A/N :
Okay, first thing's first. I MADE PEOPLE CRY! And, I wrote almost 7k words! I'm so happy, yet sad right now. But, I took that as a "challenge accepted!" I was reading a lot of sad stories; they were sooo well written, I was trying to figure out how to do that. I figured out that writing in a third person POV makes a story more deep or depressing! You guys are just so AWESOME! Thank you for everything! Also, another reason I wrote something sad, was because I was sick and tired of fairy tales. I wanted to write something real. Something, that's probably happen hundreds of times. I'm just re-enacting it with characters; so in a way, I'm like the "Lifetime" movie channel, except in a story (with an exception of the angel thing)... Anyway, THANK YOU! *Grabs and gives bone-crushing hug.* I read all of the the reviews, they made my day! I mean 21 reviews on the first chapter! *tear, tear* And, a lot of you—for the QOTD - said you would ask for forgiveness. Austin just might do that. Will he?
Disclaimer:
I DO NOT own Austin & Ally, Disney does. I do not own "Forever & Always," by Paradise or "Safe & Sound," by Taylor Swift. I also do not own Ross Lynch, or Laura Marano. But, I'm working on it... I need some rope! Does anyone have any?
"The way things have become since you left are painful. Only sorrow I have and I just wish that I could end my suffering forever."
—Rohit Sapra
present day.
"Is it really you?" he says to the glowing white angel, she nods. Everyone around him gives him odd look.
"Austin, she's not here. She's no longer with us," Mr. Dawson says pained, "I know it's hard, though, she may not be here physically, but she's always with us in our hearts." He spoke, not knowing his daughter was watching him the whole time. She smiled. Austin mimicked her smile, happy for the moment they shared. Then he realized it, no one could see her. Only himself. He needed to be alone with her.
"Umm, sir and everyone else, can I please be alone for a moment?" Once again, they all left the room, leaving Austin there to differ if he was hallucinating, or if, the girl of his dreams was right there. In front of him, "Ally, are you really there? Or are my eyes playing tricks on me?"
"What do you think?" she stepped closer to him. He could see her in a better angle now, the light was no longer blinding him from seeing her. Instead, the light brightened her features, shadowing all of her outlines. She was no longer deathly pale, she now looked brightened; her skin glowing, making his eyes sparkle. Her Halo shining; it was pure bright light, hovering above her head. The wings, he had not noticed—because of the light—were fluttering ever so gently. All in all; she looked breathtaking, at least to him, she did. The blinding light behind her had started to fade, making her look more godly in comparison.
"I think you look beautiful," he said breathlessly. He noticed her cheeks tinting a crimson color; due to all of the bright, white light, the deep red was able to be seen easily.
"I didn't know angels could blush," he said 'booping' her nose.
"Well they can!" she said glaring playfully, "Anyway, I don't have much time left." His face visibly fell at that, "I came to ask you something; did you watch the video?" she sent a questioning look.
"Yeah, we did."
"No, I mean... Do you know now? About..." she said, trailing off as her cheeks turned rosy once again.
"Oh yeah," he said surely. "By the way," he came close to her ear, whispering, as she gasped and shivered, "I love you too." Her eyes started to well up, he was oblivious to why, "Why are you crying?"
"Why?! Well, for one; I'M AN ANGEL! I may never see you again, until..." she trailed off again, not wanting to finish the sentence, "But that's not going to happen anytime soon! You better promise me that!" He reluctantly nodded.
"But, how will I be with you?" His eyes glistening at the thought of never being able to see her again.
"You won't," she said in a sure tone, that said, 'You can't change my mind.' He looked at her, giving her a look that said, 'There is no way in hell, I'll listen to that.'
"What I said is final!"
"But, I love you," his eyes turned to a lighter shade, softening his expression.
"Austin, if you really love me, you'll live your life not thinking about me. You'll follow your dreams, you'll keep Trish and Dez company, you'll—" she paused, took a deep breath, and continued, "You'll get married to C-Cassidy." He gave her a 'what are you talking about?!' look. He thought for a second about how they were communicating through looks and expressions for half of their conversation, just like they used to. He smiled for a second.
"What're you smiling about?" she had a puzzled look on her face, but it changed as realization dawned on her, "Oh, right, Cassidy."
"Actually, no, I was thinking about how we were talking, without talking for almost half of our conversation," she smiled a little, "Just like we used to." She smiled even more, a little surprised he remembered how they did that.
"As I was saying, I won't be able to see you again, I just came to say goodbye," she looked to the floor, which looked brightened due to her standing there.
"But only to me?" he said, slightly dazed, "How come no on else can see you?"
"Because the only person that can see me," she whispered, blushing, "is my one true love." He smiled, then frowned when he was reminded why she was an angel in the first place. He should've told her when he had the chance.
"I do love you," he said, looking into her eyes, his voice just above whisper, "I wish I had told you earlier."
"Why didn't you?" She had a pained expression.
"I didn't because I was running away from my emotions," he looked at her with loving eyes, "I was scared, because what I feel for you—it's unexplainable. Cassidy was a replacement, to keep me from falling in too deep, I don't think I can marry her, I don't think she does either. I love you too much." He couldn't help but create a list in his head, naming all of the reasons Ally was so much better than Cassidy.
Cassidy had straight blonde hair, Ally had small brunette ringlets. He preferred curly brunettes. He affectionately put his hands in Ally's hair, during the hugs he loved so much. Cassidy had baby blue provocative eyes, while Ally has hazel brown eyes, that held so much innocence. He loved the way she has this glint in her eyes, whenever she was excited—especially when she comes up with a new song. Cassidy had enticing thin red lips which many guys found attractive; but Austin loved to kiss Ally's ever-so plump, pink lips. The list never ends. While he was thinking, he had failed to realize, that he had been staring at the angel the whole time.
She smiled, and a few tears fell from her eyes, as he leaned closer to her, joining his lips with her. Everything they felt; joy, worry, love, everything and nothing was put in that kiss. It was slow, passionate, and perfect. They slowly pulled apart.
"I love you," she whispered in his ear, as the light behind her was slowly brightening once again, pulling her back, "But, I have to go."
"When will I see you again," he looked at her with pleading eyes.
"I'll be in your dreams," and she left, being backed up into the light, which was now fading along with her.
"Bye, Ally!" he hadn't much time left, "I love you."
"I love you too, Austin, goodbye—" she barely finished, as the light—along with her—was gone. He smiled, a little, but it was gone, as he remembered he would never see her again.
KNOCK, KNOCK
"Hey, can I come in," it was Mr. Dawson's voice.
"Yeah, I'm just about done," he remembered something, "Is it okay if I take a nap on the couch?"
"Sure, son," he responded. Austin was truly like a son to him. They both shared one thing in common; Ally. He laid down on the lush green sofa, happy to be in dreamland.
"Ally," he murmurs in his sleep, "I missed you..."
«|»
her funeral.
"We gather here today–" The preacher was giving his speech; the speech Austin he had heard hundreds of times—in movies. He had also been a funeral himself. Mrs. Dawson's. He had rather not be reminded of the experience. She was very close to him, perhaps, a second mother—but it was much worse for Ally. She cried all day and all night, for weeks. But, Austin was there to comfort her. He was always there to comfort her. Was. He hated the thought of seeing her cry, and being the one to cause it? It was too much for him. He was so deep in his thoughts, her hadn't realized it was his turn to say something about her. He walked up to the the stand, and gained everyone's attention immediately.
"Ally Dawson; what can I say about her? There isn't enough words in the dictionary to explain exactly how wonderful and amazing she was. She was my best friend and partner. I was hoping one day we'd both reach our dreams and make it in the music biz, but that didn't happen. What's worse is that, it's all my fault. I kept pushing her away, I didn't realize how bad I was hurting her." Everyone looked at him with sad and sympathetic faces, but he didn't want that. He didn't deserve sympathy. He passed over to his friends faces. Cassidy was there too.
"I–I broke her. She was in love with me!" People has started to tear up in the crowd, "I was in love with her too. But, I never got the chance to tell her," he said, shedding tears of his own. He left out the part about telling her, as she was and angel. He knew people would only call him crazy. "Ally was such a wonderful woman, and nobody ever gave her any credit. She got the best grades in her school, worked as an employee that everyone loved at Sonic Boom, she helped out anyone who ever came to her for advice. She always put everyone else first." He gazed over the crowd in chairs, everyone had a guilty countenance, or was hiding their face in their hands. He stepped down, and took his spot once again.
Her family and friends soon started going up to her; for their closure. Mr. Dawson was now taking his turn. He watched as her father gently leaned down and gave her a kiss on the forehead, and place a pendant beside her. Austin made a mental not to ask him about that later. He watched Trish as she murmured a few things, and placed a what seemed to be a tube of lipstick? "That color always looked good on you," he heard her murmur. That put a small smile on his face. Soon, Cassidy—surprisingly— following Dez had gone, and at last it was his turn.
He remembered when Mr. Dawson had gone up to him, while they were setting everything up.
"I thought it would be better if you went last, you get to talk to her alone," he said, he had a knowing sadistic smile on his face. Austin nodded, he couldn't be more right.
He walked up to Ally, his heart breaking as he saw her deathly pale once again. But, he smiled, happy she was in a better place. She deserved to be treated like an angel, and she was finally getting recognition. He knew, he knew he was nothing more than toxic for her. It was best she was far from him. He decided he would try to stay alive as long as possible, so he would remain distant from her. Though the thought of being far from her, for so long, made him cry again. Another tear had rolled down his cheek, ending its journey on hers. He slowly swiped the tear away, by swiping his thumb on her cheek.
"Hey Ally, how are you holding up?"
...
He sighed. What was he expecting? An answer? "I'm sorry, I really am. And to think, if I had just told you my feelings before, we wouldn't be here now." He sighed again, he really was not good at these things. He brought his head closer to her, and gently pressed his lips against her cheek. "I love you. Please visit me again. I know you only came to say goodbye, but please Ally?" he yelled. He knew she often visited him in his dreams, but that wasn't enough. He needed to see her, without forgetting about the meeting the minute he woke up. He needed to feel her arms around his neck everytime they hugged. To see her smile, the corners of her lips turned upward. To hear her voice echoing in his ears. He needed to smell that warm vanilla scent everytime she was around.
But then, in midst of his thoughts, he remembered something important, "Oh, by the way, I found this," he said, walking to his chair, and pulling her beloved songbook from underneath the chair. He had found it laying around on the counter of Sonic Boom, earlier that day. Though, he never dared to even think, about opening it. He took the book and gently it placed it underneath her right hand.
"I figured if you went, you'd want your secrets to go with you," he said smiling, "I love you, and maybe next time, we'll be together. This isn't goodbye, I'll see you soon"
But, what he didn't know is that, she was watching silently from above, her eyes sparkling at the thought of how much he loved her. She wishes he had told her earlier. But, alas, they'll be together one day.
«|»
"Can you take this box?"
"Sure, Mr. Dawson." Austin was currently helping Lester with packing up everything in the store. Mr. Dawson had recently decided that without Ally, Sonic Boom was lifeless. And once the rumors about her had spread, the store was becoming more and more empty. What was the point of keeping an empty and lifeless store open?
"Mr. Dawson, are you sure you want to close the store?" Austin asked. He had also thought that keeping the store open but, he couldn't even begin to imagine how the store would be without her. Even the amount of customers coming and going had been decreasing, due to hearing about the deceased teenage girl.
Alas, the last box had been packed to leave the store, and be delivered to a customer's home. Austin had gone home soon after, to eat dinner with his family. As soon, as he had arrived, the small talk between his family had stopped. No one dared to make a sound, besides the constant "clink" from the spoons hitting the bowl holding their soup. A few minutes later, he had decided to exclude himself from the awkward family supper, excusing himself to go to bed. Once again, he had pleasant dreams, being able to communicate with his beloved. Though, he was not so happy to be interrupted by the morning sun greeting him, the events of his dream starting to fade away.
His life continued this way, taking joy in small moments, usually things that had reminded him of Ally. And, once again, surprisingly, Cassidy had broke the engagement off herself, though he was about to, anyway. He decided to take off a year from college, going the year later. He had been accepted to Juilliard; one of the best music schools in the country, and had often wondered what it would be like, to see Ally every morning, driving her from home to college, going to eat lunch with her every midday, kissing her between every class—all of his dreams crushed (figuratively of coarse, his dreams were still intact with his happiness, seeing her every night) because of only himself.
He had—after finishing college—signed a record deal with Jimmy Star, all of his biggest life goals completed, but missing one thing from his internal checklist; the biggest thing of all... Guess who?
«|»
future.
One day, driving home to his giant mansion, after a tough day at work, he had, all of a sudden, Austin had to use the bathroom. Badly. And so forth, he was speeding 70mph on a 60mph beltway. Cars began to honk him, upset with him, after all, they all had their own events in life, and a speeding car was not going to help them. And, because he had been upset with the honking, he had sped 5 miles more, just to show them off. A childish thing to do indeed, but he hadn't cared.
He wasn't do afraid of dying, anyway. In fact, he had wanted to die, but he remembered what Ally had said; to go on with his life. He had, very well, gone far enough in his life. It's his time. And, he knows it. He remembers taking the morning off from work and staying with his family for a bit, before saying goodbye several times, hugging them like there was no tomorrow, and laughing twice as hard with them. He had also visited Mr. Dawson, lately he had been becoming weaker slowly, he had been getting sick. And, so Austin had tended him with small things, such as bringing some leftover food from his house, making sure he had been swallowing his pills, and such. But, inside, Austin knew the jolly old man would survive anything thrown at him.
Looking back on the events of the day, it's like he knew something was going to happen; something, something significant. He was grateful, that he had been that way throughout the day.
He started to speed his car up even more. As he started to start losing control, he swerved to the side, he didn't want innocent people to die, after all.
CRASH
«|»
After his parents had heard the news they had been devastated. The police had assumed it was accidental, and that he lost control of the car, but his parents knew better. The laughing, the hugging, everything had been pieced together in their heads. But, they knew that their son would end up happy in the end. And so, despite of the pain of their son having died in a car "accident," they smiled for a second.
It didn't take one second for Mr. Dawson to figure out why Austin had done what he'd done, after hearing about it from a close friend. He knew his daughter's best friend all too well. And, so he laughed, he laughed at the tv. Knowing that the two would finally be at piece.
And, so they were, doing something unmentionable in the godly heavens...
What? Mind out of the gutter please... I meant, I can't tell you that they're watching everyone from above—darn it!
A/N:
Does anybody remember what color the sofa was in the practice room; or if there even was a sofa in Sonic Boom?... Anyway, you guys are awesome! Can I please get 25–30 reviews for this chapter? Pretty please with cherry on top? *puts a bunch of whip cream, then a cherry at the top*
Question(s) of the Day:
(This one's a little more deep. And, yes, I did come up with these questions.) Life is a test. That's why each and everyone of us are here; to be tested. So, why do we become so attached to this thing we call earth? [This is not meant to be religious; just something to think about.]
Replies to Reviews:
R5GirlyPenguin: Yeah, that was also my favorite part; when Austin said "I love you." «3 And lol, '*Forever sobbing it*' ;'( Thank you for reviewing! :D
Awesomesauce325: My favorite part too! «3 I would also do the same; apologize. He has hurt her pretty badly. Your review means a lot! :)
queenc1: I'd exactly do the same thing! Considering that I developed the characters - Austin is a jerk! But, it's mostly because he's scared; he's scared of his feelings for her. And when Ally says those—slightly offending—things to him, it really hurts him. He convinces himself that Cassidy is perfect. If he'd known how rude she was being to Ally, he'd have dumped her in a heartbeat. Anyway, thanks for the review! XD
bookworm3: Oh my gosh! You have no idea how much this meant to me! When you make someone cry - that is a big milestone as a writer. Thank you! I've actually read your story, "Insane," it was so sweet! «3 He didn't plan very well... You're a very talented author. At that time, I didn't have an account... Anyway, I wish Austin wasn't so stupid and in denial. Trish and Dez should've been there for her. I really despise Cassidy - which is funny, because I created her character (not the name). I was thinking about cutting Austin & Ally's kiss, but I just had to put that there! Yeah, Ally's video was very...umm... what's the word? Bittersweet? :( «3 Yeah.
Isazu: Yeah totally! Austin was too overwhelmed to feel anything! But, I think I would say he was more shocked than freaked? I am sorry, for your sadness :(, but I hope I made it up in this chapter! :) Thanks for reviewing!
Forgotten Memories: Eeeeeep! I made another person cry! I'm like jumping for the stars! *Clears I throat...* Thank you so much! I literally squealed when I read this review! «3I wasn't originally planning to write something like this, it was supposed to be very different. A&A would've never kissed, Cassidy would've been much meaner, Austin would've probably ended up like Ally... Well, that would've been quite a disaster... About the reality check, yeah, I wanted to create something real (partially...). Life isn't all unicorns and rainbows. Life is a test. A test you can never prepare for. What I wrote, was something that probably happens all the time (exempting the supernatural stuff). But, one day everyone will end up happy; alive or not. :D(Unless, you end up in *cough* the dimension opposite to heaven, *cough* then I have no words of wisdom...)
XXxElement. .xXX: Austin tried to do that, it didn't work very well... Thank you for reviewing! :P
Guest: Right. True love «3 never dies. I'd do that to! Thanks for your time!
SpottedPelt of ThunderClan: Yeah, I'd definitely do that. Escpicially the crying part... Thanks for the review! :D
Frenchie12: No doubt. It's not everyday you see an angel, right? (I made a joke! Hehe. Not funny? Okay...) Thanks for reviewing! :)
Alyson: There have definitely been stories where I've cried that much! The fact that mine was able to do that, makes my heart jump with joy! Lol, I hope I didn't ruin your t-shirt... I'm glad it wasn't fine fabric or anything... I might've had to hide in a box... Thank you though, it means a lot! «3 - that's how I do hearts now, since the website doesn't take less-than signs. *Grumpy face*
katiemerillat195: Aww... Good! I hope I touched your «3 heart! Since you cried, I didn't ruin your shirt too, did I?
Roxanne: Okay... Sorry, I made you cry... But, that is a huge accomplishment for me as a writer! Making people - who never cry, reading a story - cry. So, thank you! :) «3
abby: Aww... thank you so much! :D But, crying is a good thing, it's a release of emotions.
madman: That's good—for me... Bad for your t-shirt... Lol Thanks for reviewing!
em: Yay! I made people cry! Btw, was this soon enough? Thank you!
alice13033: Thanks for the review! The reason I killed Ally off was because, that's what was going to happen in the first place. The story IS under angst and tragedy. And, Austin was very hurt, but um, it's happily ever after now! «3
HG Just Because: Yeah, me too. I can't even begin to imagine how scary that would be, if that really happened... Thanks for reviewing! :) «3
supersweetp: Aww! Thanks! Did I give what you wanted? ;) I think I'm pretty proud of how this story turned out. «3
Queen-of-Immortal-Darkness: I hope this chapter wasn't too sad... But, sad is what you get when I'm sleep deprived... Yep. Anyway, thanks for reviewing! «3
Gavroche: He would do that too, but Ally had wanted him not to. Oh Ally. Thanks for the review! :) «3