A/N: I don't own Twilight.

Yay! Chapter 2! I hope you like this chapter as much as I do. It's not too exciting but it gives a little more insight into Bella's life and how she feels about him.

One person guessed correctly about why Bella always refers to Edward as him. is the reviewer of the week!

Enjoy this chapter!

BPOV

My thoughts were jumbled as I stared at him. I honestly could not make a coherent thought because all I saw was him. I was like this everyday. I couldn't get a hold of myself until he was out of sight, and even then I was still thinking about him. Thinking about everything I hoped we could be but knowing it would never happen. Because I wasn't good enough and I never would be.

I was fat and ugly; everything he'd never want.

I swallowed and looked down, determined to finally focus in on class.

It didn't work, of course, and ten minutes later I found myself once again looking at him. I bit my lip as I looked at his back. Even through his jacket I could tell it was muscular and I fantasized about running my nails down over it and then bringing my hands up to tangle in his hair as he kissed me.

The bell jumped me out of my daydream and I was breathing heavily as I watched him hop up out of his seat and walk out the door. I blew out a breath and gathered my things before heading to the cafeteria for lunch.

As usual, people barely noticed me in the halls; I was used to it now, even though sometimes it upset me that I'd known most of these people for ten years and they barely acknowledged me now. I only really had one friend, but I was okay with that because she was the best friend a girl could ask for. She knew all about how much I wanted him and she never judged me for being shy. She thought my reasons for not talking to him were stupid, but nevertheless, she didn't judge me.

I got my food quickly and headed over to our table. Angela was already there and she smiled when she saw me.

"Hey, girl," she said.

I smiled slightly. "Hey."

She raised an eyebrow at me. "Uh oh. What happened? Was he not here today?"

She knew better than to say his name.

"No, he was. I just, I don't really know why I'm feeling down," I lied. I knew exactly why I wasn't feeling very chipper but I wasn't really in the mood for another one of her lectures.

"Bella, I've known you for ten years. I know you better than yourself, so stop lying and tell me what's wrong," she demanded.

I looked away just in time to see him walk in with his friends and family. He was the quieter of the group, always hanging out in the back of the pack, looking down at the ground.

"Bella," she pushed.

"Just the usual, Ang. I like him, he doesn't like me. End of story," I said, a little more harsh than I had intended.

She wasn't deterred. "How do you know he doesn't like you?"

I glared at her. "I'm f-"

"Don't even finish that sentence," she scowled. "You are not fat, Bella Swan. You are a beautiful girl and he would be lucky to have you. I wish you'd see that."

I rolled my eyes at her. "You have to say that, you're my best friend."

She cracked a grin. "True, but my opinion would be the same even if I wasn't your best friend."

"Thanks, Ang, but you know my feelings haven't changed," I said.

She sighed and stood up as the bell rang. "I know. I only hope one day they will."

"Don't hold your breath," I muttered, throwing my food away.

The rest of the day passed with little excitement and I soon found myself driving home. I had thought about all that Angie had said to me, but I just couldn't see what she saw in me. I was nothing special, nothing good either. Angie on the other hand, was gorgeous; tall, skinny, perfect skin and hair.

I was none of that and never would be.

I sighed again as I pulled up to my house. I saw dad's cruiser in the driveway so I knew he was home from work.

"Hey, Dad," I said as I walked in the door.

"Oh, hey, Bells. How was school?" he asked from the living room.

"It was fine," I replied as I sat on the couch next to him.

"That's good," he said, focusing on the game on the TV.

We were quiet after that, as usual. We were both quiet people and didn't mind sitting in silence. In fact, we both preferred it. I watched a little bit of the game with Charlie before getting up to start dinner.

I wasn't in the mood for cooking so I opted for an easy dish: lasagna. I had it made and in the oven in under 20 minutes and decided to work on some homework. I got most of my work done while waiting for dinner to be done and when the timer went off I was happy that all I had left was a little reading for English.

"Dad! Dinner's ready!" I called.

"Ok," he muttered as I heard the recliner shut as he stood up.

I dished out our food and we ate at our small, two person table. I cleaned up our mess and went up to my room shortly after. I spent the rest of my night reading before showering and heading to bed.

I dreamt of a life full of love I knew I'd never have.

*TL*

I yawned and rolled over to shut my alarm off before getting up to get ready. I decided to dress up a little today. I knew I wouldn't look very pretty, but I thought maybe I'd feel a little better than I did the day before.

I curled my hair and put on minimal make up. I wasn't a huge fan of makeup and that was probably because I had no idea how to put it on correctly. A little eyeshadow and mascara was enough for me.

Dad was already gone by the time I made my way downstairs so I grabbed a box of captain crunch for breakfast and ate fast.

I grabbed my bag and drove to school in a daze. Being that Forks was such a small town, I made it to school within five minutes and was soon parked and on my way into class.

On my way to English class, where he would be.

I sat down in my seat and got my stuff out, trying to keep myself preoccupied so I wouldn't watch the door for him.

It didn't work however, and once again I found myself anxiously watching the doorway, my leg tapping and thumbs fiddling.

He stumbled in the door and met my eyes just like yesterday. I swallowed and looked down, blushing once again. He sat down just as the bell rang and Mr. Varner started talking.

"Okay, class, settle down, settle down, everyone," he urged.

The talking slowly dissipated and he continued. "We are going to do a little project. A group project."

He paused while everyone, including me, groaned at the thought of a group project.

"Now, now. It won't be that bad. I already have everyone partnered up and don't even bother complaining, no changes," he said.

I groaned again. I could only imagine who I'd be partnered up with.

"Okay, let's get started. Jessica and Mike, Laura and Victoria, Eric and Ben," he continued on and I tuned him out, only listening for my name.

When he got to the last people my heart sped up.

There's no way. This could not be happening. I could not be partners with him.

I held my breath as Mr. Varner finished up the pairings.

"Josh and Sarah. Oh, and last but not least, Edward and Bella.

I froze.

I was partners with Edward.

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