Disclaimer: Stargate Atlantis doesn't belong to me, etc…

A/N: First I'll start telling you all Sophie Fatale is my new nickname(former almarmentini), although this is my first fic I had dropped some reviews here and there…
I just wanted to say thanks to one person in particular who made this story possible(and threatened to harm me if I didn't finish it S), so thanks Quezacolt/Heidi.

And of course, THANKS TO THE READERS AND REVIEWERS! D

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Twenty minutes later two marines were sent to look for him, and thanks to the LSD they find him in one of the balconies in the outskirts of the city. Elizabeth wanted desperately to talk to him, to apologize to him. She personally went to the east pier, she needed to. She walked outside, and saw his silhouette leaning on the railing.

"John?"

He didn't respond.

"We've been looking for you"

"Did something happen!" He asked turning around, obviously worried.

"No, John….We were just worried"

"Why?"

She couldn't believe her ears; he just couldn't see how much they cared for him.

"Because you're important, John" She sighed before continuing. "I tried to reach over the radio, but I thought you were avoiding me…"

"I'm not avoiding you Elizabeth, I needed to be alone that's all. But I'm sorry I didn't bring the radio, you could've needed me, after all I'm the Ranking Military Officer" He did not add what he was really thinking: but not a very good one, obviously.

"Why would you say that? We were worried about you, not about a possible crisis concerning security of the city"

He didn't say anything else, and Elizabeth thought this might not have been such a good idea. She was sad now, seeing John talking like this broke her heart. She stood there, in silence and let the tears fall freely down her face, she didn't know what to say, what to do.

"I'm sorry, John….I really am" She then turned around and left, she needed some time alone too.

He sensed her crying and kicked himself for it. Way to go, John, make her cry. Idiot. When he looked behind him she was gone. He stayed there all night and when the sun was over the horizon again he left.

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He got to his room, it's been two days since he last slept, but he needed to do something else before he succumbed to slumber first, he showered, changed clothes and left heading to the mess hall. A couple of minutes later he was on his way to Elizabeth's office, with two trays in hand.

"Hi" He greeted.

"Hey" She smiled and he smiled back, she missed that smile so much.

"I just brought you some breakfast, thought you were hungry"

"Thanks"

"I'm so-"

"You kn-" They said at the same time.

"You first" Said John smiling at their synchronization.

"Well, I just wanted to apologize for what I said….I didn't mean it. You're not selfish, I am. I never thought what you were going through, I just said what came to mind. I'm so sorry, John"

"Elizabeth, you have nothing to be sorry for. You were right, I never thought about my team and I did something stupid that didn't even help that poor girl. I came here because I needed to apologize. Last night I made you cry, Elizabeth, and I….I know I don't deserve your forgiveness, but I wanted to tell you how sorry I am, I'll never do that again, not ever!" He yelled the last part, he was embarrassed at what he had done, and he couldn't stand there another minute under Elizabeth's shocked expression so he stormed out of the room.

"John!" Elizabeth cried out.

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Today John did avoid Elizabeth. He couldn't face her, not yet. John wanted to be calm next time they talked so he would talk to her when he gets back from today's mission. They were going to talk to the Kegans, see how they were doing since the last time they checked, piece of cake.

"Colonel, wait!"

"Hi, Carson. Do you need anything?"

"Yes, son. Could I go with you on this mission?"

To say John was shocked would've been an understatement.

"Doc, I thought you hated to travel off world"

"Sure I do lad" He said smiling "But I'm a doctor, son. Dr. Weir mentioned some Kegan kids were ill"

"Well, of course you can go doc, you just need to gear up. We leave in thirty minutes"

"Thank you, Colonel"

Thirty minutes after that the whole team was in the gate room.

"Colonel, a word please" Elizabeth said softly.

John met her eyes, and climbed the stairs to her office.

"What?"

"I need to talk to you, John. But most importantly, I need you to listen to me"

"Liz, I know you do, but now is not the time"

"But I think you should know-"

"Colonel, I thought we were leaving today!" Shouted a very irritated Rodney.

"I'll be there in a minute"

"Liz, I promise we'll talk when I get back, OK?"

"OK"

And then he was walking through the gate and waving a hand at her.

"Come back soon" It came out just as a whisper.

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Everything went out OK, the kids were getting better, and the Kegans were fine. They even invited them to drink some evening tea. After they were done they said their goodbyes and left in the direction of the stargate.

"Hey, Sheppard"

"Yes, Rodney?"

"Well, I wanted to say… I'm sorry. I know you had a hard week and I ignored it. If you need me, you can talk to me, you know"

John didn't know what to say, this was unexpected to say the least, but nice nonetheless

"Thanks" He smiled and patted Rodney on the back.

They kept walking; Rodney was next to Sheppard not far behind was Carson. Ronon alongside Teyla covered their six.

Once the gate was visible the group relaxed, knowing they were going to be home soon.

"Thank God, I truly thought this walk was going to kill me. How much was it? Anybody?...Well since you're not listen to me-"

In that moment a huge creature jumped from a tree. John acted on instincts and pushed Rodney to the side just as the creature scratched where McKay was supposed to be. It reacted quickly to the other individual's agility and this time didn't miss. John felt the claw dig into his side and moaned for the pain it caused, but he couldn't stay there, he needed to check if Rodney was alright so he got up just in time to see the alien creature move towards his friend. He used his P-90 against it and watched as the animal fell to the ground, lifeless. He sighed in relief as he confirmed all of his team members were OK. Suddenly something moved inside the forest. And it was something big.

"Shit! Everybody, to the gate now!"

Nobody contradicted his order this time. As they started running John saw what was chasing them. I looked twice the size the creature he just killed. Damn it, with his luck it was probably the thing's mother.

Teyla knew they wouldn't make it in time, so she decided to split from the team, hopefully getting the attention of the animal. John watched as she did so and understood what she tried to do so he grabbed Carson's arm and dragged him onto another path. Ronon also noticed and took McKay by the arm and hauled him in a different direction.

Apparently I'm leaving in about a week to Boston, so I'll try to update the whole story by then…If you review me, of course evil grin