Wilson paused for a moment as he left the office, subconsciously deciding maybe the nurses' station would be the best place for him. Strolling over he struck up a conversation with Sarah…Susie... something.

House and Cuddy seemed to share a moment and from Cuddy's face something serious was going on.

House suddenly rose to his feet and limped heavily to the opposite corner like a trapped animal, Cuddy's face went from slightly amused to worried and she seemed to question him quietly biting her thumb.

Wilson's heart stopped for a moment when the thought that Houses leg was worse and he was injured in some way struck him, he pushed it to the back of his mind and looked back concentrating on what he could see.

House shook his head, scratching the back of his head and Wilson was woken suddenly from his reverie by the nurse who gave him a playful questioning look

"Drift off there?" she giggled too loudly and patted his arm, Wilson flinched ever so slightly and glanced up at the office, House seemed to have disappeared, frowning he looked down and gave the nurse his bets winning smile

"So sorry but I have to go" the nurse looked decidedly put out

"Oh...right"

Wilson smiled warmly and patted her arm before practically sprinting off to his office to think over what he had just witnessed.

There was a beat of silence and House just made a small whining noise, yes Wilson of course Wilson.

Cuddy started to chew on her thumbnail "What are you going to do?"

House looked at her with something distinctly baffled and rose painfully to his feet limping to the opposite corner in thought

"Well I'm not going to tell him am I!?"

House laughed hoarsely the pain in his voice making cuddy wince.

She sighed loudly "House you will have to tell him…if it doesn't stop.

She rubbed her foreheads and stared at him for a long moment his down turned eyes and obvious shame shining through. House gave no reply he just rubbed the back of his head "Just go…deal with yourself and get back to your patient. I'm sure you will find something to distract you, and as your friend…as your friend I think you should tell him."

House looked at her his face a mix of anger fear and pain

"I can't"

"Well it's not helping ignoring the problem"

"It's worked before" House sighed and moved to the door

"House, just… please be careful" she nodded as if to let him go and House limped/ran down the hall to his own office, trying to ignore Wilson flirting with a nurse his silky voice and easy smile just making Houses escape all the more difficult.

Reaching his office House slammed the door behind him and pulled all the blinds leaving him in a almost pitch black room all outside noise seeming to fade out.

He sighed falling into a chair and rubbing circles into his head, House frowned and bit the inside of his cheek shaking his head.

"This is ridiculous" lying back he crossed his arms trying to think of the most repulsive thing possible.

He was bitterly amused for a moment by his own defiance to gratify himself to Wilson. Strange he should have so much respect for somebody that he wouldn't give himself a brief moment of ecstasy.

Houses eyes opened in panic when a rouge thought just fluttered past his mind. Maybe he didn't want to do that to Wilson because he loved him.

House laughed loudly and brashly at the pure humor that he could possibly be in lo… in love with Wilson ,trying to ignore the panic filling the hole in his chest making his head feel light and airy but his body feel stone heavy.

House barely noticed that his erection had gone down in his brief flurry of fear "What am I going to do"

House rubbed his face again trying to avoid rushing to his coat stand and swallowing his entire bottle of vicodin. He looking over at it with a little moan starting to contemplate running away when there was a quiet knock on his office door.

House paused he knew that knock all too well "House?"