Track 2 – Somewhere I Belong

Summary – Xemnas centric. A couple months after Xemnas becomes a Nobody. Some Xemnas x Zexion.

Warnings – None really. Spoilers maybe.

AN –

::ADRESSING THE ENTIRE STORY:: I got this idea after writing a oneshot Akuroku songfic to Don't Stay. Some of you may have read it before I took it down to work on compiling all the Meteora songs into one chaptered fic.
::ADDRESSING THIS CHAPTER:: Originally this was a Xemnas x Saix fic. But I changed it cuz I wanted an original 6 boy. Saix just barely missed :P

I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I live it all out to find, but I'm not the only person wit these things in mind
Inside of me
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck hollow and alone
And the fault is my own and the fault is my own

Three months, one week, four days and two hours later, after I had allowed the heartless to invade my lab, I sit alone and wonder what else there is that I am capable of doing. I can create heartless. I can summon white creatures that do my bidding without a second thought.. I have yet to think of a name for them. But I can not talk. The white creatures do not understand and the heartless simply do not care or understand, or both. I want someone who can understand.

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real

I wonder whatever happened to Ienzo, my most faithful assistant. Did the heartless- Yes, I know they did. Perhaps…

I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long.
Erase all the pain 'til its gone

I begin my search. The area where I have been residing is not glorious and I am happy for an excuse to leave. I say 'happy' because it is what I would be feeling if it was possible for me to feel.

I wanna heal I wanna feel like I'm close to something real.
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

It has been another week, and still I can not find my beloved Ienzo. Perhaps his heart was too weak? No, I do not think that.

I collapse onto a barstool and order whiskey without looking up. I allow my silver-almost-white hair to cascade down and cover my emotionless face. I only wish I could feel the sorrow I know I have.

And I got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
I was confused

"Xehenort?"

I laugh a little and look up, ready to tell whomever that they are mistaken, but the words on the tip of my tongue stop when my head finally tilts up.

"I-Ienzo?"

Look at everywhere only to find that
It is not the way I had imagined it all in my mind

He had cut his hair in the back and a dyed purple piece fell in front of one grey eye. The heartless had gotten to him after all.

"I'm not Ienzo anymore. The last experiment failed. Elaeus is dead! Even… I don't know what happened to him. Braig and Dalin disappeared together when I was regaining consciousness and you.. You disappeared, leaving me when I needed you. I needed you because I'm numb; I can't feel anything but anger." Ienzo, no, this man who looked like me beloved Ienzo, cried out, trying to reach me.

I wish I could have felt the dispair, but I only felt anger surge through my entire body. Anger towards the failed experiment, Eleaus for dying, Braig and Dalin for leaving Ienzo alone, Ienzo for losing his heart and myself for letting it all happen.

So what am I
What do I have but negativity
Cuz i cant trust no one by the way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain
I'm hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own

I stand gracefully, anger surging through me and I grab his face between my heated hands. My body is shaking and I can feel the anger. I know he can not feel my anger, and I know he does not have any towards anything right now. I glare at him before I pull him close and press my lips against his.

His eyes widen and he gasps in shock, perhaps. I do not know what he feels, or even if he can feel at all. This is my final experiment as Xehenort.

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else
Until my wounds are healed

"I am Xemnas now." I tell him quietly, accepting the fact that I can not feel anything except anger.

"I am Zexion now." He answers me; my test subject has failed and I could not be happier, if I could feel that is.

"We are Nobody's."

I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today

We walk out of that nameless bar and I conjure a portal to the darkness. It no longer scares me, this endless darkness. Now that I have my first follower, who would search for Even, Braig and Dalin.

I want to heal

The darkness was not dark. The portal made it look dark, but when we arrive the city of darkness is surprisingly bright and white. And although there are no people, except Zexion by my side, I decide I like this place and I will call it home.

I want to feel like I'm
Somewhere I belong

-FiN-

AN – I know it's way different than in the game. I know Laxeaus (or w/e) didn't die when they were created. And I know it's just a tad (sarcasm people) different than how they really because Nobody's.

Braig -- Xigbar Elaeus -- Laxeaus Xehenort -- Xemnas

Dalin -- Xaldin Ienzo -- Zexion Even -- Vexen

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aaia