Hi, it's Icy again.

So I was asked to do a second chapter but to do it in Levi's PoV. I decided that was a good idea. This will be around the same time as Eren's so the meeting at the park will be there and the text too. I will also add what happened after Eren's death and details about what happened so hope you like it.

WARNING: Mentions of suicide, don't feel comfortable then don't read.

DISCLAIMER: Snk belongs to Hajime Isayama, not me. This story does.

Its been months since I've last seen Eren and it's been longer since we ended our relationship. To tell the truth, all I seem to remember is that I blamed him for everything in the end. But in reality, I was scared I had caused him more harm than good.

I didn't have a very good childhood. Hell, even my adult life was starting to go downhill. Or, it was until I met him. We were young and new to love. He brightened up my world, led me to experience things I hadn't seen or felt ever. We were perfect together with all the silly jokes, the quiet touches, the silent looks... Everything was great until the doubts began to creep inside my mind like 'What if he doesn't really love me?' 'What if I screw up?' or 'What if I'm really just hurting him with our relationship and with my problems?' Those thoughts would never leave my mind, no matter how much I wished it.

That's when the fights began. Looking back now, they were really trivial, could've been easily avoided.

The biggest fight we had was our last one. It was our anniversary but it's been weeks of endless arguments that usually ended with me in tears. Eren was struggling between college and work while I had recently graduated from university and had already started working so its been harder to spend time together. That day was our anniversary and I had everything planned out. The only problem I couldn't control was Eren's late hours. I had talked to him before but... It seemed like he didn't listen. He arrived home around midnight as I waited for him on the couch. By then I had drank one to many glasses of wine.

I yelled at him more than usual. I spilled everything I felt but I said it in the wrong way. All I was doing was blaming him for the way I was, blaming him for the arguments, blaming him for everything. He looked hurt as I said that but I couldn't take back my words. He remained quiet which only angered and saddened me more. I was the one who ended the relationship and left. I had caused that rift to happen. My thoughts became a reality.

That was nearly a year ago. I heard nothing from him yet I still managed to keep tabs on him through Mikasa. Apparently he was now working at some fast food place (though Mikasa said it seemed like he wasn't going to keep the job if he continued the way he was), he had dropped out of college, become a recluse, lost weight and his sleepless nights were obvious. She told me that he hasn't even talked to her and that he had yelled at her when she recently called him. I wanted to call him and tell him I was sorry but I was a coward.

The same day I talked with Mikasa I decided to go to the park where Eren and I would usually go to. It was like a walk down memory lane. I was headed to what used to be our spot and I saw someone there. At first I didn't recognize him but at the same time, I knew who it was. He looked at me as I walked towards him and his anxiousness was noticeable.

"What are you doing here?" He looked like a scared puppy. "Oi, you haven't gone deaf, have you?"

"N-No, I can hear perfectly fine..." That's all he said. I internally groaned.

"Mind if I sit here?" I pointed to the spot next to him.

"No, go ahead..." He didn't leave my sight for one second. I wanted to see if what I heard was true. He didn't look at me even for a bit after I sat down.

"So, how've you been?"

"Fine..."

"Really?" That was an obvious lie and we both knew that yet he kept looking at the floor. "Then why aren't you at work?"

"Day off." Another lie if I were to believe what Mikasa told me.

"Uh huh..." It was difficult trying to keep a conversation going and I was cut off before I had the chance to say anything.

"Sorry, I'm going home now. It was nice seeing you again Levi." I looked at him and analyzed him better before sighing.

"Eren, you look terrible. Take care of yourself, will ya? Bye." We both got up at the same time and went our separate ways. Something inside me kept telling me to stop him though but I ignored it. I didn't go home right away, decided to keep walking around the city for a bit to continue my walk through memory lane. I was interrupted though by a phone call from Hanji.

"Yo Levi!"

"What is it Hanji?"

"Nothing. Just wanted to see how my favorite person in the world is." I scoffed.

"You're favorite person? Really? You have a shitty taste in friends."

"Yeah yeah, I know you're flattered. I heard you've talking to Mikasa lately."

"Yeah, why?"

"How's Eren?"

"Bad. I saw him today by the way..."

"What, really?! How'd that go?"

"It was awkward. I was the one doing the most talking so that tells you a lot."

"Wow, poor kid..."

"Hanji, he's just like 2 years younger than us." I heard a laugh from the other side of the call. "Are you busy?"

"Nah, I'm still at work."

"Idiot! Don't fucking call me while you're still working! It won't be my fault if you get fired!"

"Wow, buzzkill. Fine, I'll hang up then."

"Best decision you've made in your entire life."

"Oh shut up Levi!" She laughed a bit. "Well talk to ya later then."

"Bye." I was about to put my phone away when I felt it vibrate in my hand. Oh my god Hanji, I swear to god I will fucking ki- I looked to see who it was but it was from someone I hadn't expected. "Eren?" I opened the message and it only said 'I'm sorry.' It honestly got me by surprise, never expected him to say sorry but at least I now had a reason to apologize myself and tell him everything that's been on my mind since the day I left him.

'Eren, I know things went south between us but... I never truly blamed you. I'm sorry too, for everything that led to this. We both had our pride that got in our way. We were young and new to love. Losing you was hard on me. But trust me, if we were to try again now, I would definitely give us another chance. Eren, I still love you even after being apart this long.

... would you like to give us another chance? If you don't I get it... Just know that I loved you, that I still love you, and that I always will.'

I put my phone away, waiting for a reply that never came.

~.~

I woke up too early. Actually, I didn't get any sleep at all. I almost didn't get up but today was an important day for me. I needed to be at Eren's funeral. I had a bitter taste in my mouth and my mind still believed none of this was real.

The day I received the last text from him, I honestly thought things would make a turn for the better. I thought I would get a second chance to change what had happened. Never would I have thought that Eren would take his own life. When Mikasa called me the next day, she asked me if I had received a text from him. When I asked why, she told me that he was found dead in his apartment. I stayed silent and Mikasa left me to mourn on my own. Everything inside me broke. At that moment, I could say that I had lost everything that mattered to me and for the first time since I ended the relationship, I cried. I cried for days, which meant I hadn't gone to work, I hadn't eaten, nothing else mattered to me. I was visited by people countless times during my "disappearance" but I did not bother seeing them or talking to them. I wanted to be alone, no... I wanted Eren with me.

I got up from bed as I kept thinking about how I could've done things differently. I looked at myself in the mirror and I looked no different that Eren the last time I saw him, in fact, I looked the same as I did when I was in high school. I had regressed to the kind of person I was before Eren.

After taking a shower and getting dressed for the funeral, I stared at the mirror for a long time. I had contemplated not going, not wanting to face the reality that it had been my fault. I didn't want everyone else blaming me... But on the other hand, if I didn't go, I'd give them more reason to believe that I never loved Eren, which would be a lie. Not that anyone would listen anyways...

Everyone who knew Eren was at the funeral and, of course, his family as well. I felt as if everyone sent glares at my direction. I stood out, they knew I was the one who was with him, I was the one who broke him. I was the one who screwed up and now... Now I had no way of righting my wrongs. Everyone knew of what I've done.

I stood apart from everyone else, even from those closest to me like Hanji and Erwin. I kept staring at the coffin, thinking if he was really there. What if this is all just a cruel joke? What if he appears out of nowhere and say that this was all a misunderstanding? I scoffed and smiled bitterly. There was no way that was true. Reality was a bitch and my entire life was a joke. For the rest of the funeral service, I remained alone.

I couldn't stay as long as I wanted to. The guilt was just too much to bear. I almost got in my car when I was stopped by Mikasa and Hanji. "It isn't your fault Levi..."

"Yes it is. Don't say that... I drove him to this..." They pitied me. I could see it in their face. "And don't you dare start doing that." I scowled at them.

"Doing what Levi?"

"Pitying me."

"But we're not-" I got in and shut the door. I rolled down the window to tell them one last thing.

"Don't lie to me. You are. And this entire thing really is my fault. Good bye." I drove off. I looked behind to see what would happen and they just stood there, confused about what had just happened but I was in no mood to apologize for my "sudden outburst". I didn't feel like going home yet, the silence there would be too much for me today and the silence in the car was unbearable too. I decided to turn on the radio, just for some background noise. I had not expected the song that was playing.

Oh I'm sorry
I didn't mean any of it
I just got to lonely
In between being young and being right
You were my Versailles at night...

I let the song keep playing since it was a song and band that Eren loved. I didn't really pay much attention to it before today but, when I really started listening to it, what was left of my heart shattered into pieces and my vision began to get blurry. All I had of Eren now were memories. Memories that could make my day but also memories that would haunt me forever.

-Had my doubts but I let them out
You are the drought
I'm the holy water you have been without

And all my thoughts of you
They could heat or cool the room
And no, don't tell me you were crying
Oh honey you don't have to lie

I didn't realize I had started singing along to the song, albeit very softly and hoarsely. In the end, I ended up at the same park where we spent our time together, the same park where I saw him for the last time. I went to our spot, unconsciously hoping I would see Eren there, see him smile at me and tell me that everything was going to be alright. One can only dream...

I sat there, alone as the day was slowly turning to night. I replayed everything that had happened recently in my mind and remembered the feeling I had when I saw Eren. I felt something bad was going to happen but I ignored it. "Maybe... Maybe if I hadn't been such a coward, you would still be here..." I finally let my tears fall freely. "If only I hadn't been doubtful of us, of you..." My voice cracked and in that quiet night, all you could hear were the painful sobs I let out.

"I'm so sorry, Eren..."

Ok, now I really am finished... T-T

Guys, I'm seriously choking back sobs. I never imagined I could write something like this. It's like, I dunno, unbelievable. God, I need a lot of hugs for writing this. I apologize if I made you cry with this fanfic. I just... Gaaaaaahhhh I don't even know anymore.

Well please tell me what you think! Your reviews are very much appreciated. Love you guys!

-Icy