Chapter 2

Undisclosed Desires

When I got back to the mansion I was greeted with Marilyn Manson's Beautiful People blaring from the third floor. I rushed up the stairs to go meet up with my dark prince. I found him staring intently at his easel, a wet paint brush in hand and dried black paint smeared on his cheek.

"Hey Picasso, what you work 'in on?" I asked, walking over and pecking him on his clean cheek.

"Nothing special, yet," he said placing his paint brush down and covering his easel. "Did you get what you needed?"

"Yes," I said looking down at my duffle bag.

"Do I get a sneak peek?" he asked wrapping his arms around me.

"Nope," I said quoting him. "It's a surprise."

"I could always persuade you to tell me," he said echoing my words from earlier. He took me in to his arms, nibbling my neck, and fell on to the pillows on his "bed". On a normal worn out bed it would have hurt, but it was a comfortable landing, it must have been Alexander's strong arms. I giggled and shook about as he tickled me. He stopped to let me catch my breath, and then he kissed me passionately. He whispered in my ear.

"I love you so much," he said. "You are my life, the reason I breathe, the reason I live."

I pulled back to look at his face and saw his soft, sweet brown eyes, a small but genuine smile covered his lips. His eyes seemed to be flooded with love and being there, just lying there with him, I knew, he was my soul mate.

"I love you too," I said. "More than I can even say. I love you with all my heart; I know you're the one who I want to spend my life, no matter what."

He smiled a gorgeous smile and kissed me again, this time with all his might.

"I never want this week to end," I whispered, when the kiss was over.

"I don't want any moment I spend with you to end, but then I would never get to experience anything new, with you. Every moment since the one we met has made me treasure it and I say it can't get better than this, but you always seem to surprise me. Every day I fall for you harder, and I can only hope that you are getting hit just as hard."

"I am," I said. "I know how you feel."

I felt as my eyelids fluttered, I wanted to hear more of the sweet words he was saying, but it became really hard to keep my eyes from fluttering let alone closing.

"C'mon my love," he said seeing that I was minutes away from passing out. "Time for you to sleep so that your prince may wake you later."

I was able to open my tired eyes long enough to see the digital clock across the room, it was almost four o clock, Alexander would have been going to bed soon anyway. He easily carried me down the trap door in to his secret room, he placed me down in the coffin and I watched as he lit a few candles around the room, just in case I happened to wake, so I wouldn't be completely blind. Then he slid off his tight jeans so he was in a t-shirt and boxers, this is how he slept, or at least while I was around. Then he lifted me slightly as he lowered himself in to the coffin, and placed me so my head was lying on his chest, it was a bit convenient that it was a tight space in here, that meant for more intertwining. I felt as he stroked my hair as he tried to ease me to sleep. Many times he had tried to convince me to sleep on the bed rather than in the coffin, not because it inconvenienced him, but because he thought that I would be more comfortable. I told him that as long as I was sleeping near him, there was no way I could be uncomfortable. He eventually gave up with his suggestions and just let me sleep here with him, I think he actually likes it better this way, knowing that I'm by him, it helps him sleep better, and it helped me sleep better too.

I quickly feel asleep listening to his quiet, rhythmic breathing. It soothed me.

I barely noticed when I began dreaming. I dreamt that I stood alone in the cemetery. I looked around, it was foggy but I saw small points of light along certain headstones forming a path of light. I walked closer and noticed they were blood red candles, the red wax now molding it's self to the head stones as it melted. I followed the lit path, sensing Alexander was behind it.

At the end of the path I found a blanket sprawled across the grassy ground, sitting under the statue of a crying angel. There was a covered serving dish, and two glasses sitting next to two wines bottles, one of them wasn't labeled. I sat down looking around for my dark princes. I saw a dark figure approaching, that must be him, I thought. I ran towards him and wrapped my arms around his neck.

"I love you," he whispered in my ear. I gazed in to his brown eyes as I leaned in to kiss me, the kiss began how it usually did, he kissed me sweetly, politely like the gentleman he is, but then it changes, it became aggressive, too aggressive, like nothing I've ever felt, what, no, Alexander isn't like this? This is wrong I thought. I pulled away to ask what he was doing when he squeezed in to a tight hug, I felt like I was being constricted.

"Alexander?" I whispered worried.

"You're mine now," he whispered, only his voice was different. In fact it wasn't his voice at, it was Trevor's! I was able to turn my head just enough to see blond hair. I tried to pull away but I couldn't his arms were too strong, I couldn't get out of their circle.

I woke up in a shock finding my back against the wall of the coffin. I reached down and pulled my cell phone out of my skirt pocket. I pointed it away from Alexander so the light would not bother his sleep. It was 3:37pm. I sighed I couldn't stay in the coffin till sunset; I had to clear my head. I pushed the lid of the coffin lightly trying not to disturbed Alexander; he shifted slightly as I moved his arms off of me. Once I was out I paused a moment as I was closing the coffin lid, he looked so adorable and peaceful as he laid there sleeping. When I closed the lid, I quickly threw my combat boots on and headed for the trap door, I blew out the candles Alexander had lit for me last night. They had almost burnt all the way to the bottom. I knew exactly what I could do with my free time. On a normal day there is no way I would have ever enjoyed doing this but, it was something I wanted to do for a specific reason. I need to go to the mall.

I on my way downstairs, I passed Jameson's room, soft snores escaped from underneath the door. He was sleeping. Looks like I will have to drive myself. I made my way to the garage, grabbing both the keys to the Mercedes and Alexander's spare house key that he kept hanging on a hook by the door to the garage. Inside I saw too vehicles, the Mercedes and 'Phoenix's ' bike, which was covered with a tarp. I slid in to the driver's seat of the Mercedes. I didn't think Jameson or Alexander would have a problem with my borrowing it; after all they were both sleeping. I would try to be back before any of them wake up. I would have ridden my bike but I left it at home, and either way it would be a long peddle to the mall across town, I wanted this to be a quick trip, so it would just be faster if I drove.

Though I didn't drive all that much, I did have my license. I just never really used it till now because I never really had a car to drive, my parents didn't let me borrow theirs, and Becky always insisted on driving me if I ever asked for her truck, there are only some special occasions where she'll allow me to drive.

I started the car and drove to mall, throwing in one of Alexander's Black Veil Bride CDs in the CD player; he must have left it in here for when he drives. I rocked out as I took the 5 minute drive to the mall, and then reluctantly shut the car off and got out. I really didn't want to be seen here, one of my least favorite places. I walked in the mall and quickly put the hood of my Emily the Strange sweatshirt hood up, trying to hide my face, not that anyone wouldn't know exactly who I was as soon as they saw my clothes.

I tried to run through the mall, as if that wasn't attracting any more attention, and quickly go in to the store that a week ago I wouldn't be caught dead in, Victoria's Secret.

I wanted to be sexy for Alexander tonight, and to be honest I don't think my lace bra and black hello batty boy shorts were cutting it, I didn't want to go all the way to V-string thong level, but I at least wanted some sexy underwear.

It was awkward enough to see myself in this store but to have people staring at me the whole time made it worse. I ended up buying a black, push up, with a red lace trim, that seem to make me looks two cups sizes bigger, while also being almost see through, and having a lot of open cleavage, and a matching cotton panties, that showed off a lot of my butt and seemed dangerously close to becoming a thong.

Alright Raven, I thought to myself, handing the cashier what was left of the money my mom left for food, I bought what I needed, that doesn't mean I need to wear it yet, it's just in case. Once the cashier gave me my change and handed me my bag, all while staring at me like I had four head, I bolted trying to get out of the store without meeting the eyes of someone who could possibly know me or even my parents. I kept my eyes down feeling a small sense of victory as I made it out of the store alive, only to slam in to someone so hard that I almost fell.

"Hey watch where you're going!" the familiar voice said. I looked up to see Trevor! Of course, out of anyone I could possibly run in to, it had to be him. "Oh hey monster girl," he said smiling wickedly. I hid my bag behind me, but it was too late. He already processed it, my blushing face, the store behind us, he knew that I had just been in there, something that until today he could probably never picture.

He laughed hilariously. I stood there embarrassed.

"Wow, monster girl, I never knew you wore thongs and stuff, seems I need to start paying more attention to you now."

"Shut up Trevor," I said trying walk past him. He grabbed my wrist.

"Aw C'mon," he said. "What you bought them to please monster boy? How about you go try them on, I'll tell you if I think He'll like them or not."

"God Trevor you're such a perv!" I said trying to pulling my arm away.

"What, I'm only trying to help you," he said laughing. "As your friend I want you to look your sexiest. I mean I would try to picture it right now but I just end up scaring myself." He pretended to cringe, I used that to escape. I speed walked towards the exit.

He didn't follow me, instead he just stood there. "I'll be waiting for you tonight!" he teased. I ignored him. I was almost to the exit when a store caught my eye, CVS. There was something else I would need, I thought. I'm sure Alexander has already gotten them but, just in case. I headed in and went somewhere else that 24 hours ago would have seemed silly, the condom isle.

I had no idea which one to pick, they all seemed the same to me, and I mean they all work the same right? This had been the whole reason my mom had started me on birth control a couple of years ago, but you could never be too safe. I grabbed the one that seemed the most familiar to me, Trojan. I remember seeing commercials for this brand the most on all the late night TV shows I watch, and well it's really the only condom brand I really know about, not that I actually know about it any way. I grabbed it when I heard a very familiar voice in the isle next to me.

"Aw, Matt, you're so sweet," the voice said. Fuck! It was Becky! Why did everyone have to be at the mall today, of all days! I tried to grab what I could to cover what I really came here for, a random gossip magazine, 3 chocolate bars and a soda, then I tried to tip toe to the cashier when I heard what I had been trying to avoid.

"Raven?" Becky said spotting me. "What are you doing here?"

"Um, hey Becky," I said turning around; she had Matt by her side. I guess I could have told her the real reason why I was here if she was here alone, but not with Matt here. "Just buying a few things for myself, I said holding up my soda, magazine, and chocolate, I made sure it covered what I didn't want them to see.

"Oh well, Matt and I am just here to get some candy, we are going to the movies later, and well you know how much movie theaters charge for candy."

"You and Alexander should come with us," Matt suggested. "Make it a double date".

"Um, nope sorry," I said. "Alexander has some secret date night plans for us tonight, but, ah, have fun at the movies, I said heading for the cashier."

"Oh well, we have everything we need, so why don't we wait in line with you?" Becky said following me.

Crap, fuck, shit, no, no, no that's a really bad idea.

"Ah, Becky can I talk to you for a minute?" I asked. "Alone?"

"Ah…sure," she said looking at Matt. She let go of his and walked towards me. I took her hand and led her off in to the nearest isle.

"What is it?" she asked.

"I um didn't come here to buy chocolate and magazines and stuff like that," I confessed.

"Oh," she said. "What did you come here to buy then?"

"Uh…condoms," I whispered.

She stared at me blankly for a minute before it finally processed.

"Oh…OH, that's what you and Alexander are doing today?" she whispered loudly.

"Yeah…and I kind of…don't want Matt to know," I said.

"Well I wasn't going to tell him…oh you want me to distract him so he doesn't see you buy them…okay yeah, I can do that."

"Thank you so much," I said hugging Becky.

We walked back and she went to Matt and took his hand.

"Matt," she said. "I just remembered, peanut butter makes my stomach feel really weird, we need to get different candy," I heard Becky say as I purchased my things.

"But you love Reese's," Matt protested.

"Well, uh, I just don't feel like having Reese's today, I kind of feel like having dark chocolate," she said improvising.

"Okay," Matt said as she led him to the isle.

I thanked my lucky stars for Becky and bought my items, with the only awkwardness being when the cashier chuckled while scanning the box of Trojan.

I used the rest of my food money to pay for all the stuff, happy to see that it was just enough money.

I rushed to the Mercedes not wanting to run in to anyone else. It was 4:30 when I got back to the Mansion, seems like my rushing took longer than I thought, and although it was spring the sun seemed to be setting early, I parked the car in the garage and walked in to the house glad to find that Jameson was just coming down the stairs and didn't seem to notice that I left.

"Oh hello Ms. Raven," he said. "It seems I have slept in a bit longer than usual."

"That's alright Jameson," I said. "You deserve a break from all the work you do around here." He nodded appreciatorily.

I ran up to Alexander's attic room and found that he wasn't awake yet. I shoved my bags in to my duffle bag and then sat on his bed, tired from my long night and day full of rushing around. I pulled out my phone,

I had a text message. I opened it, it was from Alexander

Where did you go off to?

Sent at: 3:15

I sighed; he must have woken up and realized that I wasn't there. He must be worried. I thought about texting him, but I knew he would be waking up soon, so I could just explain then. Sure enough within 5 minutes Alexander came up from the trap door, looking cute as ever with his hair in an adorable bed head mess and wearing his t-shirt and boxers.

"Good morning sleepyhead," I said.

He scratched his head and smiled sleepily. He walked over to me to kiss me lightly on the lips as he made his way to the closet to pick out what he was going to wear tonight.

"So what did you do today?" Alexander asked casually.

"I went to the mall," I said hesitantly.

He glanced at me.

"Hot Topic?" he asked.

"Yea," I said a little too quickly. I'd rather he'd think I went there rather than where I actually went.

"Sounds like fun," he said.

"Yea, I'm sorry I left, it's just I had a nightmare, and not the good kind, and I just needed to clear my head," I apologized.

"I understand," he said. "It's not like I'm your babysitter or anything." He walked out of his closet holding his outfit and kissed me on the cheek. "Now go get ready, because tonight is going to be all about you."