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Six Weeks Earlier

My heart was beating a mile a minute as my truck arrived in La Push. It seemed like forever since I've been here but oddly it felt like home, like I belonged here. My emotions went into over drive as I pulled up to the Black's house. I knew I was probably the last person Jacob wanted to see but I just couldn't help myself. I needed to see his beautiful smile, hear his heart warming laugh, and look into those gorgeous eyes. I needed him. I had barely parked before I saw his huge figure standing in front on the truck. He came out of nowhere and I damn near hit him.

"Jake." I said glad he was here and that my car hadn't collided with him. As sturdy as the Chevy was it would have been put out of commission from hitting his steel like body. I hadn't seen him since the night he was injured in the newborn battle and I almost forgot how beautiful he was, it nearly took my breath away. Just when I thought he was going to turn me away he snatches open the car door pulling me into one of his crushing hugs. Being this close to him made my heart rate increase and I let out a sigh of contentment. I used the moment to take in his scent and savor the feeling of being in his arms. I never wanted him to let me go.

"Bells." He sighed into my hair and I could feel he was as happy to see me as I was to see him. We stayed liked that for a while before it seemed like the spell was broken and he lowered me to the ground. The joy fell from his face and it was like he was a different person. "What are you doing here?" The sudden change in his demeanor took me off guard and I stammered over my words.

"Um I um-" He looked at me expectantly while his mouth turned up in a grin and I found myself staring at his lips. Those lips. I couldn't help but remember how perfect they felt against mine when he kissed me on the mountain. They were so soft and warm and the taste of him was indescribable, it took everything in me not to pull him close for another taste. The sensations he awakened in me was like nothing I've ever felt before, kissing Edward didn't even come close.

"I wanted to see you. I've missed you Jake." The expression on his face clearly showed that he didn't know what to say.

"It's almost 10:30 at night."

"Oh! I'm so sorry I didn't realize what time it was." I had been so anxious to get here I never bothered to look at a clock. "I'll come back." I said about to get back in the truck when he grabbed my arm and his touch sent waves of electricity through my body.

"Stay." He said in his deep husky voice and it was incredibly sexy. I would've done anything for him as long as he asked with that voice.

"Okay." I nodded following him into the garage. "Is Billy in there?"

"Yeah. He's still in the living room watching TV, that's why we should just stay out here. You know how nosey he is." I nodded in agreement grateful for the privacy. It was hard enough for me to explain what I was doing here so late. He turned on the light and we got comfortable on the old loveseat. He put his arm around my shoulder pulling me closer and I laid my head on his chest. Anyone seeing us like this would assume we were a couple. I knew it was not normal for friends to be so physical but nothing about our relationship was normal and the need to be close to him was too strong to resist. "So, does he know you're here?"

"No, let's not talk about him."

"Why not? I mean he's supposed to be the most important thing in your life right? The guy you're willing to die for?" Damn it! Why does he have to ruin everything?

"Please don't do this." I said moving away from his embrace.

"Do what?"

"Act like this! I'm here aren't I?"

"Yes you are. Even though I can't figure out why when you made it clear that you're willing to give up everything and everyone to be with him."

"I'm here because I need my best friend Jake, I need you! I can't just give you up, why can't you see that?" He let out a deep sigh and I was afraid of what he was going to say next.

"You know how much I need you in my life too Bells, but I can't just be your friend anymore-" I don't know what came over me but before I could stop myself I was in his lap kissing him as if my life depended on it. My mind was screaming at me to stop but my heart and body wanted him so badly that I couldn't control myself. Our lips moved together as if they were made for each other and I didn't understand how I denied myself this for so long. He was an incredibly talented kisser and I found myself moaning against his perfect lips. His lips parted and I wasted no time exploring his mouth with my tongue. I was never into French kissing but Jacob made me want him in ways I didn't even know were possible. I gasped when I felt his growing erection poking against me. "Bells." He said pulling away from my lips to kiss down my neck. "I don't think this is a good idea." So said his mouth but his body was definitely saying something else. I moved my hips against him letting him know what I thought of that idea and I was rewarded with a moan. It was the sexiest thing I've ever heard and I wanted to hear it again. There was no way I was turning back now.

"Please Jake. I don't care if this is a good idea or not I want you." He let out an almost feral growl and I could feel the wetness pool between my legs. His large strong hands gripped my ass rocking me back and forth on his hardness and now I was the one moaning.

"Are you sure?" He asked while gently biting on my hardened nipples through my shirt and I was pretty sure I'd forgotten how to speak. He had set my body on fire.

"Yes I'm sure." I said while pulling his shirt over his head and running my fingers over his sculpted muscles. "You have no idea how long I've wanted to do that." I whispered in his ear making him laugh but I was dead serious. The boy had the body of a God. "You're beautiful, do you know that?" I asked looking deep into his eyes and the love I saw there made me weak. I never realized how much he felt for me but it was clearly written all over his face. It wasn't just some juvenile crush, or the curse of wanting what you can't have. He truly was in love with me.

"No you're beautiful." He said tucking a strand of hair behind my ear and the gentleness of the gesture brought tears to my eyes. "What's wrong?" He said wiping the tears from my face.

"Nothing. It's just that-" There was no easy way for me to say this so I was just going to get it out while I still had the nerve. "I love you."

"I love you too." He responded and started kissing me with so much passion that it left my lips quivering. I've never felt such lust and desire in all my life, not even with Edward.

"Make love to me Jake." His eyes widened in surprise but I was just as shocked to hear myself say it. But I knew I wasn't going to take it back, I meant every word. I don't know where this bold new Bella came from but I like her.

"Don't play with me like that Bella, you have no idea what you're asking of me."

"I know exactly what I'm asking." I said taking off my own shirt revealing my red lace bra and his eyes surveyed me hungrily.

"I must be dreaming. This is like one of my fantasies come to life."

"No I promise you are awake." I laughed. "Let me show you." I reached down between us grabbing his erection and the thickness of it made my mouth water. "I want to see you." I said climbing off my position on his lap so he could free himself of those offending clothes. Like always he was only wearing his cut off shorts now and I thought my heart was going to jump out of my chest from just watching him unbutton them. The man could make watching paint dry sexy. They fell from his hips effortlessly and his length sprang free and I was pretty sure my mouth was hanging open. He was huge! Of course I had nothing to compare it too but I was almost positive it was larger than average, just like the rest of him. He approached me with a predatory gleam in his eyes lifting me off the ground and I wrapped my legs around his bare waist. The warmth of his skin was like heaven and I never wanted to be cold again. He laid me on the loveseat and starting exploring my body with his lips. My neck was particularly sensitive and I withered against him as he licked and sucked on it. "Oh Jake that feels so good." He reached behind me unclasping my bra effortlessly with just one hand and I took a mental note to ask him about that later. His warm mouth on me sent waves of pleasure between my legs and I could hear my moans getting louder. He went down further and his tongue on my nipples made them painfully hard and it felt like I had soaked through my pants, there was no doubt my panties were ruined. "Take these off." I whimpered lifting my hips and he practically tore them off of me. With the pants and underwear out of the way he continued his exploration. He took his sweet time placing soft kisses down my abdomen making every inch of my body tingle. I couldn't stay still and my body broke out in a sweat as I whimpered beneath his touch. His kisses went lower and lower and I eagerly spread my legs for him. I'd never been so wet in my life. He sniffed the air taking in the scent of my arousal before placing his warm wet tongue on my clit. I cried out in pleasure as my hips moved against his tongue and I never wanted him to stop.

"Oh God you're so good at that." I said as he licked and sucked on my swollen clit mercilessly. It felt so good I could barely stand it. Just when I'm about to erupt he stops. I was about to express my frustration when he worked one of his long fingers into my hole making me scream his name. He put a finger to his lips signaling for me to be quiet which was impossible to do when he was doing such amazing things to me. He worked his finger in and out of me like it was his cock and I felt my orgasm building deep inside of me. He inserted two more fingers stretching me in the best way possible and I thought I was going to lose my mind. His hand was slick with my juices as he fucked me with his fingers making my body tremble. He sucked my clit between his lips while still keeping his rhythm and I couldn't take it anymore. My body shook uncontrollably as my orgasm came over me making my toes curl and my eyes roll in the back of my head. I barely had time to recover before he placed himself between my legs rubbing the head of his cock along my folds and it felt so good it wasn't long before I was coming again.

"You feel so good Jake, please don't stop." I begged as he placed himself at my entrance. It burned like hell as he worked himself into me and the pain was almost unbearable. I felt him break through my barrier and my nails dug deep into his back. And he only had the head in! He kissed me helping me relax some and he reached between us massaging my sensitive clit and a series of incoherent words escaped my lips as another orgasm rocked my body. He used the opportunity to go further and I took every inch until he was buried deep inside of me. His strokes were slow and gentle as I adjusted to his size but now I needed more. I grabbed his firm ass urging him to go harder and faster but he wanted to hear me beg.

"Tell me how you want it Bells." He whispered in my ear sending shivers up and down my spine.

"I want it harder. I want you to fuck me Jacob." I certainly didn't have to tell him twice. He propped my legs on his shoulders and pounded into me relentlessly making me scream his name with every stroke. We had long since given up on keeping me quiet, he was way too good at this for that. He was hitting every spot and the rest of the world ceased to exist. There was only Jacob and his wonderful cock and I would've been more than content to stay in this garage with him forever.

"Fuck Bells your pussy is so tight, you're going to make me cum." I didn't think I could get any wetter but his words turned me on beyond belief. It was like I was intoxicated and and he had me delirious with pleasure. My next orgasm was the strongest one yet and my nerves went haywire. I felt it in every inch of my body and I never felt more alive, more complete. My walls clenched around him milking his cock and I felt him cum inside of me.

"That was incredible." I said panting like I had ran a marathon. He climbed off and laid behind me pulling me close so we were spooning. His warmth was so comforting it didn't take long for me to fall into a deep sleep.

I awoke to the sound of someone at the garage door calling Jacob's name and I immediately recognized the voice as Billy's. Oh shit. I had no idea how long we've been asleep but I knew it had to be well into the middle of the night now. I felt Jacob stretching behind me and he got up pulling on his shorts. I pretended to be asleep as he went to greet his father.

"Hey Dad."

"Charlie called. I told him you guys fell asleep on the couch, which wasn't a complete lie. What the hell do you think you're doing Jacob? "

"Nothing happened we-"

"Don't lie to me boy I was your age once and I know how you feel about her. Besides she was so loud there is no doubt about what you two were doing out here." Oh no. I thought to myself as blood rushed to my cheeks.

"Be careful Jake, you're playing with fire. You just slept with someone else's fiance, and that someone else happens to be your natural enemy."

"I know Dad but none of that matters to me, I love her."

"I know you do son, I love her too. I've known that girl her whole life and care for her like she was my own. But this is going to be trouble so I'm telling you to be careful. "

"I will. "

"Good. Charlie and I decided she should just spend the night bring her inside." Billy said and I heard his chair as he wheeled himself inside.

"I know you're awake." He said and I opened my eyes. He knew me so well. "You heard that?"

"Every word." I said while putting on my clothes. "I don't know Jake maybe I should just go home."

"No don't go. You can't just leave me after that, and it's really late you should just come inside." I agreed and he offered me his hand. I took a hold of it and followed him into the house. We climbed on the living room couch and soon fell back asleep in each other's arms.

Present Day

I was such a mess I barely left my room for days. I hardly slept and had to force myself to eat. The morning sickness was still kicking my ass and it was only getting worse which didn't help the situation. Charlie was afraid that I was going into another depression and I hated to make him worry. He wasn't stupid and I knew he was suspicious of me being pregnant but he hadn't said anything and I didn't have the heart to tell him. Jacob was on my mind every minute of every day and my heart ached without him. If only I could talk to him, tell him how much I needed him. I missed him so much that it physically hurt and I could barely stand it. Letting him walk away was the biggest mistake of my life. I should've tried harder to stop him, tell him I love him and that I wanted to be with him but I couldn't. And now I don't know if I'll ever see him again. I was starting to go crazy in the house and needed some fresh air. I needed someone to talk to. Someone I could trust who understood what was going on between me and Jacob, someone who missed him as much as I did. I cleaned myself up and dressed before leaving a note for Charlie telling him where I was going. It was nice to see something other than the four walls of my bedroom but I was weary as I pulled it to the Black's house. The last time I came here it changed my life. But just being here made me feel closer to Jacob and that alone made this trip worth it. I jumped out the truck and walked to the door hoping Billy was home. I knocked and he soon came to the door and offered me a smile almost identical to his son's.

"How are you Bella? Please come in." He said letting me pass and I closed the door behind me. I took a seat on the couch, the same couch we had slept on that night.

"Honestly I could be better."

"I know, I miss him too."

"Has anyone- " I paused. My emotions got the best of me and I was afraid of his answer. "Has anyone heard from him?"

"The pack can sense him when they're phased. He won't talk to anyone though and he's relying on his wolf instincts to avoid thinking like a human. Doing that keeps them out of his thoughts and hinders them from figuring out where he is. But they can still feel his pain."

"Oh Billy." I broke down in tears and he came to me letting me cry on his shoulder. "This is all my fault. I messed up everything and I pushed him away. "

"He will come home Bella, I know it."

"I'm sorry to drop in on you like this but I really need to talk to you."

"Don't worry about it you're always welcome here. What is it you need to tell me?"

"I called off the wedding, I want to be with Jake."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes I'm sure, I love him. And you were right, what we did that night did get us in trouble."

"What do you mean?"

"I'm pregnant. " His eyes widened in shock and I hoped he wasn't upset. "I'm so scared Billy, I don't know what to do."

"It's going to be alright child. I'll be here for you, you don't have to be afraid." He had no idea how much this meant to me right now. He was like another father to me and I didn't know what I would do without him. "Does your father know?"

"I haven't told him yet, please don't say anything. "

"It isn't my place to. Make yourself at home I need to make a phone call. " He said going towards the phone but there was only one place I wanted to be right now. I walked down the hall to his bedroom and opened the door. I was welcomed by his scent and it was like I could feel his presence. Right then I made the decision to come here everyday until he returned. His room was exactly as I remembered it. Paper and dirty clothes everywhere. Pictures of us together at different ages on the walls. It only made me miss him even more. I grabbed one of his t-shirts and curled up in his bed wishing it were him.