This is bit smutty! Read & Review if you liked it...wanted more...whatever suits your fancy!
A/N: The different chapters will alternate between being A/U & non A/U...sorry I didn't mention that in the summary or first part.
Makes Me Wonder
Damon squinted at the sunlight pouring the window and piercing his eyelids. He got up and felt his head spinning. 'Jeez Damon…how much did you even drink' he thought to himself.
He made his way to his bathroom to splash cold water on his face. He dragged his hands over his face and through his hair. He stared back at the blood-shot eyes staring at him in the mirror. He watched the water droplets slowly fall from the tip of his nose and his jaw line. That's when his eyes caught something on his collarbone.
'Is that a hickey?!' Instantly the memories he struggled to remember came up from his whiskey soaked mind.
"I knew you'd be here with your best friend Jack…"Elena said in a condescending tone.
Damon sat at his usual barstool taking large sips of his drink. He gave her a sideways glance and motioned to the bartender to pour him another double.
"What do you want Elena?"
"You're not returning my phone calls…I was worried."
"Elena…you're interrupting me drowning my sorrows…we're through. We said what we needed to…now go away."
"That's not true Damon. You didn't even try saying something I could believe in and—"
He spun around on his stool and shut up by kissing her so deeply he forgot they even broke up. He was drunk…or close to it but he didn't care. He knew she felt it…she didn't even fight it, she leaned further into him and tugged at his shirt. He backed away so quickly she almost lost her balance.
"Do you believe in that?" he said with his trademark wicked grin.
Elena couldn't even conjure up any words. He downed the rest of his whiskey and grabbed her hand, walking straight to the bathrooms in the back of the bar.
He pushed up against her and the door and locked it. He kissed her again and let his lips trail across her jaw and down to her neck.
"Damon…this isn't a good idea." She said breathlessly. His hands held her hips in place against the door while his tongue did a number on her neck…a spot he knew would get her going.
"Mmm, no it's a bad idea…but it feels so good." He whispered teasing the bare skin between the top of her jeans and her tank top. "You know you want to remember what it feels like to have me in between your thighs Elena…"
She gave in and brought her own lips to his neck. She sucked hard making him hiss and push harder against her lifting her from her behind and wrapping her legs around his waist. His body took over wanting to dive in straight into her and make her cry out from pleasure.
But he started wondering if this would make a difference. If he fucked her right now in this public bathroom would they get back together? She moaned and writhed against him but he knew he would wake the next day still dealing with the things he left unsaid. He stopped massaging her breasts through her shirt and he stopped kissing her abruptly.
"What's the matter?" she asked as she breathed heavily.
"This is not worth it….the aftermath of this will make me try and get back with you…but I know you don't want to."
"Damon…I'm sorry."
"That doesn't mean anything…" he said a bit coldly and setting her down so she could adjust her clothes. He wondered if she ever gave a fuck about him.
"You apparently don't have any reasons and I'd rather spend my time at that bar not thinking about you. So this is goodbye." He said unlocking the door and walking out.
He cursed himself for not having her one last time…he stared at his reflection once more. 'Well you made your bed…now go lie in it.' He thought to himself before heading back to his bedroom.
Lyrics:
[Verse]
I wake up with blood-shot eyes
Struggled to memorize
The way it felt between your thighs
Pleasure that made you cry
Feels so good to be bad
Not worth the aftermath, after that
After that
Try to get you back
[Bridge]
I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you
[Chorus]
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try
(Yeah)
So this is goodbye
[Verse]
God damn my spinning head
Decisions that made my bed
Now I must lay in it
And deal with things I've left unsaid
I want to dive into you
Forget what you're going through
I get behind, make your move
Forget about the truth
[Bridge]
I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you
[Chorus]
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
(Oh no)
So this is goodbye
[Breakdown]
I've been here before
One day I'll wake up
And it won't hurt anymore
You caught me in a lie
I have no alibi
The words you say don't have a meaning
Cause
[Bridge]
I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you
And I...and so this is goodbye
[Chorus]
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
(Oh no)
So this is goodbye
So this is goodbye, yeah [x3]
(Oh no)