i'm tiny, slim, and all over a {little porcelain figurine}
[b r e a k a b l e]
-nobody will ever forget just how delicate i am-
(i'm the massie blockafter all)
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{massie block is a princess locked away in a tower at best}
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a doll really
massie is a china doll
she's meant to sit on the shelf and look pretty, nothing more
her "dainty" little head is not suppose to be filled with the books she so dearly loves
but instead used to attract the wandering eyes of society
so they can admire her so called "beauty"
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what is beauty really?
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long silky {chocolate tinted} hair that falls prettily no matter what it seems.
(who gives a flying shit?)
d e e p {coffee colored} eyes that are always hiding things
(because no one can handle the truth)
-framed by- ever fluttering longsoftblack lashes
c r a t e r deep dimples that are always appearing.
(since what good is a doll that frowns?)
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skin that's not flawless
(splotchy, red, and more often then not marked.)
but over all smooth-creamy-oh-so-pale. (translucent&make up covered really)
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{cute-as-a-button} shaped nose, thin&delicate eyebrows, & pale pink lips give off a {doll like} look to her
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doll like. doll like. doll like.
always fucking doll like.
{must not forget that she's a doll and nothing more}
-a pretty face to admire, nothing more-
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{massie block just looks like a little princess}
that doesn't fucking mean she is one
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she's ungraceful as anything
clumsy and awkward and off balance
she always feels too small, too tiny, like she's not enough for anyone
she'll never measure up to anything
she'll be pretty now but when it fades, what will she be?
who will she be, when she's not the little china doll?
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massie is so sick of being a {doll}. of being her parent's little pawn. of being something to play with.
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her voice is too soft. she doesn't know how to just say no to anyone. especially not her mother(s).
her hands are too small. she can't hold a football properly. she'll never make her dad proud the way "leesh" can.
her feet are too tiny. she feels like a freak of nature. what kind of fifteen-year-old can't even fit into a size five shoe?
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she's fifteen-almost-sixteen-year-old-girl in a ridiculously pretty ten-year-old's body
her body is just screaming for pedophiles to come and search her out
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her parent's don't care
they want to parade her everywhere
their "beautiful" and "youthful" daughter
oh how proud they are that Massie got a few good genes
what would they have done if god forbids she was ugly?
(in her eyes, she's just not horrifically physically repulsive. nothing more)
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massie gets adjectives like
silky. smooth. delicate. slim. slender. petite. fragile.
even
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fucking
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"breakable"
{"you know, kendra dear, she's pretty, but you'd do well to make sure massie doesn't look so breakable all the time. reserved is nice, but to look weak does a disservice to the name your family has built"}
-god, mrs. harrington is such a bitch-
massie is desperate to be more then just slightly p r e t t y
she's big, brave, and bold. {larger then life really}
[s t r o n g]
-no one could ever forget just how strong she is-
{she's the alicia rivera after all}
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{alicia rivera is a shining knight in armor saving her own ass}
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a hero really to her own story
alicia is a champion
she's meant to command an army of her own and be the savior to herself
she doesn't need to depend on anyone
she's so much more then pretty
she's beautiful
defiant and strong and all the things her older sister could never be
leesh has bigger and better things to do in life then be a trophy for some else
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what is beauty really?
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short glossy{espresso shaded} curlshair that are always wind blown
(so carefree and having to much fun to bother)
d a r k {almost mahogany shaded} eyes that are always wild
(rebellious and strong willed and ready to challenge)
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her skin is not flawless
but over all so tan and exotic and mocha tinted
{with battle scars and little marks to prove the strength she's had in the past}
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{ski slope nose}, thick&striking eyebrows that shape her face, & wide pouty d e e p blood red lips. all giving a foreign beauty look to her
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alicia rivera is like a fighting knight.
savior. champion. hero.
{so much more then a pretty face in the crowd.}
she's got big hands but she can toss a foot ball better then most people and beat up anyone who annoys her
she's got large feet but she's got them planted firmly on the ground and makes her own path in life
her voice is deep but commanding and gets her what she wants
it has the firmness and self confidence that her sister can never have
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she's ten-year-old girl who is mature enough to be thought of as older
no one dares to hand her the child's menu
she carries herself with the air of an adult compared to the meek way her sister slides by with
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{alicia rivera is enough in life}
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she's five years younger, an inch taller, seven pounds heavier, almost five shoe sizes bigger then her "older" sister.
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there's really no competion is there?
she beat massie from the moment she was born.
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alicia gets adjectives like
sturdy. strong. dependable. firm. rough. proud. brawny. muscular. tough.
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fucking
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"spirited"
{are they really fucking trying to say that the "other one" is broken in and worn down already?}
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-we get it, we gets it-
massie fucking gets it
she's not a "knight in shining armor"
she's not all strong&spirted
people look at her and assume she can't carry a simple cardboard box
that she's not suitable to do even the simplest of tasks
as if massie is so delicate it's straining to do anything
nothing she do will even amount to the greatness of her little sister
she can't toss a football or wrestle with guys
she doesn't have the guts to openly defy her parents and she can't stand her own ground ever
but she's built like a glass figurine , what else should she expect really?
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she may be only ten but alicia is a hell of a lot more of a woman than massie could be
massie looks young for her age. alicia gets to older then she is
it's probably only fitting
alicia is mature and has the fire of a grown woman in her
massie is like a young child throwing a tantrum but can't even properly cry out so instead she sulks quietly within
how juvenile can she be, feeling so jealous of her little sister?
it only makes sense that their physical traits match their real ones
the only thing nature got wrong was that despite how pretty people claim massie is on the outside
she knows she's ugly on the inside
and as awkward as alicia may look now, while she's waiting to grow into herself,
when she's older her beauty will match the magnificence she has in her definite attitude
they were two brown haired brown eyes girls that couldn't look more different it seems
in the kingdom of westchester they may both be a part of more of the most prestigious family
they may even be half sisters
but massie's always known that she's be the weak entrapped maiden in the family
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