Erin followed Jay into the break room and stoppped him. She looked around to make sure no one was there.

"You are a dad?" Jay nodded his head swiftly then picked up a coffee cup. Erin threw her head back in disbelief.

"I am. He's fourteen. He lives with me. That reminds me Erin your daughter is beautiful."

"Thank you. Jay you still should have told me."

"Yeah. I realize what a jerk I was. Sorry. I was going to tell you but you wanted to go home so I figured I'd tell you tomorrow. Look Erin last night was amazing." Jay was like a puppy in love, his eyes were sparkling.

"Jay I'm not looking for anything. I don't want a relationship, she's only five. I don't want her to get confused if you leave then come back. Jay I don't want to put her through that. I haven't dated anyone sin-" Jay kissed her then Erin kissed him back.

"Since her dad left you. Look Erin.
I'm not him, I'm not what tried to hurt you. I won't hurt you or your daughter."

"Jay I." Erin couldn't get out any words, she never met a man willing to take care of her and her daughter. She smiled but got rid of it quickly. She wanted to let someone in but she isn't sure if that's the one to let in.

She looked up at his eyes and smiled. "Erin, it's okay. You don't need to be sorry for what happened. Whatever happened you are still here and that's what matters."

"Jay we are nothing just friends." Jay smiled and nodded his head then walked out of the break room. He hasn't dated anyone in well over four years not after his last girlfriend went wrong, they would fight every night. Screaming waking up his son. That pushed Jay to do one thing. Drink. In that he became an alcoholic. Drinking everyday not going to work, missing his son's games.

Shane caught his eye, and made him think twice before he did it again. His mom pushed him to get help, and here he was. the same Jay Alexander Halstead before the drinking.

Erin was sixteen when she met a guy, love was just a tiny part of it. It was more of the drinking and drugs talking. She was addicted to heroine, and drinking vodka. She couldn't stop, until one morning she found out she was pregnant.. sixteen years old. She stopped. No one cares about her, no one did anything until she met Hank who told her she could only stay there if she kept the baby, and then gave it for adoption. That she did. He got her back to normal but now she's here and everything is falling apart.

"Hey Dad, can I-"

"Nope." Jay interrupted.

"Can I-" Jay laughed

"No no and no. You are grounded."

"What I did wasn't that bad though.. gosh." Shane rolled his eyes

"Shane Joshua Halstead, I don't care if it wasn't that bad. You still got a detention." Kevin laughed

"What did he do?" Adam asked

"Oh he fell asleep in class like an idiot, because he was up all night playing the new call of duty with Jordan." Kevin laughed

"Hey hey hey. We were only up till 3..."

Shane walked to the break room and saw Alex sitting there playing on her iPad. Shane smiled any day next to her.

"Hey Alex, whatcha playing?"

"I'm playing jelly splash. Mommy let me play it. Wanna play with me? I have no friends. All of them are really mean, I only have one friend. His name is Finn. He's really nice and funny."

"Oh Alex I'm sorry everyone is mean. Don't worry kid I've been there too. I have bullies too. They are mean. Except now I hang out with Jordan. But anyway kid do you play any sports?"

Alex laughed then smiled. "Yeah I. Play Soccer and Softball. Soon I'll play volleyball."

"That's cool. I play basketball and baseball sometimes."

"Mommy, where is Aunt Nadia?" Alex shouted as she ran into the bullpen. Erin looked down at her daughter then looked up at Antonio who was giving her a sad look.

"I don't know baby. Why don't you go play with Shane and Jordan. Mommy will get you some food." Alex nodded her head then ran back into the room..

Erin walked by Dawson's desk and leaned over. "Tony what's wrong?"

"We can't find her."

Erin's smile went away and she looked at her daughter who was laughing dancing to Let it Go from Frozen.

"We need to find her for that little girl." Erin pointed to her daughter.

"I'm on. I'll have Jin find out. Kevin can you start looking? Also I saw the way he looked at you Erin." Antonio smiled

"Nothing is gonna happen. We are just friends." He laughed

"Just friends who kiss right?"

"W-" Erin just laughed then walked to her desk and held her phone in her hand.

"Hey Nadia, it's me. I just want you to call me when you get this. Please call me back. Alex is wondering where you are at. I am too. Please." Erin's voice cracked.

"Grandpa." Daniel said running into the bullpen.

"Danny, what are you doing here?"

"Nadia brought me. I called her because I wanted to come see Aunt Erin and Mom left. I don't know where she went."

"Nadia." Erin said hugging her best friend.

"Whoa what do you think happened to me?"

"Nothing. You didn't answer your phone. We all got worried your car wouldn't let us track you."

Nadia nodded her head as she saw Alex. "Nannie." Alex shouted Alex engulfed her in a hug. "I missed you."

"I missed you too. Erin who's the new guy?" Nadia smirked

Jay stood up and smiled at the two women. "This is my partner Jay Halstead. Jay this is my best friend Nadia.."

"Hey Nadia." He shook her hand then sat down.

"Grandpa, she's been going ballistic. She hasn't eaten or drank anything. I don't even think she's gotten any sleep since he died. I'm worried. She hasn't been home either."

"Danny, I will find your mom. You need to relax and stop worrying about it."

"I can't though. How do I? Dad is freaking dead. Mom is awol. I just want everything to be okay."

"Look kid. I'm gonna tell you the same thing I told your mom. You need to stay strong for yourself. I don't know what's wrong with your mom."

Daniel nodded his head. "It's been freaking five months since he died. I still think he's going to walk in those two doors and hug me tight. It's not going to happen."

"That's how I felt when your grandma died kid. I would walk into the house and look around for her. Wait and see if she'll come hug me. Tell me how her day was. That first month she was gone. I never went home. I went to a bar stayed there all night then went to work drunk. You know who pulled me out? Erin. She pushed me to get better because of you. She told me 'You have a grandson now. You can't do this. Camille doesn't deserve this.' I just want you to know. Everything will be fine. I'll get your mom back. You need to worry about school.. your mom loves you. She doesn't know how to handle this. I don't either."

Daniel nodded his head then he walked out of the office. "Thank you Grandpa. You deserve happiness. Oh and I called Benson back for you. She would love to come out and have a drink or dinner.."

"You rascal. Thanks kid."

Jay looked over at the break room where his son and his best friend was sitting playing with Alex.

"Shane come on kid. We gotta go. Shifts over." Shane nodded his head then walked out.

"Bye Alex. I'll see you soon."

"Mommy can I still stay at Grandpa's?"

When Erin wasn't paying attention. Jay slipped a note into her purse. Erin smiled as Jay walked out.

Shane put his jacket on then his big furry fluffy hat. "That hat looks ugly on you son." Jay said laughing

"Oh shut up. No one cares.. besides I saw you slip that note into Erin's purse..."

Erin blushed then Jay smiled. "Shut it."

Erin looked into her purse and pulled out the note.

"Dear Erin,
I thought it would just be better writing a note. I'm sorry I didn't tell you anything about my son. I didn't know how. Now you know. If you want you can call me and we can go out for a beer tonight. Shane is out with Jordan, and Daniel. I know Alex was going to Hank's. anyway just call me. My number is 678 456 7891. Last night was fun."

Erin smiled reading the note. "Jay, I'll go. How about 8?" Jay turned around and nodded his head.

"I'd love that. I'll see you at Molly's."

Jay walked away and drove to his house and started pulling out all his nice shirts. "Dad, this one." Shane said holding up his nice shirt.

Jay frowned. "This shirt kid. Was the one I wore when I fell in love with your mom. I miss her like crazy."

"Me too dad. It's been 8 years... that's crazy." Jay nodded his head.

"You should wear it tonight. Maybe it'll bring you good luck. Finally.. You deserve it. Just wear it.
For me. "

Jay smiled then put on the blue polo. He looked in the mirror and fixed the collar. He put his nice watch on. After he walked into the kitchen. "You look nice Dad. Alright I'm going to Jordan's. I'll see you tomorrow."

"Hey Son, be careful. It's dangerous out there."

"I know Dad. Don't worry. You don't have too. I'm okay. I'll be home tomorrow." Jordan knocked on the door.

Shane grabbed his bag then ran out the door and started riding his bike with his best friend.

"We should invite Daniel. He just lost his dad. It's the least we can do."

"Jordan you know." Jordan nodded his head

"I know Shane but he deserves to have some friends. It can be a fresh new start. We have our dads. You have yours but I have Kevin."

"Yeah I know. Alright text him." Two guys with hoddies stopped them.

"Jordan.." Shane spat

"What?"

"Look we don't want to cause any trouble. Just let us go. We are fifteen and our dads are cops who can drop you like a fly in two seconds. I wouldn't mess with us." Jordan added grabbing the knife from his back pocket. Jordan shot Shane a look then nodded

"We just want your money. That's all." Daniel stood behind them.

"If you wanna mess with them. You better kill me first. I'd advise you to step back. Do you know who my grandpa is?"

"Hank Voight. That's who he is." Daniel held up a knife and walked next to Jordan.

"Thanks dude." Daniel nodded his head.

Jordan got off his bike then knee kicked one of the guys, but the other punched him. Shane punched him then kicked him in the balls.

Daniel took the knife and put it in their faces. "You really wanna mess with us? Go ahead." One of them got up and punched them all.

"Ow. Shit. My eye. My dad is gonna be pissed."

"Erin..." Jay said as she walked into the bar wearing a nice dress.

"Hey. I didn't know if this was too dressy but who cares. It's a night away from Alex."

"How many times does she stay with Hank?" Erin grabbed the beer and drank.

"Three times a week when I'm busy with a case. Nadia usually helps me with her school and all. I'm thankful for them two. Antonio and Kevin too. They stepped up after her dad went to jail. Helped me get better for my girl. I really am."

"You don't have to talk about it." Erin nodded her head

"It's not something I'm ashamed of. I dated a drunk he started getting high off of these grade A drugs. I took up for him. Helped him get it. It was the day Alex was born. I was fighting with him. Telling him his daughter needed a real father someone who would protect her. He wouldn't listen. He slapped me then shoved me to the ground. I almost lost my baby girl because of a shitty man. Kim and Sean got the call and immediately called Hank. Hank put the cuffs on him and I was rushed to the hospital. They had to do a c section, after she was born. Hank broke the news that he went to jail. I wasn't a great mom at first. Nadia Kim Adam and Tony stepped up and watched her while I was getting high drunk. Anything i had to do to erase the memories. She saved my life. Tony helped me realize that I needed to get better.."

"I'm sorry Erin. Shane saved my life."

"Now Jay you don't have to talk..."

"No it's fine. You told yours it's only fair if I tell mine. It was four years ago. I met this woman. I thought was my soulmate. We would fight every night over the stupidest shit. It led me to drink where I would miss his football games, not go to work, just lay on the couch and watch my kid grow up in front of me. One day he came home and looked me in the eyes and said. 'Daddy I miss the old you. The one where you would take me to the cubs games and watch my football games. I don't like Amy. She makes you get really mad and hurt me. I love you daddy. I miss mommy. I miss the way she made you smile when you used to love me. Now you love the beer.' I shook my head then walked straight into the church. Straight into a rehab. My son stayed with his grandma, until I could get better. And I met Tony working undercover.. That's how I got into Intelligence.. He invited me out to Molly's last night. I wasn't expecting someone like you there. I'm glad I went. Shane was wanting me to go, and I wanted to stay home.." Jay smiled

"I think I met my soulmate." Jay mumbled to himself.

"Jordan, what do we do? Hey look just let us go?" the three kids were in a warehouse tied up, next to each other.

"Shit." Shane mumbled as he banged his head against the wall.

"Daniel, can you get your grandpa on the phone?" Shane asked

"I don't know. I need to reach it. Can you try to grab it?"
Shane nodded his head and grabbed the phone out of his pocket.

"Hey Grandpa, ping my phone. Shane Jordan and I were kidnapped. Just I need an ambulance. Shane's head is bad."

"Daniel what the hell happened?"

"They were trying to rob us. We were on our way to Jordan's house. I guess they wanted to kidnap us too. Just hurry up."

"Daniel stay on the phone."

"Okay. Just call someone. This fucking zip ties hurt." Hank looked back at Alex who was lying on the couch watching tv on her iPad.

"Grandpa, I feel yucky." Alex said running towards him.

Hank bent down and felt her forehead. "Oh baby you are sick. You have fever. Daniel I'm calling Jin and Al."

"I'm hanging up."

Hank hung up the phone then texted Erin. "Hey Erin Alex has fever. I'm gonna give her some medicine."

Erin heard her phone ding. She looked down and saw the text.

"Hank, I'm coming home."

"No. you don't need too. She's fine."

Hank stopped texting then texted Al the address.

"Tony, get Kevin and Adam. We have to go get the boys. They are in trouble."

"What do you mean Al? They are in trouble."

"Just go to the place. We are getting the boys back."

Shane tugged on the zip tie then took off his shirt and put it against his head.

"CHICAGO PD!" They all heard. Shane looked at the door which was being kicked in by Kevin.

"Grandpa I don't want this yucky medicine."

"Baby girl, you gotta take it. Or you are gonna be more sick."

"No. No." Alex shouted

"Look Jay, I gotta go. I don't want Alex to think I'm bailing on her."

"Erin she's not gonna think that. You are an amazing mother. I promise. Just one more drink."

Hank picked up his granddaughter and put her in the car. "Alex I gotta take you to the hospital." Alex started crying then she fell back asleep.

"Kevin, I I need to call my dad."

"Shane, wait till you get to the hospital. You have a pretty bad gash."

"Shit. My stomach hurts like hell Big bro." Jordan said. Kevin lifted up his shirt then revealed a big gash from a knife cut.

The three boys were transported to the hospital.

Shane sat up in his bed and looked around. He noticed a doctor who looked just like his dad.

"Shane Halstead, I'm Dr. Halstead."

"You have the same last name as me. Am I suddenly dreaming?" Shane laughed at himself.

"No you aren't."

"Is your mom or dad here?" Shane shook his head

"No. They aren't." Shane rolled his eyes then looked over at the door as he noticed his dad coming in.

"Dad!" Shane shouted.

Jay looked over at his son then brother who was standing in front of them. "Will Halstead, get out my son's room. Now. I want another doctor."

"Jay stop being selfish and let me look at your son's head. Mom wouldn't want this fighting." Jay rolled his eyes

"Mom wouldn't want you acting like a fucking asshole either? Now I want another doctor. One I'm not related to. Shane I'm gonna help you."

"Dad just let him help me. I don't care."

Will walked closer to his nephew and looked at the cut. "This one is gonna need stitches." Shane scoffed

"Dad I just want to go home."

Erin rushed into the hospital and looked around. "I'm looking for Alexandra Camille Lindsay?" Maggie pointed to the room to the right.

"Oh baby girl. Hank what happened with the boys?" Hank's eyes widened

"I don't know. I have no clue what happened. Daniel told me they were on their way to Kevin's then they were robbed then knocked unconscious."

"Mommy I don't feel good." Alex threw up all over herself.

"Crap. I need a doctor." Hank shouted

Jordan laid in the bed sleeping. Kevin stood outside.

"He's gonna be okay. I promise." Kevin smiled

"Thank you. He's all I have left." Jordan opened his eyes wide open, and looked around the room.

"Kevin, Are Shane and Daniel okay?"

"Yeah."

Jay looked at his older brother then back at his son. "Can I talk to you?" Will nodded his head then walked out the room.

"Look Jay, I was going to tell you I was back. I figured you didn't want me too. But I'm back."

"Will you left, when mom was dying. What to go work? To go party. I know I wasn't an angel. I'm still not but I don't want you around me or my family."

"Jay, I didn't even know you had a son. More or less was still alive."

"I didn't want to tell you. You didn't deserve to know. You will never deserve too. You are my brother and you turned on me."

"We turned on each other when mom died. How about a fresh start?" Jay laughed then rolled his eyes.

"How about a no. I'm being a father."

"Mommy where is my daddy?"

"He's in a different state baby girl." Erin looked at Hank disappointed in herself. She burst into tears.

"Erin, come see. Tony can you watch Alex?" Tony walked in and Erin walked out.

"Erin what's wrong?"

"I don't know Hank. I can't handle lying to her. Her dad is in jail and the best I could say was your dad is in a different state. That's the same thing my mom told me. Hank I can't do motherhood. I don't know what I was thinking keeping her." Erin burst into tears. Hank held her tighter.

"Erin don't say that. That girl is well taken care of. You are the best mother you can be. Don't regret anything you've done. She's gonna ask and one day you are going to need to tell her the truth. I promise Erin she loves you more than anything. She saved your life. Please don't do anything stupid."

Jay looked back at Erin. "Son. I'm gonna go see her." Shane nodded his head
"Dad I'm fine. Go see her." Jay walked out and ran towards Erin.

"Erin, what's wrong?" Erin put her hand on her head and looked around.

"Jay I don't know what to do. She just asked me who her dad was. I lied. I couldn't say it to her face. I'm sorry I'm such a bad mom."

"Erin, don't say that. You are an amazing mom. I know we aren't dating but I'm here for you, and I'm not going anywhere."

In that moment Erin knew something. Maybe not today or tomorrow or a week from now. But one day she thought one day they will date. Maybe marry. She knew he was the one she wanted raising her baby girl, who would always be there for her.

Someone who wanted to protect her. She never had someone like that.

"How did I get so lucky to meet someone like you?" Erin whispered

This took me two weeks to write. I erased it then wrote again. I finally got to this. thanks for reading. I appreciate it.