A/N: So, in between each chapter, I'm going to do a sort of oneshot. It's going to be in first person, and present tense. It will always have something to do with the story, but it may seem vague at first and you might not know how it ties in right away. No worries though, I'll explain it all later.
Also, in case you haven't noticed, the theme for this fanfiction is illusions (note the title). However, for the oneshots between each chapter, the theme is going to be rain.
Rain. It's always raining here. If not outside, then in my heart.
You never really know what you have until it's gone. Never see what's coming until it's too late.
I guess someday I'll come to terms with what happened. After all, I can't stay like this forever... Right?
Sometimes I can't even make myself think about it, it's so painful. ...Sometimes, I can't stop.
The gun felt so cold in my hand. You know, I'd never held a gun before then. My father showed me how to use one, a long time ago, but he never actually let me touch it. Just told me to watch what he did, and remember, in case I ever needed it.
Now I wish he'd never taught me at all.
The gun only held one bullet. That's all I had put in it. It wasn't like I was planning to use it.
I'd just been trying to disable him, keep him from following me. I was trying to hit him in the arm, just put him in enough pain that he couldn't run after me.
I didn't know it was so difficult to aim a gun until then. It looked so easy on TV...
I wasn't trying to kill him...
Jail is such a lonely place.
It's always raining here.