Chapter 2

I shake my head to clear my thoughts then I reply just as soft "Okay, come on in Comrade". He smirks and then I move aside and we slowly walk into my dorm. My dorm isn't much of anything since we have returned for our run away mission. I just have a desk with a laptop on it and a picture of Lissa and me from last years Halloween and some magazines that Lissa gave me. Then next to my desk I have my bed, dresser, closet, mini fridge and a small one person bathroom. (picture on profile)

He sits down in my chair by the desk and I sit crisscross on my bed looking up at him. He seems to be sweating about something. He is fidgeting and looks like he would rather be pacing my room. He is looking at his fingers as he twiddles his thumbs I have never seen Dimitri this unstable before. Then he looks up at me, I can see that this conversation is about to get serious. As I look into his eyes it looks like he is having an internal battle about something.

He then starts to speak still barely above a whisper. "Roza, I am sorry that I haven't been around at all since we have been back…. I know you think that I have been avoiding you and truth is….. I have been but not for the reasons that you think." I stare at him for a moment. It is as if he thinks that I am going to burst out at any moment and yell at him but I hold my tongue and let him finish.

Once he realized I wasn't going to comment he goes back to staring at him hands. He doesn't speak like something is holding him back, so I take the initiative, "Dimitri, what is it, why have you been avoiding me if it isn't about your disappointment in me about what happened in Spokane with Mason and all of us." At that comment he looks up at me with all the love in his eyes and my stomach starts to flop. He then gets up off the chair and slides down onto my bed right in front of me. "Roza, I am not disappointed in you, Roza I came her to tell you that …. I …." he whispers to me softly but stops so abruptly I feel like I can't take it any more. I want to just shake him and say "Just spit it out already!" but I choose not to and stay calm and whisper to him just as softly as him previously, "You what Dimitri".

"Roza, I love you and when you disappeared with Christian to go save Mason, Mia, and Eddie I was so worried I didn't know if I would ever see you again. But when we all found you, when I found you….. It broke my heart to see you there with Mason in your arms. You looked so fragile. At that moment I realized that I can't live with out you no matter what. I love you Roza with all my heart. Я тебя люблю… I love you" He reached out to my cheek and caresses it. "Don't cry Roza please" I didn't even realize that I had started to cry. "Dimitri I'm not sad, I'm happy, I thought you were ignoring me and avoiding me for so many other reasons but all you wanted was to work out your feelings for me. I love you to Dimitri with all my heart."

The next thing that I knew he was softly laying me on my back onto my bed and kissing me passionately while his hands as well as mine roamed all off each others bodies. While we were kissing and touching each other it was as if to imprint our bodies into each others minds, Dimitri was whispering sweet words of Russian into my ear. We then started to slowly take off each others clothes. My shirt then his. His pants then mine. He then moved onto my bra while I to his boxer briefs and damn did he look sexy in those. When all that was left was my thong I slowly took those off in between kisses. When we were both naked laying on my bed still passionately kissing he pulled back from the kiss and looked into my eyes. "May I make love to you Roza, can I show you how much I want to be with you now and forever" he says breathing hard but sounding so sexy. "Yes Dimitri" that is all it took were those words out of my mouth for him make our bodies as one.

After making love with Dimitri I started to feel guilty because just before he showed up I was going to try to talk him into going with Tasha's offer. So that we could both be happy, but that isn't how it turn out at all. I also felt guilty because of Adrian. As I lie in Dimitri's arms, my head lying just over his heart, a tear disobeys me and starts to slowly fall. Dimitri notices and his face turns into a face of concern at he tilts my head up and kisses my lips softly and says "What is wrong Roza? What did I do wrong? Did I hurt you?"

I slowly shake my head and say "No nothing like that, I am hurting someone else by being here in your arms." Dimitri ponders that for a moment or two then says softly " Mason would like want you to be happy Roza." I look at him for a moment scared of what I am going to say next. "Dimitri…." but I am too scared to finish I slowly get out of his arms and wrap a blanket around my body and go into the bathroom before he can catch me. While I am in my bathroom I sit on the toilet seat and think about what I am about to say, because I know that it is going to hurt him deeply. I just hope that he can understand.

I got off the toilet seat and walked over to the door to open it. When I do Dimitri is already dressed and sitting back on my bed looking at me as I come out of the bathroom. When he is able to register the look on my confused and hurt face he rushes to my side. "Roza what is it? What is wrong?……is it Lissa? Did I say something wrong? Roza please just talk to me!" he says voice full of concern and worry.

I turn to him fully "Dimitri you should sit down for a second." He walks back over to my bed tugging me along with him but I don't sit, he does. "Dimitri, I am not hurting Mason by being in your arms. You are right Mason would want me to move on and be happy. I am hurting Adrian. You see, this past month and a half of you not talking to me, I tried to live life normally until we could talk, but I am starting to fall in love with him" "What!!" Dimitri yells, "Please Dimitri let me explain please." I state softly barely above a whisper, but it is to late, he is already out of my dorm storming down the hall.

I walk over to my room door and slam the door and lock it. Then I sprint over to my bed and slam my face into my pillow. I cry for what seems like days not hours. After only two hours of tears constantly flowing they slowly start to fade and a dream over takes me.

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