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I look at her face. At her beautiful face. Even though she is lying in the hospital for nearly three days now, she looks beautiful. Her big blue eyes are closed as she sleeps and her long brown hair is lying spread across the pillow. I want to touch the pale skin on her face so bad, but i can't. She looks so weak. I'm afraid to hurt her. Oh my little Ana. My stupid little Ana.
I've been sitting here since Thursday since that little fucker Jack … I try not to think of him, because if I do, I might go find him in this goddamn hospital and rip his fucking head off. I try to calm, i look at Anas face and suddenly i feel like all my anger is gone and it's all replaced with love for that unique and wonderful woman.
Oh how much I love her. I think back at our phonecall, when she was in the bank. When she told me that she was about to leave, it was like I had lost my purpose of living. Like someone had taken the light from me and I was shrouded in complete darkness, like I was alone and all by myself again. I shudder. I don't want to remember that feeling and I never want to feel like that again.
I look at her belly. Her beautiful belly, in which, now, our little baby is growing. I was so mad at her when she told me she was pregnant and I said all those awful things, which I actually didn't mean that way. I was so shocked and simply not ready to become a father, but then that moment when i thought I lost her. It changed everything. I realized that whatever she will do, i will always forgive her because I love her. So desperately.
I will have to apologize to her. For my words and, which is much worse, for seeing Elena. How painful it must have been for Ana to see that message on my blackberry, while I was asleep completely drunk. What she must have thought…I shake my head. No. I would never do this again. I belong to her. Completely. I'm all Ana's. I must tell her what happend that evening with Elena. She has to know everything. She deserves to. I sigh.
I wish she'd finally wake up, that I could speak to her, that I could finally again tell her that I love her. I touch her hand gently. Stroking my thumb over her knuckles. „Ana, baby, I love you", i murmur and look at her. She looks so thin. Way too thin. She has to eat when she wakes up. I can't handle watching her that thin.
Suddenly her eyes flicker and i feel a movement in her fingers. They close around my hand as she opens her eyes slowly and looks at me. Finally. My little, beautiful, brave, but so stupid Ana is awake. I smile.