Brooke opened the door slowly, flipping the light switch on. The brightness immediately flooded the room. She stared at the three splotches of paint on the wall. She hadn't been able to decide what color to use, though they had been leaning towards black.

Baby things filled the corner of the room. She remembered how happy she had been when she went shopping for those. Suddenly, anger filled her body. She wanted that baby and Chloe had no right to rip it away from her.

Brooke went over to the corner of the room and picked up a stuffed animal, throwing it against the wall. Then, she grabbed a mobile and snapped it in half. One by one, all of the baby items were either thrown or broken. By the time she was done, she was crying so hard she couldn't see straight.

"Hey." Julian's quiet voice just set her off even more. She whipped around to face him with a newfound fire in her eyes.

"How can you be so calm? We just lost that baby!"

"Brooke…" he stepped forward, but she jumped back.

"No, don't touch me. You never wanted this, did you? You're probably glad that the adoption didn't work out. Now, while I'm hurt and vulnerable, you're probably going to try and talk me into moving to LA for your stupid movie career." Brooke yelled.

"I lost that baby too, Brooke, not just you!" Julian shouted back. "I want that child and I wanted us to have a family. This has nothing to do with LA or anything else. You're angry and you're taking it out on me and that's not fair."

"Not fair? You wanna know what's not fair, Julian? I've lost three children. Three. Angie, Sam, and now this baby. Sure, none of them were mine biologically, but I loved them so much that I would have died to keep them safe! And you know what else? I'm never going to be able to have a child of my own. That's not fair."

Julian stopped, taking a deep breath. He knew that she was stressed out and anger was the easiest way for her to deal with things. "Brooke, I'm sorry."

"No you're not. You don't care. You can just go off and have a baby with someone else, okay?"

"I'm not leaving you."

"Why not?" she screamed.

"Because I love you and you're my wife. I promise that I will never, ever leave you."

"Don't say that, Julian. Just like Peyton used to say, everybody leaves. My parents left me, Lucas left me, Peyton left me, and even Sam left me. Right now you might think that you're going to stay, but everybody leaves."

She brushed past him, leaving the nursery. Julian turned, following her to their bedroom where she pulled a suitcase out from under the bed.

"What are you doing?" he questioned.

"I'm going to go stay at a hotel or something. Right now, I just can't be around you. I need time to think and be alone." She shoved some clothes inside the bag before zipping it up. Brooke lifted the handle and pulled it from the room.

Julian followed, standing at the front door as he watched her walk away. "You say everyone leaves, Brooke! I guess you're the perfect example!"

As she turned around to yell at him, he slammed the door shut.

Haley rocked little Lydia in her arms. She was hopelessly in love with her daughter. She had Nathan's dark brown hair and she was sure that the baby would have his blue eyes too.

The doorbell interrupted her thoughts and she put Lydia into her crib, turning off the light as she left the room. Haley opened Jamie's door slowly and saw that he was asleep. She shut it again and went downstairs.

When she opened the door, she was shocked to see Brooke standing there, tears streaming down her face.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know where else to go."

"You're always welcome here, Brooke. Come in." Haley led her to the couch. "What's wrong?"

"Everything! Since we lost that baby, Julian and I have been doing nothing but fighting. He acts like nothing ever happened and it makes me so angry!" she wiped furiously at her tears. "What did I do to deserve all this, Hales? I know I partied a little too much in high school and I wasn't always particularly nice, but does that mean that I shouldn't ever be able to have a child?" Brooke sighed. "Maybe I should just take that as a sign. I would probably be a horrible mother anyway."

"Don't say that. You are amazing with Jamie, Brooke. You will be a mother; you just have to keep on trying."

"But there's just this nagging little feeling in the back of my mind that I want this a whole lot more than Julian does. I think he would rather work on his career."

"Then maybe you should both focus on your jobs and try for kids again in a few years. We're only 25, Brooke. You've got years to have a baby."

"But I want a baby now." She looked at her best friend. "When I came back to Tree Hill three years ago, that was why, Hales. I wanted a family and to be a mother. Now it's all just gone. I can't have kids and every time I get close to one, they get yanked away. I don't know what else to try because I can't handle losing another baby."

"What about a surrogate?" Haley suggested. "Then you would have a contract and they'd have to give you the baby."

"But it would be Julian's baby with another woman. I don't know if I could do it." Brooke forced a smile. "Are you sure I can't just take Lydia? You and Nate can have another one."

"No way." Haley hugged her. "It'll happen, Brooke. Just keep on trying." She brushed the woman's dark hair away from her eyes. "Now, tell me why you're here."

"Julian and I got in a fight. I told him he would leave eventually because everyone does and then he told me that I was the perfect example of that and slammed the door in my face." She shook her head. "Why do I screw things up every time they get good?"

"I'm sure you didn't screw things up. Just talk to him. He knows that you're going through a lot right now because he's going through it too."

"I guess."

"How about you spend the night though? It's getting late and I don't want you out driving." Haley had been worrying about people driving in the dark and rain ever since the accident where Jamie and Brooke had nearly drowned.

"Are you sure?"

"Positive. I'll go get the guest room ready."

"Thanks, Hales." Brooke unexpectedly hugged her. "I love you."

"I love you too."

Brooke woke up in the middle of the night to hear Lydia crying. She figured that if Nathan and Haley were sleeping still, she'd let them continue and if one of them were up, she could talk to them. She got out of bed and went down the hallway, opening the baby's door. She went over to the crib and lifted the baby into her arms.

"Hey there, Lydia. It's okay. Aunt Brooke's here. Shhh, it's okay." She took her over to the changing table and layed her down to change her diaper. Brooke then scooped Lydia back up, who wasn't crying anymore, and took her downstairs.

"You want your bottle, sweetie? I'll get you one, it's okay." She made a bottle and then put it on the stove. Brooke rocked the little girl while she made it, happy to just hold her.

The bottle was done and she tested it on her wrist. After deeming it the perfect temperature, she stuck it into the baby's mouth.

"There you go. All better." Brooke went into the living room and sat down on the couch, curling her legs up under her. "You are just the prettiest little baby." She ran a finger over little Lydia's cheek. "You know, I've known your mommy and daddy for a long time. Your daddy and I were best friends when we were little kids. When we got to high school, we kinda grew apart, but we're still friends now and I'm so happy about that. And your mommy and I were so different, but we kind of balanced each other and I think that's what made us so close. Now, she's my best friend. You know, Lydia, even though I'm your big brother's godmother, I'm not going to love him any more than you." She kissed the baby's forehead.

"You're good with her." Brooke turned her head slightly to look at Nathan.

"Thanks. Sorry I got her. I just thought you and Haley would like to sleep a little bit longer."

"It's okay." Nathan sat next to her. "She's pretty great, isn't she?"

"Amazing." Brooke smiled. "You and Haley make great kids."

"That we do." He looked at his lap. "I'm sorry, you know, about leaving you in high school. I didn't really call anymore or ask you to hang out…"

"It goes both ways, Nate. I could have done something too, but I was just so busy with cheerleading and Peyton and…"

"Lucas." He interrupted.

She nodded. "Yeah. Lucas."

Nathan studied her face. "Do you ever think about him?"

Brooke smiled sadly. "Every day. He was a huge part of my life and my first real relationship. I can't help but wonder if things would be different if…" she trailed off when she stopped to burp the baby.

"If it were Lucas instead of Julian?" she nodded. "What do you think would happen?"

"I don't know, Nate. I just think that I wouldn't feel like this. Lucas always knew the perfect thing to say. Lucas acknowledged that I was a real person. He would fight with me and scream at me and he wasn't scared to hurt my feelings. Julian treats me like I'm a delicate little flower that's going to break if he says one thing wrong."

"Maybe Lucas should have been more like that. I mean, you're with Julian and not him now."

"But part of me still loves Lucas. I always will." She looked into her friend's blue eyes. "You know, when I had Angie, I used to wonder what it would be like if she was our baby. For a little while, I actually thought there was a chance Lucas and I would get back together. But then Angie left and so did he."

"He didn't leave, Brooke. He just…"

"He started a relationship with Peyton." She sighed. "It doesn't even matter. Everyone says they're meant to be together."

"Everyone? I don't think that. I was always Team Brooke."

She smiled. "Thanks, Nathan. But unfortunately, Lucas wasn't." Brooke rested her head on his shoulder. "Maybe I picked the wrong Scott brother. I should have just married you."

He gave her his famous Scott smirk. "Yeah, something tells me Haley wouldn't like that very much."

"Good thing you two are so adorable or I might have to pull a Rachel and try and come between Naley. But I would actually succeed."

"Really? Why is that?"

"Because you wouldn't be able to resist my charm." She stuck the bottle back into Lydia's mouth.

Nathan laughed. "You give me very little credit. But seriously, Brooke, I think you need to confront how you're feeling. Do you really love Julian or are you still in love with Lucas?"

"I love both of them, Nate. I guess just not in the same way." He looked confused. "Julian is safe. He's sweet and dorky and adorable. But Lucas…Lucas was dangerous. I always knew there was a risk that he could break my heart, but I still kept coming back to him because when we were together, I felt wanted and beautiful and smart. He made me feel that way." She paused momentarily, as if she was considering if she should tell Nathan the next part. "Do you remember after Sawyer was born?"

Nathan shrugged. "Yeah, I guess."

"Lucas and Peyton told me that they wanted me to be her godmother. I agreed, but it hurt so bad. You know why?" he shook his head. "In high school, Lucas told me that when we were older, he wanted to marry me and he wanted me to have his babies. Now, I was just his daughter with another woman's godmother. And all I could wish was that, somehow, this was all some cruel dream and that I'd wake up and still be 17 and still be Lucas's girlfriend."

"Did you ever talk to him about all of this?"

"What was I going to say? 'Hey Luke, remember when you said you wanted me to have your babies? Well I'm upset because I wish that had happened and now I'm just your kid's godmother'. Something tells me he and Peyton wouldn't have really liked that."

"God Brooke, when are you going to start being more selfish?" she stared at him in shock. "You keep putting your happiness aside to make sure Peyton gets hers. When has she ever done the same for you?" Brooke was silent. "Exactly. Never. I think you should call Lucas."

"There's no way I'm doing that. We're both married. He's got a kid with her, for God's sake."

"I didn't say you had to tell him you were both going to get divorced and run away together with Sawyer. I just think you need to talk through some of these things with him. I think this is why you can't fully open up with Julian. You're still holding on to these feelings of Lucas."

"I guess you're right." She sighed. "I don't want to though, Nate. He's just going to think I'm an idiot."

"No he won't." he looked sternly at her. "Tomorrow, you need to call."

"And what if Peyton answers the phone?"

"You guys were best friends once. Talk to her. Or ask about Sawyer." He stared into her hazel-green eyes. "This is something you've needed to do for a while and now it's time."

"Okay, Dr. Phil." She took the bottle out of Lydia's mouth and burped her. She held the newborn close to her, rocking her gently.

Nathan watched, feeling anger build up inside of him. Brooke deserved to be a mother. She was amazing with his kids and loved them so much.

"She's sleeping." Brooke whispered. "I'm going to go put her in her crib, if that's okay."

"Yeah, that's fine."

"Goodnight, Nate. And thanks."

"Night, Brooke." She went upstairs.

Nathan pulled out his cellphone and dialed a number that he hadn't used in a while. "Hey, it's Nathan Scott. I need to see you."

I'm so sorry that it took so long to update. My laptop broke, so I didn't have one for a while, but I got a new one, so I hope to update more often.

How did you like the Brooke and Julian part? What about the Baley and Brathan scenes? Brooke and Lydia?

Would you like Brooke to call Lucas?

Who do you think Nathan called?

Are there any characters you would like to see return to Tree Hill?

Should Dan come see his granddaughter?

Would you like to see some Brooke and Jamie scenes?

If you all can remember that far back, I was undecided on whether this was going to be a Brucas or a Brulian story. I'm leaning towards Brucas; I've been watching a lot of YouTube videos about them and, while I still like Brulian, I like Brucas more. If there is Lucas in this story, it won't be the surrogate/leukemia/Peyton died storyline. That's a little too much for one storyline.

Would you rather have Brooke with Lucas or Julian? If Lucas, then what should happen with Peyton and Sawyer, and Julian?

There may be an appearance with Chloe and the baby later in the story and I'm not really feeling the name Sophia Brooklyn anymore. Does anyone have any suggestions? I was thinking maybe Olivia or Ella. I would like to have Brooke/Brooklyn/Penelope or something like that as the middle name.

Once again, I'm sorry for the ridiculously late update. Please REVIEW and I'll try to update soon!