and Jazzy is waiting for us downstairs in the car."
She grabbed my hand and started dragging me down towards the car where Jazz was waiting in his black Beamer.
I got in the back of the car and hid my face from the window. Jasper should invest in tinted windows. I'll remind him later.
Alice was jittering in the passenger seat and looking anxious, "Jasper come on! I don't want to miss her perform! She is supposed to be amazing, some of my girlfriends were chatting about it at lunch today."
"Babe, I am driving as fast as I can and she doesn't go on for another hour so we'll make it." He placed his hand soothingly on hers and she seemed to calm down automatically. We stopped at a red light they gazed into each other's eyes not saying anything. They just sat there and smiled radiating love.
I looked away, I felt like I was intruding on a special, private moment.
It annoyed me when they did that. But it annoyed me because I was jealous. I never get jealous of anything or anyone, but I just wish I had someone that means what Alice means to Jasper. I would give anything for someone to love me for me and vice versa, but my life just doesn't work like that anymore. I get the girls who wouldn't make it through elementary school and are as deep as a baby pool, the ones with fake boobs the size of china and re-sculpted noses along with injected lips. The girls who are using me to get famous or who are just screwing me so that they can tell everyone that they are hooking up with 'Thee Edward Cullen'. They don't give a rat's ass about my thoughts, feelings, family, or interests. They look at me and see dollar signs.
I stopped my self-pity thoughts when we pulled up in front of the bar, Rem. It was bigger then normal bars and had a pretty long waiting line, which is more common for nightclubs, not bars. This must be a pretty kick-ass bar.
We waited for a second and the bouncer came over to the car. "There's no parking here. Sorry."
Alice looked up at the man who was four times her size. "Sorry sir, Rosalie told us we could park in the back lot, but it's blocked off by the gate. Oh and she said the password was 'vampire'." She smiled brightly and the man looked dazed.
"Oh yeah, hold on for a second and I'll get it open for you. The door to get it is just through the stairwell you can't possibly miss it."
"Okay thank you."
"It's my pleasure ma'am." He winked suggestively, Jasper started throwing daggers at the man and Alice just laughed at him as he went over to open the gate.
"Jasper calm down, at least he didn't grope me like the last one did." Jasper let out a deep breath and drove through the now open gate.
We drove through the gravel alley and he pulled up behind the brick building. He parked beside a red BMW. The only other car in the lot was a white jeep.
I got out of the car first and leaned against the side of it. Alice just sat there waiting for Jasper to get out and open her door for her. Jasper got out slowly, wearing on my patience. Chivalrous prick, "Just take your fucking time."
"Shut up, bitch."
He finally made it around to Alice's side and opened to door and grabbed her hand to help her out. He acted like she was in a huge-ass hummer that she couldn't climb down from without getting hurt.
I walked ahead of them, my long legs beating the pace of Alice's short ones.
I walked down the cement stairs and opened the large metal door with red paint that was peeling off. I held the door open for the happy couple and followed them inside.
It looked like a regular bar with the wooden floors and wooden bar with beer on tap and a bartender talking to the customers while filling orders. But there were a few things that were different than most there were bright couches adorning the sides of the place and flashing neon color lights making circles around the entire area. The tables were also neon colored and had matching chairs.
At the back of the bar there was a huge stage complete with guitars, a drum set, a keyboard and a mic stand. No one was on it yet and the music was coming from speakers set up in the corners.
I spotted Al and Jazz behind me and I signaled them to meet me in the balcony. I trudged up the stairs and went directly to the back corner to hide from possible fans and attention.
I sat in a lime green booth that was dimly lit. The couch was comfortable at least, I'd have to get myself one of these.
I closed my eyes, feeling even more exhausted and comfortable than I have in a long time. I was just starting to doze off when someone cleared her throat. My eyes snapped open immediately, the girl was cute I guess, probably around 18 or 19. She had shocking red hair and bright blue eyes. She was petite and flat chested but wore a shirt that should expose an inappropriate amount of cleavage and a mini skirt. She looked at me hard, didn't she know that staring was rude? "Are you Edward Cullen!?"
Fuck, busted. I pulled of my sunglasses and threw them onto the table. I flashed the girl 'the smile' and she practically melted. "Yeah that's me. What can I do for you?"
She shoved a notepad and pen at me. "Can you make it out to Vanessa please?"
I wrote 'Thanks for being a great fan. Never stop believing in your dreams. Love – EC' "Here you are, and please don't tell anyone that I'm up here." I winked at her and gave her back her notepad and pen.
"Of course! Anything for you." She sighed dreamily and walked away clutching the autographed piece of paper to her chest like a newborn baby.
I saw her descend the stairs and walk up to a group of girls and start ranting, probably about me. So much for not telling anyone. The girls flipped shit and started to run up towards me, Alice and Jasper sat down in the booth and they caught sight of the girls.
Alice stood up to get a better view of the mob. "Oh hell no! Not this shit again!"
The girls finally arrived at my table and I turned on my signature cocky asshole attitude. They were screaming and ranting, Alice sat there looking beyond pissed off. "Girls, girls. Settle down. I know you all love me but I can't really be bothered right now." I tipped one of the girl's chins up and she sighed and nodded. "But we can do one big group picture, how does that sound?"
I stood up and they all surrounded me closely so we could fit into the frame. They all threw their tiny digital cameras at Alice who huffed and snapped the many shots. Alice threw the cameras right back at them.
A few of the girls gave me small pieces of paper with their names and numbers on them I made a show of putting the paper into my back pocket so that they wouldn't feel totally rejected by me.
I plopped myself back down onto the couch and looked at Alice who still looked furious. "What's up your ass?"
"Edward do you have any idea how annoying that is for me? I just want to rip those hoes' heads off, they only like you for your looks!"
"Can you blame them?" I shrugged my shoulders and laughed as Alice rolled her eyes.
"Whatever Edward, but next time I'm chucking those goddamn cameras over the balcony."
"Okay sis." We sat there for a moment just listening to Fall Out Boy playing over the speakers.
"Hey welcome to Rem. Sorry it took so long for me to get up there but there was a huge mob of girls blocking the way and Rose just told me that you guys arrived. Can I get you anything from the bar?"
I looked up and it felt like I had been punched in the gut, I was breathless. This girl was gorgeous, flawless in my opinion. Her long brown hair reached almost to her waist and had streaks of pink, purple, and blue scattered throughout it. Her brown eyes were dark and chocolately and went on for miles. Her cheekbones were high and her lips were perfectly full and plump. She caught me staring and blushed.
I let my eyes roam over her perfectly portioned body. Her legs were long and thin, but not supermodel thin or sickly thin, they were just right. Her figure was a perfect hourglass and she had a nice rack on top of that. I met her eyes and she rolled them at me. Most girls appreciate it when I check them out, what the hell was her problem?
Alice smiled politely, "I'll take a Cosmo please. And Jasper will take a Budweiser. Edward what do you want?"
"Uhm.. erhm.. I'll take a… uhm… what the hell give me a round of shots." I wiggled my pointer finger to tell her to come closer, the girl was hott and she looked like she was a freak in the bed, plus I've been lonely lately too busy to fuck well… anyone really, she rolled her eyes but brought her ear closer to my lips. I used my seductive voice that would turn Mother Theresa on, "And maybe later I could give you a little something in return."
She pulled back and slapped me across the face. I shook off the shock before looking back up at her, her face was bright red, she was livid. "Before you write me off as an easy piece of ass, I'm telling you right now zip up your fucking pants. Your actor charm and supermodel good looks aren't workin' for me."
Holy fuck my life! I stood up and we were inches away from each other. "What the hell did you just say to me?"
She was quick to respond, "What, couldn't you hear me with that big ego surrounding you?" She spun around and stomped off to the bar without another work.
I slammed my body back into the both and noticed Alice and Jasper trying to stifle their laughter, "Go ahead, laugh it the fuck up."
Alice did as I said, "I like her, a lot. No one has ever refused thee Edward Cullen." She rolled her eyes as she continued to laugh at me. "I can't wait to see her perform. She's supposed to be the next big thing in alternative and rock music."
"What do you mean she's performing?"
Alice rolled her eyes at me, "That's Bella Swan, the girl I've been talking about, didn't you hear her introduce herself?"
Before I could personally answer Jasper did it for me, "No he was eye-fucking her body into oblivion."
"Shut the hell up Whitlock."
Another brunette waitress came up and delivered our drinks to us. I drank one shot after the other and asked for a second round and a beer.
A loud booming voice came over the speakers, "And now put your hands together for our very own Bella Swan!"
"She's on! Come on you two lets get a better view."
We all got up and went to the railing to get a look from the balcony.
Bella timidly walked up to the mic stand and readjusted the microphone so it would accommodate her height, she walked across the small stage and whispered something to the drummer and bass guitarist. Then she did something I was expecting, she grabbed a sleek black Gibson electric guitar and stood in her place at the front of the stage. Her cheeks turned visibly red-even from the balcony- and she spoke quietly into the mic, "Hey guys," She cleared her throat and smiled widely, "This is an original, I hope you enjoy it."
Her playing and voice started going at the exact same time, softly and but perfectly in-tune.
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like
it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
The words didn't seem right coming out of her. A girl as beautiful shouldn't be in pain ever. But her voice, oh my God, her voice was beautiful and smooth, better than I have ever heard before, and trust me I've heard it all.
Her guitar playing started
picking up and the drummer was added along with the bassist. You're
sick of feeling numb This
life is filled with hurt
You're not the only one
I'll take you by
the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me
and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand
The chorus picked up the intensity and Bella was singing her heart out. But her playing never faltered, always spot on.
Pain, without love
Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I
like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at
all
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I
like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
It slowed down but Bella's voice was still strong.
Pain, without love Pain, without love I know, I know that you're
wounded Pain, without love Pain, without love Pain, without love
Anger and agony
Are better than
misery
Trust me, I've got a plan
When the lights go off, you
will understand
Pain, I can't get
enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than
nothing at all
Pain, I can't get
enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than
nothing, rather feel pain
You know, you know that I'm here to save you
You know,
you know I'm always here for you
I know, I know that you'll thank
me later
Pain, can't get enough
Pain,
I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at
all
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I
like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at
all
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I
like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at
all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain
She stopped singing and took a drink of her water bottle and put it back down to catch her breath. She motioned to the band and they waved their hands in thanks. Bella went up to the mic and shouted, "Thanks! You guys are amazing." She bowed and walked off the stage in a rush and then reappeared with another mic. She set it up and pulled hers out of the stand and put it up to her mouth breathing heavily still trying to catch her breath, "Okay everyone, I have a special surprise tonight that I think you'll all enjoy. Singing his new song, put your hands together for JACOB BLACK!"
Jacob ran up onto stage and pulled Bella into a huge hug that enveloped her entire body, he let her out of the hug but still had his arm around her waist, they looked comfortable with each other, they were probably dating. Jealousy stung my heart and made my stomach churn. He waved to the crowd, "Wassup everybody!? Well me and my home girl Bella are going to perform my brand new single, are you ready!?"
Everyone went crazy and girls looks like they were on the verge of passing out.
Jake started first rapping or whatever the hell he calls it.
(Jake is bold and italic Bella is italic)
I'm not your boyfriend, baby,
I ain't
your cute little sex toy,
I'm not your lion or your tiger,
Won't
be your nasty little boy,
I'm not your boyfriend, baby,
I
can't grant your every wish,
I'm not your knight in shining
armor,
So, I just leave you with this kiss
He was circling around Bella like he was telling her off, all part of their performance. After the last line he kissed her on the cheek and she started off the next verse, intensely I might add.
You can catch me on the speedtrain,
Jake was next and he was bouncing around on stage
Beeper in a three-way
Bella came next, they were alternating lines, but it was funny to see Bella jumping around on stage next to the gigantic Jacob Black
Shinin' with the gleam chain,
And
your honey givin' me brain,
You can catch me watchin'
AI, You
know I rep' this shit, You can catch me
on the speedtrain, You
know I rep' this shit,
Mello, It's game time,
Pinkie with the same shine,
Big
poetic canine
If you fuckin' with my city,
Then
you fuckin' with my kin,
You
know I rep' this shit,
I
got my hands up on your chest,
Motherfuckers best believe it,
That
you're fuckin' with the best I'm
not your boyfriend, baby,
I ain't your cute little sex toy,
I'm
not your lion or your tiger,
Nah, nah, won't be your nasty little
boy,
Whoo, I'm not your boyfriend, baby,
Yeah, I can't grant
your every wish,
Yeah, I'm not your knight in shining armor,
So,
I just leave you with this kissKill the lights,
These
children learn from cigarette burns, fast cars, fast women, and cheap
drinks
It feels right,
All these asphyxiated, self-medicated; take the white pill,
you'll feel alright
Kill
the lights,
These children
learn from cigarette burns, fast cars, fast women, and cheap drinks
It feels right,
All these asphyxiated, self-medicated--
Shinin'
with the gleam chain,
And
your honey givin' me brain,
You can catch me watchin' AI,
Mello,
It's game time,
Pinkie
with the same shine,
Big
poetic canine
And if you fuckin' with my city,
Then
you fuckin' with my kin,
You
know I rep' this shit,
I
got my hands up on your chest,
Motherfuckers best believe it,
That
you fuckin' with the bestKill the lights,
These children learn from cigarette burns, fast cars, fast women, and cheap drinks
It feels right,
All
these asphyxiated, self-medicated; take the whi--
Kill
the lights,
These
children learn from cigarette burns, fast cars, fast women, and cheap
drinks
It feels right,
All these asphyxiated, self-medicated; take the white pill,
you'll feel alright
Kill
the lights,
These
children learn from cigarette burns, fast cars, fast women, and cheap
drinks
It feels right,
All these asphyxiated, self-medicated; take the white pill,
you'll feel alright
Kill
the lights,
These children
learn from cigarette burns, fast cars, fast women, and cheap drinks
It feels right,
All these asphyxiated, self-medicated; take the white pill,
you'll feel alright
Bella's voice still blew me away line after line. She was so tiny but she had this power and conviction coming out of her body.
The way she jumped around on stage just showed her complete and utter infatuation with pleasing the crowd when she performed.
Turn on, anyone?
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Songs: Pain by Three Days Grace and I'm Not Your Boyfriend Baby by 3OH!3Please take two seconds and review I need to know how I'm doin here!
Do you guys like Bella's attitude and hair?
I tried my best to make Edward an asshole but it's hard for me, if anyone has any lines or things Edward can say/do please let me know!
Reviews seriously makes my day so much better!
-Devyn