CHAPTER 2
Contemplation
That night after I left her to her dreams, I wished desperately that I could leave reality and become unconscious and not have the weight of my thoughts crushing me. I wanted to be able to dream, and only of her. I sat at the grand piano and gazed out the huge glass pane that exposed the vast forest that our house was entrenched in.
Alice, Jasper, Rosalie and Emmett were all out for the night, they went hunting together. Esme was arranging flowers in the kitchen, Poor boy, if only there was a simple solution to all this, I'm so happy he has finally found someone. I tuned her out, and began to play a piece that I had written for Bella. It calmed me in an instant, and I forced myself not to read the mind that was happy I had found love, but in a human. They were so accepting of the fact, and I had to admit that it helped a little.
I stopped; she had put her hand on my shoulder and smiled down at me. You'll do the right thing. How did she have such confidence in me? Why couldn't anyone but myself realize the danger that was displayed before me?
I slumped, "I don't know what to do." I grimaced at the keys. "The bottom line is that you love her, what would you be doing if you were human?" I didn't have to answer because the rest of her thoughts answered the question. I shook my head, she couldn't be serious. How could she be? I would've done what she was thinking already if I were human as well, and the way her thoughts threw all complications out the window made me believe that it was possible and I could have what I wanted. I began to plan in my head. Suddenly the floor flung open, pulling a gush of air in our direction. The pixie like girl bounced towards me with a smile on her face. She sat beside me and put her arm over my shoulder. I looked at her with unease. Alice knew exactly what I was planning in my head, and oddly it looked even better in her thoughts than in mine.
"What is she going to say?" I asked, and she closed her eyes in concentration. As soon as she opened her lids I didn't have to question her. My face went blank and she saw the sign of disappointment plastered to it, and so did Esme. "The future changes so rapidly Edward," She nudged me in the side, "give it a shot".
I had to try and they were right, it's what I wanted, and maybe after explaining things to Bella it would be what she would want too. I stood up staring at the faces smiling at me, not wanted to hear the thoughts that exchanged from their minds to mine. I ran out the door as fast I could to the waterfall to find a way to make my intentions clear. How would I declare my undeniable love to Bella without scaring her? The face in Alice's thoughts shot shivers down my spine. I knew that if I were asleep right now, that face would have been in my dreams, and I was once again grateful that I couldn't sleep, that I wouldn't have to endure the nightmares that surely would have been raging my dreams.