Okay, so this started out as just one songfic, but as of now, I'm making it into a series of three related fics. And, ironically, it has turned into Gelphie, which I didn't intend but I think it works much better. This is the other part of the song "Look At What I've Done" by Chris Cagle. Let me know what y'all think! And look for the next and last (as of now) installment!
I went into the Emerald City on occasion, painting my skin a cream color and wearing a long cloak. I told myself that it was for groceries and such, but who was I kidding? It was the possibility of seeing her that had eluded me every week for a year.
I saw her out last night
And she was having a good time
She truly did look happy. She took everyone's breath away, as always. She was too far away to notice me and she wouldn't have had she looked in my direction anyhow. She was smiling, that smile that always seemed to light up a room.
That girl, it looks like she's doing fine
But then I saw a man walk up and take her by the hand
And I, oh God, I almost died
That was something that I hadn't been expecting. It took all I could not to blow my cover. I was in shock. I was furious. But then it melted away; it was partly my fault. After all, I had never told her how I felt about her. How much that I loved her. How could I have expected her not to have a boyfriend?
And then it hit me
She didn't really need me
She had moved on. She was over me and who could blame her? It had been a year. She was entitled to happiness. And let's face it, that happiness would have never been with me.
She's standing tall, she's got it all
Got the world at her heels
This was what Glinda had always wanted. She was a public figure and greatly admired by everyone in Oz. Maybe it was better this way. I could have never given her that kind of lifestyle. She would have spent a life hidden away, being shunned by everyone except the Animals. She would have been miserable. Here, at least, she looked so happy. That's all I wanted for her. And if she was happy, then it lessened the pain that I felt somewhat.
And look at what it's done to me
Look at how it makes me hurt
I missed her terribly. I couldn't deny that. No matter how much I lied to Fiyero and ultimately myself, I couldn't change it. I love her more than anything and it killed me to have to keep this secret. I guess we do some crazy things for the people that we love. But, what I wouldn't give to go back to that fateful day at Kiamo Ko.
If I could go back now, I'd find a way to make it work
Ain't life funny?
Now I'm the one alone
Alone. I hated the way that sounded so final. But it was the truth. I do love Fiyero, but I love her so much more. And it didn't matter who was around me, as long as she wasn't, I was truly alone.
Yeah, look at what I've done to me
She's gone