Chapter 2: Her

"Rin, it's your turn now", I hear my name being called. I wonder why Tsunade wants to talk to me. All I have been thinking about the way Kakashi looked when we met for the first time in 11 years. But, now I have to clear my mind for Lady Tsunade. The door is opening and I see Kakashi coming out. Oh God!!! Please stop looking at me like that. He has a painful expression yet interrogative with a hint of happiness.

"Rin!" and soon enough I find myself filing into the room.

"See you Rin", Kakashi says softly.

"Goodbye" I reply

I shut the door. There is something I want to ask her.

"So, I think we both can agree that was actually interesting. I want to know why you kept from him. The way he makes it sound, you guys were very close" Tsunade said. Great, now she wants to know about our past. Well, it's this simple: We were friends, well I always cared about him, I saw myself as a burden so I faked my death on a mission when an assassin had thought he killed me. After that I just hid from him. Well I can't tell her all of that so….

"We were really good friends. Like brother and sister. I thought I was a burden to him."

"But why did you think that?" she pressed on.

Now she's really making me mad.

"Lady Tsunade, have heard the story of our teammate, Obito's death?" I asked.

"Well- no" she said a little confused.

"Well, listen to it, have someone tell you, and then you can ask me that. But here's something I want you to know about me: I don't like people digging up information from my past" I said as gently as I could.

"Rin, I'm only trying to help you" she explained. Yes but I don't need help.

"Okay well I have to go. Danzou sensei needs me to heal something up."

"Oh. Rin, Kakashi will be coming to your house for his healing" the old woman said.

"Fine" I settled.

Fine, let him come. I can't keep hiding forever. I'll just have to endure the pain of looking in eyes and seeing how hurt he is.

Twenty minutes later…

I had to get quickly get home. So, now I'm sweating. I'll just have to take a shower before Danzou, Kakashi, and Chiyo come over. As I feel the warm water sprinkle to my back, I get bad memories of the past. I remember the day very clearly, the day I hurt Kakashi. We were finally in Anbu. We were tracking down an assassin with an order to dispose of him. We finally had. I felt a sudden tension around my neck. It was the assassin!! He got me.

"Rin!!" I heard Kakashi panic. Oh no, I'd thought. Now I've ruined his strategy. I'm always such a burden to him. I don't deserve to have his protection. I could only see black by then. 10 minutes later. I awoke to see the assassin hovering above me. He had me tied up to a pole.

"Oh, so you're awake", He said happily.

"Good, 'cause now I get to have some fun with you", He continued.

Kakashi, I thought, I'm sorry I failed you. This is why He'll never love me.

What should I do? I can't just depend on Kakashi forever. God, I'm such a burden to him.

"Don't get to comfortable", the assassin said.

All of the sudden I heard a sound, it sounded like someone was choking. I look up to see Kakashi's muscular arms positioning his head into a headlock. He's trying to choke him to death. Great, he had to come and save me. He must be angry at me.

"You really thought I'd let you take her?!!" He growled to the assassin.

"She's my partner, I made a promise that I would take care of her! I will gladly protect her with my life", He said madly.

As soon as he felt the assassin's heart stop, he dropped his hands from the guy and ran to me.

"RIN! Are you okay? Did he touch you did he hurt you?!!" He asked. Oh god, I can't say anything, cause if I do, I'll cry!

"Kakashi I- I shouldn't have- I'm so sorry I'm such a BURDEN!!" I sobbed. Great, just as I didn't want to, I started crying!!

I feel warmth around my torso. Oh my god, he's hugging me! I also feel his head on top of mine.

"Rin, you have never been a burden to me. Do you know how much I care for you? Don't ever feel you have to live up to anything for me" he said warmly.

"Well, we've done our job. Should we just leave him for the crows?" I asked.

"No, something could go wrong. I don't even know if I killed him for sure" he said. I couldn't help but look at his whole body. God! Why couldn't I be crazy for him as I was as a kid? But my flashback was over because of a faint knock on the door.

Well back to real world now.

"Rin, can you please let us in?" It was Chiyo. Oh and Danzou.

I just stood there. My feet can't find the strength to move.

"Rin, are you upset because you can't hide anymore? Come on, It wasn't even a big secret!" Chiyo said.

"Rin, please open up. I'm sorry about my outburst. I didn't have a right to say it. I have no idea how you're feeling, what you've been through, or what you're going through now" she said calmly.

"Ok, Yes I'm coming" I said.

I opened the door. WHAT? It's not Danzou and Chiyo, its KAKASHI and Chiyo!

"Chiyo I thought Danzou needed to come for healing too" I told her. I'm so confused.

"Oh, he said you didn't have to worry. He didn't want to wear you out. He said he wants you to come to supper with him tonight at 10:00. Oh, and wear a kimono. It's going to be a nice dinner simply between sensei and student."

Just as she said that, Kakashi looked up at Chiyo with a worried face, yet impatient.

"If you ask me, it looks like he wants more than sensei and student. You do know he's probably trying to make you his, right?" She continued.

"Yes" I said carelessly.

"Well, what are you going to do?" my pretty friend asked impatiently and worried.

"What I always do. I'll be Naive" I said.

Danzou had always tried to win my heart, but he just can't accept that wasn't his. Though he's possessive very much and claims its cause he has fatherly care for me.

"That will only work for so long, Rin" She said.

"I know."

"Alright Kakashi senpai, please take of your shirt" I said softly.

"Gladly" he replied.

"Rin, I'd love to stick around, but I have to go home" Chiyo said hurrying out the door. Damn it, right before I could stop her.

No, I can't be alone with him.

It's 4:30! Who knows how long he'll want to stay. My thoughts were interrupted by his beautiful voice.

"Could you please at least speak to me?" he asked while getting on my couch. No, more like he was begging for my attention.

"I don't know if I can" I croaked.

"Rin, please don't shut me out" he pleaded. "And do you have to go to dinner with him? Can you please, just stay here and talk with me?"

I started healing his wound. I really didn't know what to say.

"Well Danzou doesn't like being refused on such short notice" I said softly.

"Screw him!! You spent nearly all your life with him! I just need to know why? Why did you do this to me? I promise I'll only need you to cancel tonight and then he can have as many dinners without my interfering" He pleaded. "Please?"

Oh god, I can't do this anymore. I can't do this to him. I can't stand to see the hurt and pain on his face, his beautiful, angelic face. Jesus, I so can't start having feelings for him again!

"I'll make a deal with you, Instead, come back tomorrow" I said. I still need some time to think about what I'll say to him.

"No, not good enough!!" he said desperately.

"Tonight!! After I get home from dinner!!" I found myself saying desperately. I needed to see him. I really need to feel his arms around me and comfort. I remembered how it felt when he hugged me that day. I felt like his arms were cleansing my soul.

"Yes. Come home at 12:00. Good, yes, I'll be here." When he said that, I felt a chance of hope. I wanted him to tell me he loved me. All of the sudden, I feel a warm, soft hand grab my wrist and lead it back down to what's left of his scar. Funny, I just now realized that while we were talking I was still healing him. Great and now I want him to love me! I can't develop love for him again. He probably loves someone else.

"Can you please finish healing me? I would like to see your body hit the bed afterwards." Oh my GOD. He notices my body. Probably for its imperfections.

"Yes. Okay, sorry about that." It's all I could say. I didn't want to say, you like my body eh? I'm turning into a major bimbo. As soon as my palm touched his muscles, he shivered trying to breathe slowly. I noticed I too was trying to keep my cool. When I touched his skin I felt my face heat up and I was starting to shiver. But I still kept my Chakra in control.

"Relax Rin. It's just a scar. Sorry if it looks horrible to you. I'm not going to anyone else though. I want and need this time with you" He said softly.

"It's not the scar. I just couldn't help but notice how much you devote yourself to all this. I know this is weird but, you're beautiful. You're so lucky. I'm not like you… I'm not beautiful. I wanted to say more but I couldn't. I couldn't say anything else because the minute I finished the sentence, his lips were on mine. I hadn't even noticed that he took off his mask. His kiss grew deeper. His hands crushed my whole body to his. He wouldn't let me go. His lips would not stop crushing on mine. It was like he was desperate. Then, he let go. I didn't want him to stop. I don't care if I ran out of air. I just felt I needed him this way. His lips went down to touch my neck, then up to my cheek, and finally my eyes, both of them. He was still lying on my couch while I was bending over him. We just stared at each other.

"Don't ever saying anything like that ever again or I'll take it seriously like I just did. When you say something like that, it hurts me. Yet, it makes me want you more" He said breathlessly.

He actually cared for me. Does this mean he loves?

Do you love him?

You've started developing the feelings for him again. You didn't want him to stop kissing you.

Do you love him?

Do I? Yes, I think I do.

"So, I'll see you at 12. We both should get some rest. We've got a long night" He said.

"Yes. Goodnight."

He got his shirt and vest on, then came and kissed on the neck, lips, and forehead before he pulled up his mask.

"See you soon" he waved goodbye.

As soon as I heard the door shut, I plopped right on my couch.

He cares for me! He wants me! Is that the same as loving me?

I promise to ask him that tonight.

Maybe I can be with him like I dreamed as a teen.