Pain
"Oh that my head were waters, and mine eyes a fountain of tears, that I might weep day and night for the slain of the daughter of my people!
2Oh that I had in the wilderness a lodging place of wayfaring men; that I might leave my people, and go from them! for they be all adulterers, an assembly of treacherous men.
3And they bend their tongues like their bow for lies: but they are not valiant for the truth upon the earth; for they proceed from evil to evil, and they know not me, saith the LORD."
There are times that being a christain, which I will define here as seeing the Kingdom of GOD, if I may, for those who understand, feels good. A feeling that it may not be the case that GOD is angry with you. A feeling that it may be the case that GOD is pleased with you. This is a feeling akin to graduation day. Though as children we pretend that we do not care what our parent think about us, on some level, we all want to make our parents proud, from the time we were children. Whenever you do something that you think they may be proud of, you tell me. Part of it was so that you may receive a reward, but there was always a part of it that just found happiness in the feeling that they were not ashamed of you, that they were proud of you.
When you see the kingdom, there is a feeling, a good feeling that GOD might be proud of you, and that is a good thing, i suppose. However, once you see the Kingdom, you also see the pain of GOD and thus you must bare it forever.
What is this pain that I am referring. The existence of sin, which is to say, the exist of the belief in falsehood. Sin is falsehood, falsehood cause great physical and emotional pain to human beings, because of this, because his children suffer, he bares their pain.
Have you ever been in a public place, after seeing the kingdom, and you can heard the pain of people, maybe you are listening to an argument, or you see a fight break out, or you are just listening to a whole bunch of lies but because are in a public place, you cannot escape it, you must sit there is listen to it. You want to speak, and prehaps you should speak, but you have a suspcion that they will not believe anything you have to say. Not only will they not believe it, they will rebuke you for it, and hate you for speaking the word of GOD, that is the cure to the pain they are suffering.
If you ever had a experience like the one I describe, then you got a very small taste of the pain of GOD. You however, get to go to a quite place, maybe go and read your bible, and just be "alone with GOD." GOD however, being all present, cannot do this. He is force to look on evil day and day and he gets zero rest from it. So then does GOD cry all day and night, and is there no peace for him. No. He finds peace in two thing. Those who see the kingdom and choose not to do evil, and the hope that all will see the kingdom.
If you have seen the kingdom, let it not be said that you will not do evil ever, for they may be lies within your spirit that GOD is still digging out, but let it be said that those who do the word of GOD, GOD will find peace with them. GOD will be proud of them. Further, GOD had not given up on your brother and sister, or in other words, all those who do not see the kingdom, GOD has great hope for them, and in that he finds peace in that hope. The hope comes from the fact that he knows they will see the kingdom one of two way, by coming to see the fruits of righteousness, or by running way from the fruit of their own destruction: "their backsliding will correct them."
So what is our role then, for there will be times that you will feel a great pain in your spirit that you cannot escape. Our role is to present the word of GOD, be the word of GOD, or in other words, be sons of GOD. I hope women that read this do not get offended, son is just a word, and I hope you know what that women are deeply included and forever loved and I hope I did not have to even say that, but it does feel good to say it because it is true.
In any case, this is to explain the pain that you may feel sometimes being sons of GOD, and to tell you how we are to address that pain.
That pain is good, it means that you know the heart of GOD, and it reminds you of the great commison-that is to go and make deciples teaching them to obey all that GOD commands. And also find great comfort in the hope that GOD will bring them to see the Kingdom through his word. Which it never hurts to spread, even when people do not believe it. Yet, do not feel any "extra pressure" to share the word of GOD, rather put your focus on keeping it, for you will share the word of GOD "naturally" for all you will do, GOD already knows. The word of GOD will flow out of your naturally, if the kingdom of GOD is upon you and in you.