Thanks everyone who reviewed. You rock! Here is chapter 2 of this story. The whole story is probably going to be in Edward's point of view. Let's see if I can control myself. I'll do my best.
This is dedicated to whoever came up with the idea for the movie "The Swan Princess". That is by far my favorite childhood movie. I love it so much. Derek and Odette are the best!
Disclaimer: I am not Stephenie Meyer. This will be my only disclaimer for the whole story so put that in your minds okay? I wish I was a vampire…
Well, before I forget, the next chapter is dedicated to anyone who tells me their favorite childhood movie. Okay? Now, here's the next chapter.
"Edward," she said softly, gently lifting my face so that I'd look at her.
"Bella," I returned. I really wasn't looking forward to this conversation.
"How could you leave me? How could you make me believe that you didn't love me? How could you do this to me?"
I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. "Bella…I'm sorry. The only reason I have for you is that I wanted you to live a normal human life. I never expected any of this to happen to you. I guess you really are a danger magnet…" I smiled softly but she didn't find any humor in the situation.
"Edward Cullen, you know I cannot live without you. Do you even know how much that hurt me?"
"I'm so sorry," I whispered.
"You know what, that's not enough. I'm not the same person I was when you first met me. Tell me that if you had a chance to redo that you wouldn't have left me, that you won't ever leave me again." Her eyes were pleading with me but they held a type of coldness, a protective shield. Before I thought I had imagined it, but now I knew it was true. My Bella wasn't the same. And I knew that this had all been my fault.
"I…I don't know, Bella," I replied honestly. Even after everything that had happened, I still wanted a normal life for her. Obviously the 'clean break' that had been my original intention hadn't worked but if I felt that it was safer for her, I still couldn't promise that I'd stay. The fact that she was my other half and that I couldn't live without her didn't matter. I could deny myself.
"Edward, damn it, that's not enough. I'm almost completely sure that I love you more now. What the hell? I did not leave you. Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, you left me. You didn't care about how hurt I would be, about how much I needed you. When did you ever care about how I felt or what I wanted? It's always about your beliefs isn't it?"
"No…Bella, you don't understand," I tried to cut in but it was a weak attempt. She was winning and she knew it.
"No, Edward, I honestly think I do. You're a vampire, so what? You've slipped a few times and killed innocent people, I get that; I really do. I don't see what's so horrible about your lifestyle. And all that time, I just thought that maybe I just wasn't worth it. Maybe you didn't love me at all. Is that why you don't want to change me? Because Edward, I don't get it," she paused her, trying to collect herself but I saw the tears forming in her eyes. I did that too…
"Bella, no. I'm the one who is not worth it. I've told you this before." All I had were the same weak attempts at reasoning with her. What she said made complete self but I couldn't bring myself to do what she asked me to.
"Edward, you're wrong. Do you love me at all?"
"I love you so much, Bella Swan."
"Then why don't you want to spend eternity with me? Why did you leave me with nothing and no one? Just…why?"
"Because I love you." I couldn't bring myself to bring up all the things that she had done (i.e. cliff-diving) that broke the promise she made to me. I left her. I left her and I took away everything, even the belief that I loved her. I couldn't expect her to keep a promise like that.
"No you don't!" She screamed, shocking me. "I can't do this again Edward; I won't live through it next time. I just want to be with you, don't you understand? I…I, um, think that it'd be…uh…good for us to take a break."
"Bella, no, I need to be with you."
"I need you too, Edward. But before you can change me or at least begin to consider changing me, I think you need to feel what I went through so that you understand…"
"Isabella," I said cautiously, her words and the look in her eyes were scaring me. "What are you talking about?"
"Promise me you won't do anything stupid," she whispered so quietly that I barely heard her.
"What? No, Bella, don't…don't do this…" Her words reminded me so much of what I had said the day that I left her.
"Promise," she pleaded.
"I promise," I said, silently willing her not to do this. I had finally figured out what she meant.
"Goodbye Edward, never forget that I love you," she said as she grabbed the packed suitcase that I hadn't noticed from behind the rocking chair in the corner.
She walked swiftly down the stairs and outside to her truck. As she reached the front door, she said, "Don't follow me."
Panic-stricken, I watched her drive away until I couldn't see or hear her anymore. She left me. She left me just like I left her. But she gave me the one thing that I had made her believe I had taken away all those months ago, she gave me her love.
"Isabella," I said softly, hoping she was around here somewhere and that this had never happened.
When I was met with complete silence, cold, hard reality washed over me and it dawned on me that she was gone and she might never come back.
So I did the only logical thing I could think of. I ran. I didn't realize where I was going until I reached the front porch of my house. It was there that I broke down into dry, painful sobs.
Vaguely I felt two arms wrap around me and bring me into the house but I didn't try to figure out who it was. My Bella was gone and the world just turned into a hollow, empty place. This was so much worse than before I had met her. This was even worse than when I had left her. This gut-wrenching, heartfelt pain was so horrible that I couldn't put it into words. So I just sat there, sobbing, wishing for so many things. Wishing that I could cry. Wishing that I could sleep. Wishing that my Bella was here with me.
What have I done?
Okay, that probably reminds you of New Moon and the plotline seems kind of the same right now but I swear it's different. Why? 5 Reasons…
He is Edward.
He's a vampire.
He knows Bella loves him.
He has a family.
There is no Jacob to console this broken Edward.
Hope you liked it. I'll try to update soon.
