The elder demon turned around for the last time and gave a very bitter smile, his eyes looked really sad. Inuyasha startled. He didn't expect to see that kind of expression on Sesshomaru's face. He felt kind of… guilty.
Does he … love me?
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Warnings: malexmale, yaoi, BL, incest, fluff (?), mistype/typo, grammar mistakes, un-beta-ed, beginner, spoiler, M-rated just to be safe
Inuyasha (c) Takahashi Rumiko
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Do You Love Me?
Chapter 2
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It was a windy sunny day. Inuyasha rested on the riverbank, remembering the occurrence happen more than a month ago. The feeling on his lips still lingered around. Inuyasha kept touching his own lips which Sesshomaru had once planted a kiss.
... Does he really love me?
Since that day, all he ever did was thinking about his half-brother, about the kiss, about the reason behind it.
"Yo Inuyasha!"
The half-demon looked up only to find his annoying friend, Miroku, coming. Inuyasha sighed.
"Oya. That's a bad omen, y'know, sighing so deep in the middle of this sunny day. What's wrong? Missing Kagome again? She won't come back. Just search for a new love, Inuyasha."
"Shut up. I don't want to hear some love advice, especially from you."
"Anyway, you can always talk to me." the priest said whilst laughing.
"Well… it's not about Kagome." I don't even thinking about her so much like before. Not that much after that one time with Sesshomaru…
Miroku watched the white-haired man beside him, waiting for him to tell some more, but he remained silent.
"Well, Inuyasha," Miroku broke the silence. "Do you remember the last time you change into your uncontrolled-full-demon? Who do you think is able to stop you from going berserk now that Kagome isn't here anymore?"
"I thought it was you…" Inuyasha gave a suspicious look. "But you were not?"
"Hahaha! You're really amusing, Inuyasha~!" The priest laughed hard. Inuyasha didn't understand. "How could I get close to you when you are in that state? I will definitely get killed, right? Now remember, Kagome must kiss you to prevent you from changing."
"So what? You got to kiss me to change me back, but there's no way you did it. Is that what you mean?" Inuyasha spoke as if it was something common.
"Nah, you know I like woman. Why would I kiss you?" Miroku gave a smile, a very wicked smile as he continued. "If there were someone who got to kiss you in order to stop you, it has to be out of love, don't you think so?"
"Love, huh…?" Inuyasha said as he looked up to the sky. Unconsciously, Inuyasha touched his lips.
Miroku smiled again. It was enough hints to give to someone as dense as Inuyasha. He then left Inuyasha by his own, floating in his very own mind.
'Do you love me?'
Sesshomaru's voice came back. Inuyasha couldn't get him out of mind. He rolled to his side and the voice was still there. The pressure that once on his lips. The uneasy feeling that wrapped his chest tightly. He couldn't forget them at all.
It has to be out of love? Was it Sesshomaru? Now that I think again, I don't feel it was the first time he kissed me. I can't think of any other reason why he kissed me! Except that…
"Inuyasha-sama!"
A girl's voice woke him up from his thought. He turned around and suddenly got a tight hug from a young girl.
"Rin! What the hell are you doing?!"
The girl kept hugging him until he couldn't take it anymore and pushed her away. Rin looked up to Inuyasha's face and laughed playfully. Since he didn't fond of children, he frowned, waiting for some mischievous prank she might have. He was wrong though. Instead, Rin put a tiara made of flowers on Inuyasha's head.
"You look beautiful, Inuyasha-sama." Rin smiled. "You reminds me of Sesshomaru-sama. He is also beautiful. From now on, can we play together?"
"No way." Inuyasha gave a quick answer. Rin became sad. "Why the hell would you want me to accompany you? That's rare."
"Inuyasha-sama, aren't you lonely?" the sudden question picked Inuyasha's interest. He was all ears then.
"Why do you think I will be lonely?"
"You love Kagome-sama, right? It must be lonely to be apart with the one you love." Rin started talking. Inuyasha listened carefully. He still didn't get what the young girl wanted to tell him.
"Actually, the last time Sesshomaru-sama visited me, he said that he wouldn't come anymore. It's alright with me if he didn't come, but his face keeps bugging me. He wore the same expression as the one when we first met. He looked extremely sad and painful. I just want to be by his side, but I can't anymore. And just now, I saw you have the same exact expression. That reminds me of Sesshomaru-sama and I think maybe I could be some help for you."
"If I'm not wrong, the first time you met Sesshomaru, you helped tending on his arm, right?" Rin nodded at Inuyasha's question. Yeah, it was when I cut off his arm. He was… sad? I thought he must be angry, but instead, he was sad. Why? Was it because of me?
"Sesshomaru…?" Inuyasha suddenly smell his brother's scent along the wind.
"What's wrong, Inuyasha-sama?"
He looked back at the girl in front of him. Am I lonely? If so, then why would not I think about Kagome, but Sesshomaru? Geez… I'm really bad about this kind of thing! Well then!
Inuyasha stood up and ready to follow Sesshomaru's scent.
"Are you going to Sesshomaru-sama's place?" Rin clutched onto the end of his haori. She looked worried.
"Yeah. I have some unfinished business with him." He took the flowers from his head and gave it back to Rin. With his usual smile, he patted on the girl's head. "Don't worry, I will drag him back here for sure."
I will put this to an end once and for all! Inuyasha thought as he followed the scent that led him to a forest.
Inside the forest, there was a river. Somehow, the water was no longer clear. It was thick with red. No. it was not Sesshomaru's blood. It was other demons' blood. Sesshomaru was cleaning his body from it. He just slaughtered a pack of demons that made a ruckus in his territory. His long white hair flowed within the river. The cold water felt good in the summer heat that time. He enjoyed his bath until he smelled something familiar coming closer.
Inuyasha…? Why would he be here?
He quickly got out of the river and rinsed himself. As soon as he rinsed his hair, he put on the haori, but Inuyasha arrived before he managed to get dress properly.
"Sesshomaru."
Inuyasha was on the other side of the river. He called out, but let the word hang in the air. He could not blink at the sight of almost-naked Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru's haori didn't cover his lower-half body, from half of his thighs for exact. His skin was pure white, matched the color of his hair perfectly. It was the first time Inuyasha saw Sesshomaru's body.
On the other hand, Sesshomaru also froze for a moment when he was being called. Oh how long he wanted to hear that voice again. Without recognizing the other's existence, Sesshomaru continued dressing. He put on his hakama and tightened the sash. As expected from the White-Dog Demon Lord, he didn't even flinch. He kept his emotion cool.
"Sesshomaru!" again, Inuyasha called out. This time, even louder.
Once again, Inuyasha was ignored. Sesshomaru took the armor and was about to put it on before Inuyasha pushed it away. He was already in front of his brother and glared angrily.
"This Sesshomaru thinks he has made himself clear, Brother, that you two should not see each other anymore." Sesshomaru gave a cold look. That made Inuyasha backed down a little. Sesshomaru was back to his usual self. "What business does the likes of you have to come so deep in the forest?"
Inuyasha stayed quiet.
"This Sesshomaru has no time for a lowly demon who can't speak."
Inuyasha punched him before the older brother tried to leave. Of course, Sesshomaru could dodge it easily.
"I told you to stop using third-person pronoun!" Inuyasha exploded with anger.
"You have no more business with this Sesshomaru. Why would he bother to listen?"
"I have business with you!" Inuyasha yelled. The difference of their emotion was too great.
"Then state your business quickly."
"I have questions." Inuyasha kept glaring fiercely to the cold Sesshomaru. He had no chance like that anymore. "Why did you say you won't come to the village anymore? Rin told me so."
"I told you already. We should not see each other anymore."
Inuyasha gritted his teeth. So it's true that I am the cause. He looked down, gathering his determination. It's now or never!
"So… do you love me?" Inuyasha spoke very softly. It almost as if he talked to himself.
Despite anything, Sesshomaru heard clearly. His pupils dilated, surprised at the question. Fortunately, Inuyasha kept his head down, so he didn't see the change of Sesshomaru's expression.
"Yes."
After a while, finally a word came out from Sesshomaru. Inuyasha looked at him in disbelief. Sesshomaru still had that stern expression on his face. It was hard to understand like always, but then Inuyasha remembered what Rin said. The sad expression, he could see it. It was his eyes. His eyes became tender and watery.
"Yes, my dear brother. I have loved you for a long time. I came to visit every day when you were strained by that woman priest's arrow. I finally had grudge on you when you cut off my left arm, but later I know I just can't."
Inuyasha listened to the explanation with a shock face. He couldn't believe. He trembled and anticipating the next words.
"I love you."
It sent a various feeling through Inuyasha's body. A disbelief, a fact, a courage, a relief.
"But now it doesn't matter anymore, since you hate me."
Sesshomaru turned around after having a good look on his beloved little brother. I should leave before anything… my patience is wearing thin.
'Sesshomaru!" Inuyasha grabbed his hand, trying to make him face him again. It worked, but the gaze he gave him was no longer cold. They filled with anger and impatient.
"There is one more question." The insensitivity of Inuyasha sometimes wrecked nerves. "That full moon night, it wasn't the first time you kissed me, right?"
It seemed that Sesshomaru had very little patient. He grabbed Inuyasha's hair and forced a kiss. Although he 'forced' it, he actually just gently pressed his fangs against the lips. It opened and he got the chance to slip his tongue inside.
"There. You just tasted the third time." Sesshomaru stated as he pulled away. "Goodbye, little brother."
Inuyasha felt weak from toe to his head. He slumped. He sat down on the grass, head bowed down. Sesshomaru couldn't care anymore about him. He already decided since he heard the word 'hate' addressed to him. He picked his armor and swords, getting ready to leave.
"Wait…" Inuyasha whispered. His voice was shaken. He tried hard to spoke. "Wait."
"Didn't you misunderstand it, the feeling you have for me? It can't be love, right?" A laugh was heard, but tears were visible too to Sesshomaru.
"Inuyasha…" Sesshomaru pulled Inuyasha up, but he wouldn't move. "Come on, get up."
"No… No! You can't do this to me, Sesshomaru!" Inuyasha looked up, he grabbed both of Sesshomaru's hands. Tears flowed down his golden eyes. "I can't have love-relationship with you! I can't! I don't want to be left behind again… nothing good ever come out of love. Nothing… that's why I can't…"
Sesshomaru silenced him with a hug.
"I have lived before you born and I will live even longer from now on. I am a demon, a great demon above all. You are right, nothing good ever come out love, because the object is human. Yet you are a demon. You are not even worth of their life."
Inuyasha sobbed on Sesshomaru's shoulder. He cried his heart out without any sound.
"Is it alright now?" Inuyasha asked after he calmed down.
"What is it?" Sesshomaru pulled away, looking at Inuyasha's face directly.
"Our life span is the same, but I still have no faith in love. Is it ok? I don't hate you, so please don't leave. There is a painful feeling in my chest… I don't know what to do."
"That is enough for me." Gently, Sesshomaru smiled. It made Inuyasha's heart beat faster. He never saw Sesshomaru smiling like that before. "If you accept me, I will show you the love I have for you. Will you believe me?"
"I—" Inuyasha stared with cheeks slowly painted in red. "I seriously want to vomit after hearing you said cheesy line like that."
"Ck. What a dishonest boy."
"No no, I'm serious. That kind of line doesn't suit me right. It doesn't suit you too." Inuyasha made disgusted gestures, but as soon as he faced Sesshomaru again, he smiled brightly. "Now I can go back with good news for Rin. Don't say that you can't go back to the village anymore, ok?"
"Wait." As soon as Inuyasha stood up, Sesshomaru pulled him back. "How dare you just leave right away, Inuyasha."
"Eh… is there something else? We're fine, now, aren't we?"
Sesshomaru gave the answer right away. He pressed his lips against his brother's. He sucked on it and parted it with a little help from his tongue. The tongues tangled, playing inside the hot cave. Inuyasha grabbed the front of Sesshomaru's haori (which fortunately wasn't covered by his armor) desperately. He did have a kiss or two with Kikyo and Kagome, but kiss with Sesshomaru was on different level. His passion and strength, it was as if he could go for hours just for a kiss.
"Do you dislike it?" Sesshomaru asked after they parted, leaving the younger demon dazed by the kiss. He shook his head and was entranced by Sesshomaru's beautiful eyes. He didn't even realize his sash was already undone. Sesshomaru slipped his hand into Inuyasha's hakama, startling the hanyou.
"W-what— ah!" Inuyasha startled. Naturally, he supposed to stop the hand, but he simply couldn't resist the temptation of being touch by Sesshomaru. He gradually became bigger in Sesshomaru's hand. Just as expected of the technique from The Great White-Dog Demon.
"Ah… Sesshomaru… no good… I feel too much…" Inuyasha's breathes rapidly quickened.
Sesshomaru loosened his sash and led Inuyasha to touch his too. The already red cheeks became even redder. Inuyasha clumsily pumped Sesshomaru's and felt the hotness. He'd never done anything like this before so actually he just mimicked what Sesshomaru did to him.
"Nnn—ahh! S-sesshomaru! Not there!" Inuyasha trembled in anticipation. He closed his eyes and stopped his movement. Sesshomaru's finger reached even below Inuyasha's base. He teased on Inuyasha's butt. "Ngh—!"
Seeing such cute reaction from his partner, Sesshomaru started to nip everywhere. From the collarbone, he went up to the jaw, and finally, to his ear. Those dog ears twitched every time Sesshomaru's hand moved. It looked delicious, so Sesshomaru just went and tasted it. The fur was soft and the texture was chewy. He couldn't get enough of it. He kept nip and bite it.
"You're neglecting your job, Inuyasha." Sesshomaru softly whisper to his ear with a bit of blow. Inuyasha reacted. He moaned at the ticking sensation upon his ear. He tried his best to concentrate pleasuring Sesshomaru just like Sesshomaru pleasured him.
"I want to reach climax with you, Inuyasha," The pure-blood demon whispered again with more sexiness. He used his rough and deep voice to call him. "My dear little brother."
"Ah— me too, Sesshomaru!"
The effect was instant. Inuyasha moved even faster and he even demanded a kiss. Of course the elder granted it with pleasure.
"Sesshomaru- ah! Please, hurry! I can't hold it any longer!"
Being impatient, Inuyasha finally reached his climax along with Sesshomaru. The fluid was thick. They panted harshly, regaining their strength. Sesshomaru held Inuyasha closer, put his head on his chest, letting the younger understand that even a great demon will have his heart pounded eagerly in front of his beloved one.
"So tell me now, Inuyasha. Do you love me?"
"I—" Inuyasha doubtfully answered. He snuggled more. "I guess… so."
Sesshomaru chuckled. "Then, should we continue?"
"Eh? What? There is more?" Inuyasha innocently asked.
His eyes looked pretty sincere, Sesshomaru couldn't help it. He kissed Inuyasha on the forehead. "Of course there is more. But I'm sure we should continue very slowly. We could go back for now."
"Ok then. I am feeling good, so I hope the continuation will also make me feel good." Inuyasha blushed slightly. He made Sesshomaru wanted to jump him right then and there. "Ah, but I think we should clean up first."
Inuyasha removed his clothes quickly and got into the river. Sesshomaru observed him from head to toe just before the body covered in the water.
"You get in here too, Sesshomaru!"
Following the younger lead, Sesshomaru once again got into the river. He watched as Inuyasha cleaned himself.
"Inuyasha," Sesshomaru address the hanyou. He turned around, looking at the other demon with questioning eyes. "Do you love me?"
"S-shut up! Stop asking that question!" Inuyasha turned his back to Sesshomaru then whispered as if talking to himself. "Over and over again… geez… can't you see it already…? Cih…"
I definitely will get the word 'love' pass through your lips to me. Sesshomaru thought as he smiled transparently.
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Author's note:
Hi~! I'm back from the dead! Hahaha~! *cough* kidding… hehe.. but seriously, I'm back from my (very very very) long hiatus, finally. And although three years have passed, I don't feel like my writing has improved *cries*
I'm sorry to make you wait so long, I will greet each of your review privately later. Later ok? I kind of confused of the fanfiction nowadays so I need to learn again to get used to it.
Ah and one more, I'm sorry it was hardly lemon… I will definitely have the lemon omake of it! I promise! Because I'm back, of course I can update sooner :) the thing is, I can't get the lemon into the story, gomennasai! *bows*
Thanks for reading my long-awaited chapter 2 *cough* I'm so happy to see reviews that much *cries* I hope you enjoy reading this continuation too!
And for the omake, I wish to finish it by next weekend. I hope I can get it done sooner though, but… well, let's just see how things will work out. Until then, let's say farewell for now~!