After the long opening the actual first chapter is here. I hope you like how I'm using songs to give this story more life and feeling, also there is a small reference for Summer Glau's role in Arrow as Isabel Rochev. At last but not least, leave your reviews or suggestions they would help my story a great deal.

Episode 1: I'm sorry... I love you

Part 1

I hope it's not too late to learn to live and learn to love

I yearn to fight, to turn the tide before the tender dark

For I never drew the sword from stone, there's no Helen in my Troy

I stand alone, I stand forgotten, just gazing into the void

Come night, test my will, test my soul

Test my faith and test my heart, torn apart

Make me strong, make me whole again and

Guide through the dark 'til the morning comes

All empty words and all rhymes will fade

As the light of last candle flickers away

If the story is over, this chapter my last

Let it be my best one, let it be my own

Stratovarius - If the story is over

Los Angeles, Year 2 B.J (2009) Alpha timeline

"It's been a while since I've been fighting against myself I know what I'm feeling, but I'm unsure and afraid. How ironic I'm John Connor I'm supposed to lead mankind to defeat Skynet, yet I'm scared of my own feelings, and now here I am on top of Cameron who is lying beneath me topless. Our faces a mere 2 inches apart, and I don't think I could cope with it anymore, this closeness is driving me insane my heart is pounding so hard inside me it might explode." John was waging a small war inside his mind unable to say a single word, was it the closeness with her? Or the early rays of sunshine making their way inside their Motel room? It doesn't matter, around him the world has completely stopped there is no creation nor destruction just the moment they're sharing.

Beneath him, Cameron is not making any movement, just as John the sensation of their bodies and their faces being so close is entirely overwhelming. Even that is not even a proper word to describe the sensation that she feels, she has waited too long for this moment, just the two of them, and no one else. Yet she is wondering what is going on inside John's mind she can detect his accelerated breathing and heart-rate, but he is unwilling to do or say anything he is just staring into her eyes, completely dumbfounded as Cameron herself. She knows he has been trying to keep her at a distance, the first thought coming to her mind is that bitch whore Riley, but she's dead, and John now knows the whole truth about the plot to turn him against Cameron, so he destroys her himself. Then another thought; maybe he has been like this because she tried to kill him, but apparently he has forgiven her already, if not he wouldn't have had the nerve to defy his uncle and his mother, to bring her back and save her from being melted.

None of them knew how it happened, but suddenly their lips are together the sensation and the emotion, are definitely like nothing they have experienced before. The kiss is slow, gentle, expressing more than they could with words in a hundred years. Cameron is savouring the moment, she knows she loves him, and besides protecting him, this might be another way to express her feelings towards him, perhaps like this he might understand. John also enjoys the kiss they're sharing, he feels the softness of her lips the soft, tender and warm skin pressing against his lips. Amidst the confusion they part their lips, hoping one of them dare to resume the kiss, but they hesitate, and silence engulfs the room once again just looking at each other, they don't say a word, as if they were trying to process what on earth just happened between them.

"John, it's time to go" She finally decides to break the silence, and with it, everything around them comes to life again. She knows she might regret what she has done, yet if she didn't do it she might not be able to let him go, but she acted on guilty thinking that John was unsure because of her termination attempt on him. She gently pushes John back so he could stand and give her some room to put on her underwear and her other clothes. John took a gist of her movement and slowly starts to stand up still staring at her, not with lust, but with tender and pure love, and he met her eyes also staring back at him with love and devotion no human has ever shown to him. Even his mother has never shown such emotion in her eyes, and he realises what he has to do it is now or never. If he doesn't make a move then, later on, he will regret it no matter how soon he repents, maybe it's too late already.

"Sod off! You've been so numpty lately, this is your last chance." John thought to himself the war inside him finally over. As soon as he snaps back to the moment, he notices Cameron is already starting to put on her t-shirt, and her ack is facing him. He smiles at the sight of her small frame, even from her back Cameron is truly beautiful. He reaches her left arm with his hand gently, Cameron, turns around to look at his face giving him a warm smile she does enjoy every time he touches her particularly when he does it gently like he is doing now. He summons all his nerve before he starts to speak

"Cameron, I need to talk to you."

"John, it's time to go we need to go." John was gutted by her response, but he is determined to talk to her about what is eating him.

"No Cameron we need to talk, we both know we need to talk, and I have a feeling this might be our last chance" Cameron nods, she also knows their time together is coming to an end, after receiving the phrase that enacts the most challenging part of her mission. She leads John back to the bed in their room and gestures him to sit next to her, and once again their bodies are so close she feels overwhelmed with emotion.

"Yes, John?" She said with a soft voice

"Cameron before I tell you what I need to I want to apologise, I've been really mean to you, belittled you, you name it. Listen I'm sorry."

"I know John, you were upset, it's okay John thank you for explaining" She replied as the time she smiled to him and gently squeezed his hand, and rubbed his fingers with her thumb. John is surprised with the way she replied back and takes her hand in his in return.

"What I'm trying to tell you is.. well I... I tried to deny my feelings, and in doing so, I know I hurt you and almost get me killed in the process, I was confused and afraid." He swallowed hard before continuing, Cameron tilts her head half expecting what John was about to say, she already knows John has feelings for her. But today Cameron really expects to hear it from him, it might be the last chance for her, before, she proceeds with what has to be done, and they have to part ways. John was right, today would be their last chance.

"Cameron, I... I... Came to realise what you really mean to me I've been a numpty, but now I know. Cameron, I... I love you, I mean it." Cameron smiles, she finally heard it, he finally said it she feels relieved and happy.

"It's okay John, I know"

"You know? Like you have known?" John asked confused. Cameron takes her time to respond, analysing the best outcome before the answer appears on her HUD.

"Yes, I told you before" John is struck dumbfounded before realising what she meant. She has known maybe since before his sixteenth birthday, and she told him when she was pinned between the trucks, also told him that she loves him. A tear falls from the corner of his eye, struck with such revelation. Cameron wipes the tear from John's face, ever with love and tenderness.

"So, back then you meant it when you said you love me?" John wants to know he wants to settle the matter.

"Yes, I meant it I love you, John, you might not believe it is possible for me, but I do"

"And is it part of your mission? Did future me send you back so I can love someone?" John asks not because he is afraid, he wants this to be as real as possible.

"I'm no longer bound to any sort of programming, I just told you. I'm sorry John.. for everything I love you"

"Why are you apologising?"

"You apologised to me, I should apologise to you too."

Before more words are said John leans in and kisses Cameron, they kiss passionately caressing each other all the while, this time there is no hesitation they love each other and is all that matters at this moment, just the love they just confessed to each other and the desperate need to express their love, John raises her left hand and begins caressing Cameron's hair softly, and then he slides his hand slowly to her waist and holds her tight. As they continue kissing they both lie down on the bed touching and sensing every inch of their bodies like a map they need to remember. They lock eyes for a moment as if John was asking her permission, she nods slightly taking his hand helping him to take out her T-shirt and then her bra, then Cameron takes out his T-shirt. They kiss again pressing their bodies together, the sensation of their bare skin is intoxicating, for Cameron all these new feelings are beginning to overload her CPU which can barely handle this whole new set of sensorial experience.

They strip off the rest of their clothes, now both are naked and stare at each other for a moment "It's okay John, I know you want this" she said as she pulled him closer. Without wanting to waste more time Cameron rolls over, so she is on top of her, she reaches for him and gently guides him into her, the sensation of it causes her glitch to trigger, her hand twitches and several warnings appear on her HUD, but she dismisses them. They begin moving slowly until they are comfortable with each other, she can feel the touch of John's hands on her breasts as he squeezes gradually and gently. The movements now are faster, and Cameron lets out a small moan as the experience overwhelms her. She wonders if what she is experiencing is the same as a human female would experience, she realises then that it doesn't matter. All that matters now is that he is entirely hers, and she is entirely his, they are one at this moment.

Zeira Corp Tower, the office of Catherine Weaver

"So, tell me, James, what was the answer of our girl?" Catherine Weaver asked from behind her glass desk.

"I don't know Miss Weaver, she got miffed and almost kicked me out. What does that question is supposed to mean?"

"Miffed? Would you explain James?" Catherine is intrigued by the lack of response of the girl, she was supposed to rendezvous with her ASAP and proceed with operation "Kronos".

"Miss Weaver, I just told you she was pissed off the moment I asked her your question, but she stood by John's side almost possessively as if she was protecting him from hearing more, and he backed her. Though I doubt he has any idea of what you meant." Ellison is starting to believe Weaver is somehow connected with them.

Catherine Weaver stands up and walks to towards the glass walls of her office, and Ellison joins her. Now they both are staring at the streets, watching the flow of people

"Did you feel anything before they talk you out of the room, James?" a suspicion is arousing from Catherine

"It felt like she was protecting him. But... the way she handles herself around the Connor boy is like if she was his lover, they also have something in the way they look at each other, I sensed they have something between them." Ellison is confused now why Catherine Weaver is interested in them and their relationship?

"Interesting seems like our girl has been compromised, it might complicate things." Catherine has now confirmed her suspicion young John Connor has fallen for his female terminator protector, though she was warned beforehand of such a possibility

"I don't understand Miss Weaver, compromised? Do you know each other?"

"Indeed, we know each other we've met before, I know you are already making suppositions, trust me, James, you will know everything... in time. It's like just like your Bible "For everything there is a fixed time, and a time for every business under the sun." Catherine states still gazing to streets. Ellison frowns, confused and frustrated by her response.

"What are you planning to do now Miss Weaver? Do you think they will join you?" Ellison decided to stop trying to unveil the truth behind the actions of his employer.

"You unbelieving generation, everything is possible for one who believes. Have faith James, I sense they will contact us very soon." Catherine Weaver smiled, and the turned to see the reaction of the man next to her

"I do believe, help me overcome my unbelief. That's what it is said next in that story from the Bible, The book of Mark Chapter 9." Ellison chuckled slightly he didn't expect Catherine Weaver to quote the Bible.

"Correct, though I'm no god in time you will have your answers and find the purpose of your creation."

In some Motel in Los Angeles

John is staring at the naked form of Cameron as she gets dressed. They need to go, but John doesn't know where they're headed, John decides to get covered too. When both are dressed Cameron picks something from her duffel bag, and gives it to John.

"What is it? I mean I know it is a CD, is this a mixtape? But what for?" John asks puzzled this is very unlike Cameron

"The last time I gave you a present it was intended to kill me if necessary, this is for you to remember me, will you remember me forever? Will you remember that I stood next to you like this? Will you remember our time together?" John is confused with her request she sounds like if she knew something is about to happen that could take them apart.

"Yeah, I will always remember you, why are you asking me this?" He wants the truth. But Cameron decides it's better not to tell him what will happen, she knows he will be so forlorn.

"John, we need to break Sarah from prison she can't be there"

"And how are we going to do that?" He is even more confused now.

"You won't John, I will."

Another revelation struck John maybe that's why she was asking him to always remember her, she is going to risk herself to break his mom from prison. He knows she can take bullets without much problem, but inside the prison, there will be many guards armed and prepared and enough firepower to damage her. He worries about her about what could happen to his beloved Cameron.

"No, you won't do it alone. We will wait, we will get the blueprints of the prison and make a plan" Cameron can hear the concern in his voice, and she appreciates he is worried for her.

"John, this is important it has to be done" her instance is well founded. She will leave this time soon, future John instructed her about what to do when she is asked the question Will you join us? She wants to break John's mom from prison, she wants to do this last thing for him. He won't have her, but at least he will have her mother by his side.

"Cameron, please it has to be an alternative," He asks her with pleading eyes he cares for her too much.

"It will be difficult later, John" she replies knowing why it will be difficult to do so later.

"I won't risk you, I love you, and I don't want to send you in harm's way as if I don't care about what happens to you," John asked squeezing her hand, and she can feel his sincerity. Cameron begins to hesitate, she knows there is a way, someone who may be able to help them but it would mean to reveal part of the truth to him

"And I love you too John" she says still analysing about what to do.

"If you love me, Cameron, then let's think of a less risky option." With his last words, Cameron decides what to do

"Someone might be able to help us, I can ask her for her help." She leads John to the cars parked nearby, before forcing the door of a vehicle and hardwires an ignition, she asks him to get inside.

John has remained silent still wondering what Cameron said, Who would be able to help them?

"John, why don't you listen to your CD?" She has something to ask him

"Yeah, sure" he inserts the CD, and hits the play button on the car's stereo. The first song begins to play, and he recognises the song. So close, no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart, forever trusting who we are, and nothing else matters... life is ours we live it our way... never cared for what they do never cared for they know, but I know... So close, no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart... John is moved by Cameron he didn't expect this

"Cameron, when did you do this?"

"I don't sleep" was her only response accompanied by a slight smile. John also smiled.

"Do you like it?"

"Yeah, I like it thank you, Cameron. But how did you know I would like it? I never tell you I like this group and this kind of music." John is curious maybe she was earwigging while he listened to music.

"You did, you will."

"I see, future-John told you" He couldn't help but chuckle.

"Yes, future you told me."

Cameron pulled the car from the parking space and began to drive, the CD still playing and for her satisfaction, John actually liked the CD she compiled for him.

"John, I need to borrow your mobile" This time she asked with a blank face and took John's mobile as he handed it. Cameron hesitates for a moment, then she enters a number and dials, the person from the other side answers at the third tone.

"Yes," a woman with Scottish accent answered the phone.

"Rochev contingency protocol, ID TOK-715, 20270822 16 A.J."

"Isabel response confirmed, I'm surprised you called, you have been compromised, you have compromised the mission. Why should I help you? Catherine Weaver replied,

"Because Kronos still needs to be awakened, and we need your help it is the utmost priority." Cameron felt her hand would start twitching with what she just said, but there was no other way to get her help.

"Excellent, I'll meet you and young Connor here at my office. I will make arrangements so you can arrive here without any unpleasantness."

"Good, our ETA is 45," Cameron replied, and with those words, the line went dead. John didn't fail to notice Cameron's twitching hand

"Cameron, you need to tell me the truth. Where are we going and who are we meeting?" concern and confusion were present in John's voice.

"John, about who are we meeting and where are we going... there is something you need to know."