Chapter 2 Pipit
I wrapped my arms around Link and we fell onto my loft wing. Link made himself comfortable and took the reins and guided my loft wing down to a crater to the surface. Before long Link pulled me with him and we fell through the clouds and into a giant pool of water. I swam up to the surface and started coughing,I looked around and saw Link sitting on the edge of the water. From here he looked so beautiful as the sun shined down on him.
I looked around as I swam back to Link. This must be the place known as the surface, Link offered me his hand to help me out of the water. I smirked as I took his hand in mine, it was too late I pulled him in with me.
Link glared at me playfully, "your gonna pay for that!" He called out. I laughed as he splashed water at me. We were acting like little kids, splashing water at each other. We swam around just enjoying each others company. When we finally got tired of playing around in the water and we both took our tunics off and laid in the grass waiting for them to dry.
I listened to Link talk for hours about his adventures and his quest here on the surface. He told me how he made friends with all the native races of the surface. I smiled imagining Link fighting and helping everyone who asked him.
"I want to do something special for you Pipit" Link said going up to a hollow tree trunk and he pulled out a gold harp. My eyes widened in surprise it was definitely the goddesses harp.
He sat up against a tree close to where I was lying. He began to play the notes were so soft and beautiful, I closed my eyes I started to imagine Zelda's words, imagine how he reacted knowing she only wanted him as a body guard rather than lover. My heart ached for the boy whose pain was being let out through the instrument.
Tears came to my eyes I stood up and walked to Link. He stopped playing and looked at me as I fell to my knees in front of him. Link looked at me concerned setting the harp aside. "Pipit are you alright? I wasn't trying to upset you. Forgive me please." He said tears almost coming to his eyes.
I wrapped my arms around him tight and cried on his shoulder "you silly boy, how you must have suffered." I whispered against his neck "ill never leave your side Link, I want to be with you forever." I said wiping his tears, he hid his face in my chest as silent sobs raked over him.
Slowly I put my finger under his chin he lifted his eyes to face me. I felt my heart skip a beat seeing his eyes bloodshot from his tears. I kissed his tears away and he squeezed one of my hands in his. We looked at the sky, it was getting late we grabbed our tunics and slid them over our heads. Link quickly hid his harp and we walked back to a loft wing statue. Somehow Links red loft wing swooped down and laid down allowing us to mount. I got behind Link and held tight to his waist. I felt my face turn red feeling Links body between my legs. I gently laid my head against his back he smelled so good… Just like home.
I closed my eyes we had made it back to skyloft. His bird landed and Link rubbed the birds head before he flew away. We turned to walk back to the dorms and came face to face with Zelda and Karane. I sighed "what is it you want?" I was annoyed after what I heard in the cave.
Karane was on the verge of tears, "why are you being this way Pipit, I just want us to go back to normal." I could feel Links gaze on me he wanted to know where he stood when it came to me and Karane.
"Look Karane, your great but I don't think we should be together anymore." She looked up her eyes filled with tears without a word she ran away.
"you're a monster! All you did was toy with her feelings" Zelda said raising her hand to slap me. Surprisingly Link pushed me back and caught Zelda's hand before she even touched me.
"Your one to talk." Link growled in a low cruel voice. Zelda's eyes widened she looked down so ashamed,
"Link I said I was sorry what more do you want from me." She said crying. Link dropped her hand as if she had burned him.
"I want you to leave me alone I don't want to look at you or talk to you I don't want to be near you. Just leave me alone Zelda."
He said taking my hand in his pulling me away from Zelda. "Link please!" She cried but Link ignored her. My heart skipped a beat he had proved his feelings for me.
I couldn't help the stupid smile on my lips as Link and I walked to his room. I couldn't do anything tonight I had to do my nightly rounds. Link opened the door wanting me to go in. I shook my head "I cant join you, as much as I want to. I have to do my rounds, ill come back in the morning when I finish. Wait for me?" I whispered Link looked down sadly, then smiled gently.
"Ill take care of you in the morning." Link said stroking my cheek. I kissed his hand before he shut the door.
My finger tips lingered on the door, despite breaking up with Karane and almost getting slapped by Zelda today was amazing. Link took me to the surface and we just spent time together and forgot all our worries. In skyloft it was wrong for men to love other men, but I couldn't help falling for Link.
Since I first laid eyes on him, I was with my friends in the middle of town. When I saw Link and zelda play around by the edge of skyloft. I could tell he was trying to explain something to her. When I thought about it I remembered he was the only one I had never seen a loft wing with. I saw what was happening in horror, I ran as fast as I could but I didn't reach him in time. Zelda had pushed him off thinking he was lying.
I pushed Zelda out of the way throwing myself off of skyloft, I put my hands at my sides so I could dive down faster. As soon as I had caught up with the boy I wrapped my arms around him. His emerald eyes looked up at me surprised they were filled with tears. He embraced me back and cried into my chest, I whistled for my loftwing, and we both fell onto him diving a bit lower before I grabbed the reins and pulled us back up.
The boy was still clutching my body he was shaking, I pulled him as close as I could to me, I flew around Skyloft before landing on the edge of the goddesses statue. I could hear the boys heart breaking sobs. I picked him up, setting him on his feet. He wiped his tears with his hands, I knelt down in front of him and moved his hands from his face. I could feel a flash of crimson cover my cheeks, I knew he was a boy but his face looked so innocent so beautiful like a girl… I held my breath. He had long black eyelashes and eyes the brightest shade of green I had ever seen before.
Before long the sun was rising I smiled running back to Links room. I opened the door and froze up, my whole body was aching I wanted so badly to just die. My heart tore to shreds in that instant, Zelda sat up in Links bed and smiled at me.
"Link and I made up, he asked me to stay the night." Made up? Link hated her… Didn't he? I felt like I was going to throw up I slammed the door shut and ran outside and threw up.
I hated myself for trusting him, for letting him see me so vulnerable. He played me and took Zelda to bed not long after.
I cleaned my mouth with the back of my hand, I was shaking. I went to take a shower and brush my teeth. My body was moving of its own accord, I acted out of memory, getting ready for class. I got there earlier than everyone else I sat down in the back of the room.
I just put my head down dreading every second that passed when someone tapped my hat. I looked up and saw Karane holding her books standing in front of my table. "Do you mind if I sit here with you?" She said softly looking up at me from under her long red lashes.
"Sit" I said softly laying my head back down. I heard Karanes gasp, I didn't bother to look I knew exactly what I would see. I heard Zelda pull put the chair in front of Karane, then the chair in front of me slid out then back in place, he was right there.
I clenched my fists digging my nails into my palm until it bled. "Oh Pipit your bleeding!" Karane said taking my hand in hers, she reached in her bag for some first aid antiseptic then cleaned and covered my wound. I finally had the nerve to look up I saw Zelda leaning her head into the curve of Links neck, his hand was running through her hair. I felt like my world had just shattered, I stood up and grabbed my things and walked out.
"Pipit!" Karane said chasing after me. She caught up to me at the goddess statue. I sat up against it my head buried in my knees "Pipit" she whispered putting her hand on my head. The tears wouldn't stop, I was shaking as the pain over took me. Karane pulled me into her, running her hands slowly through my hair. I wrapped my arms around her letting all my pain go.
She shushed me rubbing my back, I looked up at her and kissed her. I pinned her down with my body and kissed her like my life depended on it. She didn't resist me she accepted me and all my shattered pieces. I felt her body reacting to me she hadn't broken our kiss but I could hear her soft moans in the back of her throat, she didn't sound anything like Link, she didn't taste like him either. I pulled away breaking the kiss as more tears fell down my cheeks. I regretted the words the moment they left my lips
"being without you is killing me Karane," I sobbed trying to erase the memory of the boy who just toyed with me. She cried too, but her tears were happy tears, she laughed softly.
"We can forget we broke up, okay?" I just nodded as she hugged me to her. I tried taking comfort in her but she didn't feel right to me she wasn't Link. I hated myself for comparing her to the boy. Once I was able to take control of my emotions we walked back hand in hand to the academy. We had never been so open about being together, all the other students stared at us in surprise. We were standing right outside the door to her next class and she took her hands in mine and planted a kiss on my lips.
"Ill see you during lunch okay?" She said with a bright smile. I forced a smile on my face as I nodded. I turned around and a few feet from me Link was saying his good-byes to Zelda as well. What had changed my broken heart begged me for an answer, one I couldn't give it. I turned my back and headed to class.
"Pipit!" I heard his voice call, I froze his voice was clawing at my heart, I wanted so much to just run and hide where id never be seen by Link again. Link caught up to me "how were your rounds last night?" Link said softly, my heart was beating so wildly in my chest I thought it might explode.
"Fine." Link looked down as I continued walking but he kept his pace with me.
"It seems as though you and Karane made up." He said I could hear the frown in his voice.
"seems so." I said still walking.
"why, would you go back to her." He said taking me by the wrist and pulling me to a stop. Was he acting jealous even after everything I saw with zelda? I jerked my hand away from him.
"what do you care, what I do or don't do." I growled turning around to continue on my way. We were passing the dorms as I felt Link pull me into his room.
He forced me up against the door his body on mine. I whimpered like a wounded animal, I was in so much pain, I felt so stupid. Even now I loved how his body felt pressed up against mine, the way we fit together perfectly. I loved him so much in this room he betrayed me. Links emerald eyes looked into mine before he forced a kiss on my lips.
"Stop it!" I cried sliding to the floor hugging my knees. "Am I just a toy for you, when your not out fucking zelda you want to try something new with me?" I cried "why cant I be good enough, I thought you.." I trailed off.
"you thought what? That I could love you?" Link said in a harsh voice. I looked up at him shocked at his words, he hadn't loved me at all. "Men aren't supposed to love other men, Pipit. What we did was wrong, but that doesn't mean I don't care about you."
He said almost pleading "so, you did what you did out of pity for me, you knew I wanted you so you show me you care by making me fall in love with you and then taking Zelda to bed!" I growled I could see the wound I had just inflicted in his beautiful emerald eyes.
I stood up and ran out the door, I hid in the cave behind the waterfall my loft wing curled up under me being a pillow and blanket, as I cried onto his golden fur. I didn't want to be in skyloft anymore, I just wanted to be alone. I had spent two hours in here before remembering I needed to be with Karane for lunch. My loft wing wiped my tears and sent me on my way.
I went straight to her classroom and waited outside the door. I had my eyes closed when I felt Karanes hand slide through mine. "Ready for lunch? I made you something good!" She smiled carrying both our lunches with her as we walked to the waterfall.
We sat down in front of it and we started eating together, I flinched looking at the waterfall I remembered playing on the surface with Link. I stopped eating and just sat listening to karane rant about how long classes had been. Thankfully Karane didn't mind my silence she continued talking. It was time for everyone to head home, I walked Karane to her dorm, she hugged me tight before shutting the door behind her.
I didn't want to stay in the dorm, sitting in the room by myself was going to drive me crazy. I took some clothes and went back to mothers house, she worked tonight so I wouldn't have to worry about her seeing me like this. I sighed the house was still a mess like always, mother hated cleaning. I began cleaning it took my mind off everything else.
I smiled when the house sparkled, mother may hate cleaning but I never did. I went over to the bathroom and turned on our bath and began undressing. Some how my mind managed to evade thoughts of Link. I began thinking what if I could leave, what if I could make a home for myself on the surface. That way I wouldn't see anyone ever again, I got dressed with a new determination.
I ran back to my dorm and gathered all my clothes and money that I had saved up. I looked around and saw a picture of Link and me, somehow it didn't hurt as bad. It was back around the time we had first met.
I remembered what happened after I saved Link, we both sat next to the goddess statue for hours just talking about everything. Link told me his family had died when he was really young. Though hed never admit it, he hated being in skyloft. His only friend was Zelda, she usually stopped Grooses harassment, but when she wasn't around it was the worst for him. But when I stayed around link groose and his goons didn't come near the boy again.
I smiled through the tears that memory caused, I wanted at least one photo of him. I took the frame and hid it in my bag, I opened the door to see Link right there. Links eyes trailed down to all the things I had with me and his eyes met mine in alarm. "Where are you going?" I knew I would never see him again after this so I repeated his actions from earlier. I pulled him into my room and forced him up against the door and kissed him.
Links reaction was nothing like mine, he wrapped his arms around me and kissed me back. I felt my body crying out in pain, several aches ripped through my body erupting the moment the boys lips met mine. His tongue was so soft when he pushed it in my mouth, I bit down on his tongue and swirled my tongue around his. I heard Links moan in response. He tasted so good just like he smelled like molten hone, I knew the moment we first kissed id be drunk on him every day after. He wanted more I could feel it and through the aches I could feel my excitement growing. I knew deep down I wanted it too but that couldn't happen.
I pulled away from Link and stared at the ground, "you may not love me, but I've loved you every day since I met you." I said letting my heart break into little shards. Even though I knew he didn't love me I still confessed my love for him. I wouldn't force his love I couldn't, I looked up yo see Links eyes widen in pain. Without another word I pushed past him with my things and walked out to the market. I purchased a sword and shield some food and other things I needed. I then headed to the goddess statue. I called my loft wing and mounted him quietly and we descended down into the surface. I looked around me and saw a cave nearby, I went in and began creating my new home.