HAYLEY'S P.O.V
We all woke up the next day and got our stuff together and went to the airport.
We got our flight from Dublin to Franklin and it took hours to get there.
When we finally got to Tennessee, we all got picked up and before we got left off, we all gave each other our hugs and wishes for the months we won't really see each other often. Oh yeah, don't get me wrong, we'll see each other loads, but we still got the hugs.
When I walked into my house, I wanted to surprise my mom. She didn't know I was coming home today.
I poked my head around the corner to see if she was in the living room. The TV was on, so I guessed so.
I silently set my bags down in the hall and silently walked into the living room.
I snuck up behind her on the sofa and gently tapped her shoulder.
She screamed and spun round.
"Hey momma!" I exclaimed happily.
"Hayley baby!" She smiled.
I ran around the sofa and sat down and hugged her. I missed her so much.
"How have you been mom?" I asked.
"Well... Struggling. But alright." She answered wearily.
I shot back and looked at her seriously. "What do you mean by 'struggling'?" I asked, concerned.
She waited, and then sighed.
"Okay... I've kept this from you for far too long." She sighed.
"What are you talking about?" I asked, raising my voice.
"Okay... When you were seven... Do you remember when I made you stay with your nana and grandat for a year?" She asked.
I thought back to the time and nodded slowly.
"Well, there was a reason to why I sent you there." She said.
I stared at her, waiting for an answer.
"I was... Pregnant." She explained sadly.
I felt my eyes widen and my jaw drop as she said it.
"Pregnant..." I repeated.
She nodded in reply.
"And... What happened to the baby? Was it a boy or a girl? Where are they now?" I kept asking questions.
"It was a little girl. I named her Shannon. And... She's been staying with her father since she was 3." My mother explained.
"What? ! Why? What age is she now? !" I almost yelled.
"She's fourteen now. I didn't want to tell you because I was afraid she would distract you from your singing, and you would worry about her and she would worry about you and everything would become just a huge mess." She explained slowly and stressfully.
"So, you kept her from me, her whole life?" I asked, feeling hurt.
My mother nodded as an answer.
I ground my teeth. "Does she even know... She has a sister?" I asked, staying calm.
"... No..." Mom replied, hesitating.
I set my mind and got up and went to get my car keys.
"Where are you going?" Mom asked, terrified.
"I'm going to dads." I mumbled angrily.
I slammed the front door behind me in frustration. Just home and it's already crap!
How could my own parents keep a sister from me? ! What good does it do? ! UGH!
I got into my car and started the drive to my dad's house.
When I got there, I knocked on the door so hard that it cracked my knuckle.
My little sister is in this house. And I can't wait to prove that I'm right.
My dad answered the door, a shocked look taking over his face.
"Hayley..."
"Dad. Hi." I fake smiled.
"What are you foing here?" He asked.
"Oh, well, funny story. I want to see my sister." I said.
"Uhh... I don't know what you're-"
"Awh, can it dad!" I exclaimed. "Yes you do. Mom told me I have a fourteen-year-old sister called Shannon and she's been living with you since she was three. So I'd be very grateful if you let me talk to her." I said angrily.
He opened his mouth to say something, but closed it again.
I pushed past him into the hall and stood there with my arms crossed.
He sighed and closed the door and walked to the bottom of the stairs.
"Shannon! Can you come down here for a minute?" He called up the stairs.
"Sure dad! Hang on!" Shannon called back.
We heard an electric guitar play a small tune plugged into an amp, then there were foot steps, then a girl with dark brown hair with red in it and skinny jeans and a ROCK! t-shirt on walked to the top of the stairs. She was medium sized, maybe like my height or an inche taller than me, and had black eye-liner, mascara and eye shadow on.
Must be Shannon. When you think about it, she had some of my looks too. Yup! Definitely my little sister.
She stopped dead in her tracks when she looekd at me.
I gave her a small smile.
"Hi, Shannon." I spoke.
"... Hey..." She replied hesitantly.
She then looked at dad then back at me.
"Well..." Dad sighed.
"Hayley. Williams." Shannon said quietly.
I smiled. At least she knew who I was.
"Shannon Williams." I winked at her.
Her face morphed into a smile.
"Right, well Shannon, there's a reason I'm here." I said.
She nodded.
"Well... I'm, your... sister." I said slowly and clearly.
Shannon stared wide eyed at me.
"You-... But-... I- wha-... HUH?" She whined, confused.
"Hayley here is your sister, and your mom and I have been keeping you apart." Dad explained.
"Why?" Shannon asked, shocked, a little frustrated too.
"We thought it would distract Hayley." Dad admitted.
"Yeah, well, you thought wrong." I snapped.
Dad and I started bickering and I just barely noticed Shannon shake her head and walk back up the stairs.
I rolled my eyes and jogged up the stairs after her. I walked down the hall to try and find her bedroom.
I stopped infront of a room that had 'SHANNON' drawn and painted on the door in graffiti on the door.
'She must have done it herself...' I thought to myself.
I raised my eyebrows and reached for the door handle.
I pulled back then, and thought of knocking the door instead.
I knocked and cracked the door open to stick my head through.
Shannon looked up from something she was drawing and her hair fell.
"Hey." She said, a little surprised.
"Hi." I smiled.
She sighed and pursed her lips and went to sit on the bed instead.
"Come on in. You're my sister, right?" She sighed.
I looked down and then held in laughter.
I'm sorry, but it's such an awesome feeling to know you were right about something and you finally get hat you wanted.
"Yeah." I replied and walked into her room and closed the door behind me.
Her room was red, grey, orange and black, but all in stars, stripes and shapes, her name in graffiti again, covering a full wall, and to top it all off, they were Paramore posters and Avril Lavigne posters covering some walls. AND... She had two acoustic guitars and three electric guitars around her room with a big amplifier.
I smiled. "Did you do, all of this?" I asked.
Shannon looked around at her walls and back at me and smiled.
"Yeah... My creative side took over one day and I begged dad if I could do it all and eventually I did it." She laughed a little.
"Nice." I nodded.
I looked down at her and she smiled warmly and patted a space beside her on her bed.
I sat down beside her and crossed my hands.
"So... The whole sister thing..." I started.
"Are you really sure that I'm your sister? 'Cause seriously... I couldn't be that blessed." Shannon said quickly.
I looked at her and chuckled softly.
"Yeah... I'm positive. We can get a DNA test if you want? But, you look a little like me, you dress like me... AND the first time I saw you, I automatically thought, 'yeah, she's definitely my sister.' Besides... I love you already, and I don't even know the real you." I said in reply.
Shannon smiled a wide smile at me. "Well... You'll get to know me! Just like I'll get to know you!" She said happily.
I reached out and ruffled her hair. "Smarty pants."
"Umm... So, now that we found out that we're sisters... Can I... y'know..." She started awkwardly.
But I knew what she was talkin' about.
I reached out and hugged her tightly in my arms.
I felt her smile into my shoulder and she hugged back.
"We'll stick together like no one else." I said quietly.
"Yeah... Wait..." She said.
"You're in Paramore..." She said waiting.
I laughed out loud, she just remembered now.
"You only remembering now kid?" I smield.
"Yeeeaaaahh. I'm kinda slow when in shock sometimes." She chuckled.
"Well... Do you wanna' come see your mom that you haven't seen in eleven years?" I asked.
She nodded rapidly and sprinted to the door, tripping on her way down the hall.
Luckily she didn't go flying down the stairs.
I chased after her and ran out the front door, calling to dad that we were going home to mom's.
I got in my car and Shannon followed, getting in beside me.
"What are all these bedges and pictures?" Shannon asked, looking at all the badges and pictures I had stuck to the roof of my car.
I glanced up and chuckled. "The badges are just presents from other bands and some I've collected, and the pictures are just of the family, and the guys and me." I explained to her.
"Oh. Cool!" She said happily.
I nodded and focused on the road again.
"So... What do you do while you're on tour?" Shannon asked me.
"Hmm... Well... We eat, drink, sleep, pee, poop and do our job." I said simply.
She laughed. "Yeah! When you guys came over here to Franklin, I was at the front. Too bad you didn't know me then."
"Oh my gosh! Were you wearing a Paramore t-shirt? And was it black red and white?" I questioned her.
Shannon grinned widely and nodded. "Yeah! That was me! And my two best friends Kate and Arianne."
"They were the ones beside you almost having a heart attack?" I guessed.
"Yup. Children." She scoffed and rolled her eyes.
I smiled and pulled up infront of mom's house again.
"Ready steady?" I asked.
"Go." Shannon finished, smirking.
I rolled my eyes and shook my head and chuckled.
"Come on Shanano." I said, gicing her a random nick name and we both got out of the car and walked through the front entrance.
"Mom?" I called.
We walked into the living room.
"Hey Hayley baby." She said, still watching the TV.
"Hey mom!" Shannon said happily.
Mom snapped her head around and saw Shannon and squealed.
"Shannon darlin'! Come here!" She said.
Shannon smiled and ran to the other side of the sofa and hugged mom.
"I haven't seen you in eleven years!" Mom cried.
Shannon laughed. "Me either."
"You're so... Older looking. You look like you're seventeen!" Mom exclaimed.
"Well... That's what Hayley's music does to me. And her music videos." Shannon said, looking up at me with a sarcastic look.
"Hey! How is this my fault? !" I asked.
"Ignorance?" Shannon laughed.
I thought back to the music video of our song 'Ignorance' and jumped up slightly. "Moving on!" I said quickly and sat down in between my little sister and our mom and hugged them.
"Hang on Shannon." I said to my little sister and me and mom went out to the kitchen.
"So... What's the plan for Shannon then mom? Is she still staying with dad and stuff?" I asked, interested.
Our mom thought about it. "Well... Do you wanna take her? I mean, she's fourteen... She won't be too much to handle." She smirked at me.
I looked in at Shannon who was fidgeting with her hands and looking out the window and smiled softly to myself.
"Yeah. I'll take her! She can meet the guys!" I said happily.
"Great. But, be sure to tell her father. Don't want him to have a fit." Mom giggled.
I chuckled in return and nodded, then we walked back into the livingroom.
Shannon looked up at me and gave a small smile.
"So, hun. Do you mind staying with your sister for a while?" Mom asked her.
The minute she said it, Shannon's face lit up. She shook her head. "No. I'll stay with her! If... Hayley doesn't mind..." She said hesitantly.
I gave a half-hearted smile and and nodded slightly.
"Of course I don't mind Shanny! You're my lil sis." I said and ruffled her hair.
Shannon gave a huge grin and jumped up and hugged me.
I put my arms tightly around her and hugged her back.
"Thank you." She mumbled into my top.
"No problem." I said quietly.
"Well, you girls better get going so you can pack." Mom said, setting her hand on Shannon's shoulder and shaking her a little.
"Yeah... Nice to see you mom." Shannon smiled.
"Of course! Come back soon honey." Mom replied hugging Shannon.
"Yeah."
"Sorry to break this up, but we gotta get goin', now." I said, checking my watch.
"Okay. Bye momma!" Shannon said, jogging out of the house and down to my car.
"Bye mom." I said and kissed our mother on the cheek.
"Bye baby. See you soon."
"I'll take care of her." I reminded her.
"I know you will sweetie. I'll talk to you soon."
I walked down to my car and unlocked it and me and my little sister hopped in.
When I started the drive to my appartment, I turned on the radio and our bands song 'The Only Exception' came on.
I smiled and thought about the guys.
"Hayles?" Shannon asked.
"Yeah?" I wondered.
"Y'know... Before today, when I found out that you were my sister... You were my idol." My little sister told me.
I glanced over at her and she was chewing one of the strings of her hoodie.
"Really?"
"Duh. You're like, awesome. Of course you're my idol. You still are. I love Paramore. They're the best." She replied, looking over at me.
I smirked. "Wow... I guess I am an idol to some kids, but, I dunno', it's weird hearing it come from you since I only met you today and it feels like I've known you for a lifetime." I replied, chuckling.
Shannon laughed at that. I had to look over, she was laughing her head off.
"What's so funny?" I asked, smiling at how hard she was laughing.
She covered her mouth with her hand and closed her eyes. She shook her head and took a deep, shuddering breath.
"'SOME' kids." She laughed. "That's hilarious Hayley. You're not an idol to 'some' kids. Think about every concert you guys have. Think about how many teenagers round about my age there are. You're their idol too. And Josh, Taylor, Zac and Jeremy as well, girls love 'em. Eh... Some guys too." She laughed again.
I had to laugh too, it was just so random and sudden.
"You're so weird." I laughed.
"Yeah, get used to it honey." She replied, looking out the window.
"I'm gonna sound like such a stalker... But I already know what your house looks like." She said in a small voice.
I looked over at her with raised eyebrows. "MTV right?" I said.
She nodded.
"Trust me... You're not the stalker... I think, sometimes, people try to get contact information of our bodyguards... And its, pretty freaky." I replied, cringing at the thought.
"Man... Ew." Shannon scrunched up her face.
We then pulled into the driveway of dad's house.
"Okay, in and out alright?" I asked.
"Yup." Shannon nodded and jumped out of the car and ran up and into the house. I followed after her as she ran up the stairs.
"Hayley?" Dad called.
"Yeah dad." I said, walking into the kitchen.
"What are you girls doin'?" He asked.
"Oh, um... Shannon's gonna stay with me for a while, if you don't mind..." I said slowly.
"Sure, that's fine. Is Shannon up packing now?"
"Yup. We'll be outta your hair soon... That is, if you have any." I laughed a little. So did dad.
"Oh Hayley. Still funny as always."
I smiled and nodded and Shannon came running down the stairs.
"Ready!" She called.
"Well dad. See ya soon." I said, giving him a quick hug.
"Bye Hayles."
"Bye daddy." Shannon said hugging him.
"See ya soon darlin'." He replied.
We went back to my car and started to drive on to my house.
After a long conversation, we pulled into the driveway of my house.
"Welcome to the REAL home." I said to her.
"For sure." Shannon chuckled.
We got out of the car and walked up to the door and unlocked it and walked in.
We walked into the livingroom and turned on the light, but, as I turned it on, there was yelling and people jumped up.
"WELCOME HOME HAYLEY! ! !" All the guys yelled.
I jumped backwards and so did Shannon.
"Oh my-" I couldn't finish my sentence before Jeremy pulled me into a huge hug and lifted me up.
"WHOA!" I exclaimed.
I was bombarded with hugs from Josh, Zac and Taylor and when that was done, I stumbled back and Shannon caught my shoulders and laughed.
"Wow... Who's this Hayles?" Zac asked.
"It's my little sister Shannon." I explained.
"You're... WHAT?" Taylor asked, shocked.
The guys looked at Shannon and back at me and we both nodded.
"We only found out that we're sister's today." I told them.
They all gaped at us and Josh was the first to speak.
"What age are you Shannon?" He asked.
"Oh, I'm 14. Nice to meet you guys." She smiled warmly.
"Yeah, you too!" Zac smiled and shook her hand.
Shannon giggled as the other boys shook her hands too.
"So, yeah. Shannon's my sister. And sometime she's coming on tour with us." I said.
Shannon turned to me with a dropped jaw.
"SERIOUSLY? !" She said in a higher octave.
I laughed and nodded. "Yeah. I'm sure the fans will be pretty shocked to know that I have a sister."
Shannon widened her eyes and grinned. "Awweeesssoomeeee!"
All of us smiled and then walked into the kitchen and there was party food all set out and stuff and we all tucked in.
Shannon and the guys were talking away and I smiled to myself at how fast they were getting along.
Josh then walked over to me and sat beside me.
"Hey." He said.
I smiled at him. "Hey."
"What's up?" He asked.
Nothing really was up, and yet, nothing is the lie everyone catches out.
"Nothing." I smiled again.
"Right. Shannon's cool." He said.
I smirked. "Yeah."
Okay... Remember back to when me and Josh kissed on the night before we left for home? Well, I didn't really mean to kiss him, I was just feeling really lonely at that moment, but, me and Josh are best friends, and I don't wanna ruin our friendship, but, he was there at that moment, he was talking to me, and I just, kissed him. I didn't mean to! It's just because he was there! But... Ever since that night, I've been questioning whether I love him still as a best friend or if I'm IN-love with him. It's just so, confusing! Urgh!
"Hello... Earth to Hayley!" Josh waved his hand in front of my face.
I snapped back into reality. "Oh. Hi."
"Are you okay? Where'd you go?" He chuckled.
I raised my eyebrows. How can he be so laid back about it? ! Does he feel the same way about me after it? What am I saying? Of course he doesn't! He's Josh! He probably just thought I needed to kiss someone and went along with it 'cause he's my best friend. Why'd he have to go and make things so complicated? Dang it! Now I'm getting Avril Lavigne lyrics in my head! AGH!
"Hayley?" Josh asked again, shaking me.
I shook my head. "Sorry, what?"
He sighed and took my hand and brought me into the hall.
"What's wrong with you Hayles? I can tell somethin's up, and we're best friends, we can tell each other anything." He said with compassion.
Crap! I can't tell him! It'll just suck if he doesn't feel the same way and he'll reject me right on the spot. Man... I'm in deep.
"Uh, nothing's up..." Oh my gosh, what a stupid lie. I'm actually ashamed of that.
"Lier. You can tell me Hayley. You know that."
I do know that. But I can't tell him what I'm thinking... Well, 'can't' isn't a word. I WON'T tell him... It's too hard. Some day, it'll ware off right? I mean, it's only a crush, isn't it? No... It's not. It's DEFINITELY not just a crush. I love Josh. That's it. And I hope and pray to God, that Josh loves me too.
"I know that Josh. It's just that... I'm afraid to tell you."
"Why? What's so bad that you can't tell ME? We never keep secrets from each other Hayles." He frowned, and it made me feel sick. It doesn't really help that I can't make up my mind to confide in him at this moment in time when, every other time I do. Why can't I just come out with it? It's not that hard to say!
"If you were in my position... " I whispered.
"What are you talkin' about Hayley?" He questioned, with a hint of... anger. Gosh... It's just not fair! ! !
"I..." Oh man... Come on Hayley! Say it!
"I love you Josh..." YES! OH YEAH! GO ME! But I wasn't prepared for whatever was gonna come next.
"Are you... Are you serious?" He asked.
CRAP!
"Yeah..." I said hesitantly.
"Oh." He said.
Oh? OH? What? ! Okay, maybe I was rejected. But... OH? ! I mean, come on! He's gotta think of something better than that.
I looked up at him from my hands and he was staring at his feet blankly.
All's well in love and war. I'm outta here.
I looked down again and sighed and pushed myself off of the wall and started to walk away.
But something latched onto my arm.
I turned around again and Josh was holding my wrist and he looked at me with pleading eyes.
I looked down at his hand and then I put mine on his and gently pulled it off my wrist.
"Hayles... Don't go." He said.
"Why?" I asked, straightening my posure.
"I still have to talk to you." He said.
"Josh... There's nothing to talk about." I said and before I walked back into the others, Shannon stuck her head through the slightly opened door.
"Shannon, open the door." I sighed.
"I'm not letting you back in here until you sort things out! Ahaha!" She taunted and locked the door.
I dropped my hands by my sides and sighed, staring at the door.
"Hayley..." I felt Josh's hands wind around my waist.
"JOSH!" I screamed and jumped out of his grip.
"Hayley, calm down... I just, need to tell you something as well." He said.
"Well...? Out with it." I said, annoyed.
"I-I... Love you too." He said, looking at the floor.
And that's when my world turned upside down.
"What?" I asked shocked.
"I love you as well. I've been in-love with you ever since 'The Final Riot!'." He told me.
"A-Are you sure? Because... Well, y'know... Love is somethin' big... Are you sure it was love-" I was cut off by Josh's finger over my lips.
"I'm as sure, as sure can be." He told me.
I looked down at the floor slightly annoyed, but I have no idea why.
"Why the heck didn't you tell me? !" I exclaimed. My gosh... Hayley you ass!
"W-Well... I was scared incase you didn't feel the same way..." He told me.
"Josh... You know I love you. You're my best friend." I scoffed.
"Yeah... But, in-love Hayley. Don't you get it? I'm in-love with you!" He told me.
I looked up into his deep brown eyes and sighed slightly. Why isn't anything that he's saying sinking in? !
"Really?" DANG IT HAYLEY! SHUT UP!
"Yes Hayley! Do you feel the same?"
I nodded and smiled a little.
"Yeah... I-I can't get you off my mind..." Oh my gosh... Did I actually just tell him that?
But he smiled... So it's all good!
"I can't think about anything without you coming into my mind." He said in merely a whisper.
Then, a spark of excitement just ran through me.
I grinned and hugged him.
He towered over me and wrapped his big arms around me.
"Um... We better get back into the others." I said quietly.
"Wait!" He said, pulling me back to him.
I looked up at his eyes and he bent down and his lips met mine.
HALLELUJAH!
I smiled slightly and my eyes closed over and I wrapped my arms around his neck. He slid his hands down my waist.
This is like, the best moment ever... Apart from the whole finding my sister thing, but y'know... Boys wise.
I slid my tongue across his lips before delving into his mouth and he did the same. Our tongues explored each other.
But, of course, it HAD to be interrupted by Zac.
"Spongebob!" He called, using a nickname I have because of the gap between my two front teeth.
Crap. CRAP. CRAP!
Me and Josh jumped away from each other before he came into the hall.
"Hey ol' buddy ol' pal!" I said awkwardly.
"Heyo H-Bomb. What's up?" He asked.
"Nothin'."
"Liar! Anyways... You comin' back into the partaay? !" He exclaimed.
I chuckled. "Yeah, hang on."
He walked back in and me and Josh glanced at each other and smiled and we followed in after Zac.