JJ dove back in kissing Kate hard, pouring her love into the kiss. She took Kate's top off and sat back down to take in Kate's amazing breasts. She placed her hands over them feeling them and playing with her nipples. Kate moaned, smiled and brought her mouth down and sucked on one nipple, taking turns between each nipple. Kate quickly took off JJs shirt and start to play with her breasts. JJ moaned with pleasure," oh Kate!" Shortly after that JJ quickly took off both Kate's and her own pants and panties. Kissing Kate on the lips again JJ slid her hand down Kate's body and between her legs. She knew she reached her destination when Kate gasped and dug her nails into JJs back. JJ chuckled and inserted 2 of her fingers into a very wet Kate. Kate moaned and brought their lips together. JJ began pumping her fingers in and out of Kate. Kate encouraged her and wrapped her legs around JJ. She started grinding in time with JJs pumping. Kate's moans turned into yells as she came closer to the edge. JJ pumped faster and harder. Suddenly Kate started shaking and screaming as she came. " FUCK JJ!" JJ smiled and kept her fingers inside Kate as she came down from the most mindblowing orgasm she had ever experienced. She kissed JJ and as she recovered she slowly switched positions so JJ was on the bottom and Kate was on top.
Kate slowly kissed her way down JJs body spending time at her breasts and JJ moaned with pleasure and her hands were on Kate's head as she continued her way down and spread JJs legs apart. She started kissing JJs clit and JJ was moaning loudly. Kate began to kiss and suck JJs clit hard. JJs moans turned into gaps and screams as Kate's mouth did things she didn't know were possible to her. As she came, JJ tightened her legs around Kate's head.
Both woman laid on the bed catching their breathes. JJ turned on her side to look at examined Kate's body had to noticed scars all over her beautiful didn't see them as ugly, instead she saw a woman trying to survive. Kate turned her head and noticed JJ staring at her body. Kate quickly pulled the sheets up and hid as much of her body as she could.
"Jen, don't look at my body, it's hideous. I really really like you and would like to be in a relationship for a little longer before the mess I made of body scares you off." Kate looked to be on the verge of tears. JJ wrapped her arms around Kate and held her for a moment.
"Kate, sweetheart, you are beautiful head to toe, inside and out. Scars remind us of where we have been but they don't decide where we are going. They are how you survived. Nothing could scare me away. Did I ever tell you where this necklace came from?" Kate, who was curled against JJ looked at the necklace and felt it in her fingers. Kate silently shook her head that JJ had never told her the story behind the necklace. JJ closed her eyes and took a deep breath before she started to tell Kate about her big sister.
"When I was younger I used to do everything with my older sister Rose. We were two years apart. During the summer we rode our bikes to the lake or to the store. Rose loved animals and everyone in town knew it so she made money by animal watching. I remember she got this bought this necklace one day because it reminded her how good it felt to help those in need. Anyway one night she came into my room and put the necklace around my neck and told me she loved me. I hugged her back and thanked her. When I asked why she gave it to me, she just said she felt it was time to pass it on. The next morning I went to wake her up so we could have breakfast and I found her hanging in the closet. I remember screaming and then nothing else."
Kate maneuvered so she could see JJs face and hold her. They both had tears in their eyes.
"Jen, I am so sorry you had to go through that. Why would you want to date someone like me? "
JJ looked her in the eyes. " You are beautiful Kate. That's why I want to date you. You are coping how you know how to. You are alive. I know self harm isn't a suicide attempt, I'm still going to worry though, but I know that when you are ready, with help and love, you can find a healthier way to cope." Kate looked at JJ in the eyes and saw truth and love. She leaned in and kissed JJ hard. JJ looked at Kate and took her hand in hers.
"Kate? Why do you hurt yourself? How old were you when you started? I don't mean to be nosey but I'd like to understand it better." Kate took a deep breath and began her story.
"I started cutting when I was in high school. I've known I was gay since middle school and not many people accepted it. I didn't flaunt my sexual orientation but everyone knew. My girlfriend at the time had set something up and took me to a meadow at night to start gaze. Little did I know, it was a trap. We got to the field and some of the popular guys grabbed me, held me down and proceeded to rape me. By the time they were finished with me I went home and told my dad. You know what he said to me? He told me a fag like me deserved it. I stayed home for a while after that. After my first missed period I got a pregnancy test. It was positive. Some how my dad found out and pulled me by my hair to the kitchen and beat me so badly I lost the baby and broke several bones. The only thing that saved me was my older sister. She pushed him away and helped me out of the house and I haven't been back since. It wasn't long after the beating that I started cutting. My sister didn't notice right away but when she did she would not leave me alone. Then she and my brother in law were killed on 9/11. Worse day of my life. I felt like my world end...until you came along." JJ didn't know what to say but felt pain for what Kate had been through.
" Kate you are safe with the team. We are all your family, well in my case lover, but we won't let anyone hurt you for any reason." Kate have her a sad smile.
"JJ my cuts aren't deep just because of this case. About 2 months ago I was um..." Kate stood covering herself and began poaching. " About a month ago a guy raped me and I was to sick to tell anyone so I just told myself it didn't happen but I can't anymore because I found out I'm pregnant. I'm weak and disgusting and don't deserve any of this. I don't deserve you." Before JJ could do anything Kate grabbed a small bag and ran into the bathroom, slamming the door shut. It took moment but JJ got up and knocked hard on the bathroom door.
"Kate, baby, please open the door. I want to talk about what you just told me." The door remained shut and JJ had tears streaming down her face. "Please Kate, don't punish yourself over something the wasn't your fault." The door remained shut as JJ rested her head on the door and used her open hand to hit it. Finally Kate opened the bathroom door and JJ rushed was worried when she saw Kate.
"Do you still want me know JJ? Or do I look like the piece of trash I am." Kate had several new very wide cuts on her arm, her first instinct was to stop the bleeding.
"Kate you are NOT a piece of trash.I love you and have for a long time now." JJ found gauze and started putting it over the different cuts." I wish you would have told someone about the for the pregnancy, I'm going to stick by you no matter what. I've always wanted kids but if you are not ready, or don't feel like you can carry that bastards child, then I will be by your side." JJ kissed Kate firmly to let her know she was telling the truth. " Kate, sweetie, the bleeding won't slow down. I think we need to get you to a clinic or something."
Kate didn't put up much of a fight as JJ wrapped her arm tightly with gauze then dressed her and led her to the car. JJ quickly looked up walk-in clinics and put the nearest one in the GPS. When they got there JJ filled out the paperwork only needing to ask Kate a few questions. They were called back and JJ held Kate while they waited for a Dr to come in. JJ knew that if she could convince them she could watch Kate then they wouldn't hospitalize her. A few moments later a young women came in.
"Hi I'm Doctor Menard, how can I help you tonight?" JJ spoke up.
"My girlfriend needs stitches in her arm." Kate pulled her sweater off without being asked to.
"How did you get those cuts?" JJ ,once again, answered, wanting to protect Kate.
"She fell through a glass shower door." Doctor Menard looked up from Kate's scarred arm and gave them a funny look.
"We have it covered doctor. She will be seeing a therapist when we get home. She won't leave my sight and I will take care of her." Normally the doctor would make people who self injure so severely go to the hospital but she saw something in JJs eyes that made her trust also saw Kate starting at JJ with so much trust and a sense of safety in her eyes that she decided to treat Kate.
"Ok. Kate, can you please come lay down on the table? JJ you can sit on the other side of her and hold her hand and talk to her if you want." Doctor Menard said as she got everything she needed to fix Kate's arm. JJ helped Kate onto to take then took a seat next to her and held Kate's hand. The doctor explained everything she was doing as she did it. When she numbed Kate's arm, Kate didn't flinch but tightened her grip on JJs hands. JJ held Kate's hand and gave her a kiss on the cheek. The doctor began to stitch the first of Kate's cuts. Kate took a deep breath.
"Hey Kate, sweetie." JJ wanted to distract her. " I hope you know I was serious about before when I said I'm sticking by you no matter what. I have never felt like this about anyone before. I don't care if we take really slow, along as it's with you. " Kate looked at her and had such a trusting, believing look in her eyes. She smiled slightly given what was happening at the moment. JJ stood up and gave Kate a kiss that had a lot of love in it. Kate, of course, returned the kiss.
"Will you really stay with me if I want to keep the baby?" Kate asked with so much vulnerability it broke JJs heart.