"Darren..." Chris said, his voice cracking at how much his heart was aching
"Yes Chris?" He replied, looking up at him with big puppy dog eyes, hopefully, as if Chris was magically going to change his mind and decide that they should be together.
Chris took a step forward and sat down next to Darren and took his hand "Look, I love you no matter what, and I know this is going to be hard but we can't be together, we really can't. Think of all of the times we've had on the set, we're going to be around each other constantly for the next season, so why should we spoil the beautiful friendship we have? I want you Darren, so much. I just don't want to lose you. I really don't."
A tear rolled down Darren's face. "I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have-"
Chris interrupted Darren by leaning forward and wiping away the tear that was slowly running down his face. Darren looked up and their eyes connected, and they both slowly smiled.
"It's going to be okay, I promise" Chris reassured him, not breaking eye contact for fear of never being able to look into those beautiful eyes again.
"You're so gorgeous Chris" Darren breathed, not thinking Chris had heard him.
"Don't you mean Super-mega-foxy-awesome-hot?" Chris giggled, attempting to cheer Darren up a bit...
Darren smiled slowly and cautiously and just nodded.
"I'm so sorry" Chris leaned in and closed his eyes, hoping that he wasn't going to be rejected or hated for it, he pressed his lips against Darren's, taking in the subtle warmth and softness of them.
Darren's eyes widened with the shock but he soon closed them once he'd realised what was happening, he opened his lips slightly and returned the kiss, just to let him know that he was serious and did mean everything that had been said.
He pulled away suddenly "S-s-sorry, I can't do this. I can't. You tell me that you love me but you can't be with me, and then you kiss me? What am I supposed to think? That we're just going to have some fling? And then you throw me out into the rain? I can't Chris. I just can't. Don't make this worse than it already is."
Darren turned away.
Chris looked shocked and hurt and he slowly put his hand up to his mouth "I'm so sorry, I-I-I just don't know what came over me... I'm so sorry, this is hard for me to Darren, don't make it worse. I kissed you because I wanted to, not because I had to. That was our first kiss which wasn't filmed and it was amazing, but I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have kissed you."
Chris quickly stood up and gathered his stuff and practically ran out of the door, leaving Darren sitting on the sofa where he was left.
He couldn't move. It was like his entire world had just crashed down around him and he could only think about one thing, he'd just kissed the guy that he loved.