chapter 2
I sat up straight on my bunk for the night it's been years since I've heard that voice, I looked over my crew, my brothers seeing them all asleep "Luffy" a soft voice full of sleep asked okay ones awake. I looked over to the youngest of the crew, my shy loyal innocent Doctor "ya" I replied jumping down and moving over to him.
He sat up rubbing his eyes, I looked out the small window spotting the moon's position and working out the time, just after midnight still two hours until shift change. Thinking about it, it is Choppers turn for second watch, I sat on the edge of his bunk and looked over to my other brothers still asleep "why you up" he asked. I turned back to him and grinned a little with a shrug "can't sleep" I replied.
He moved closer to me looking me over, even half sleep he's trying to see if anything is wrong, he looked at my eyes "nightmares" he asked. I shook my head a little "memories" I replied stretching a little as I watched him tilted his head at me "the war" he asked, I touch the scar on my chest, I wish, it's been over two years now since that day three years in a few months. I shook the memories away looking down at my youngest brother, I rested my forehead on his between his horns "no Ototo {little brother}" I whispered.
He moved so he was curled up against me with my head still resting on his "what about? they have been waking you every night this week the others have seen you wake up captain" he asked. I chuckle low in my throat, trust the others to see me leave to sit out on the deck or the tower, never talking to those on watch. I sighed breathing in the sweet sent of my somewhat still innocent doctor "memories of before I met you, any of the crew, long before I knew Ace, before Shanks even-" I chuckled "- a very long time before I even wanted to be a pirate. When I still had a mother, a family by blood" I replied.
He pulled back to look up at me careful to untuck his head from mine "what was her name" he asked, I smiled down at him "Lily her name was Lily" I replied. He stood so he rested his forehead against mine "that's not all your eyes are still sad" he said, I leaned forward pressing my head against his "a baby sister named Roseille, sweet sweet rosebug" I whispered closing my eyes.
I heard the others in the room shift, I almost snorted, eavesdroppers but still I wont call them out on it. My mask is that of an happy-go-lucky, goof that's a load, stupid, dimwitted fool who has the best and worse luck in the world.
Chopper butted his nose against mine so I opened my eyes to look into his, "what happened to them" he asked, I stood looking down at him "my mother was murdered by a madman in front of me and I haven't seen rose since she was 17 months old, I was only a year older then her. Sleep Chopper I'll take your watch I wont be sleeping tonight" I replied.
He nodded curling back up under the blanket "sorry" he whispered, I sighed to myself giving one of my grins to him "it's okay, you don't have to be sorry for any thing it's in the past" I said. It's times like this I wonder how non of them have seen thought my mask, I shook my head a little.
Looking around at the rest of the others spotting eyes quickly being shut, I looked to my first mate seeing his dark green eye on me. I kept mine locked with his to see what he would do, I have a feeling that out of the crew he and Robin have seen past part of my mask. Zoro closed his eye with a small nod before rolling over so his back was facing me, I spotted the single blue eye and ear out the corner of my eye before they vanished, so even my sisters know.