A/N: I can already tell this is gonna be a slow story. Seriously, I shouldn't have bothered. My inspiration comes randomly, and not often enough. *Sigh* another dragged out story..fml. Hopefully I at least get reviews, so I don't feel like a total failure. Luckily, Halloween left me with a dark and eery mood, so this chapter should be..well..somewhat close to that.
Disclaimer: I sadly own nothing
Victory is not as satisfying as I always thought. Not even the sight of dark red blood soaking into the off-white sand can give me any spark of pleasure. I can't help but be reminded of all those years ago, when she fell from the top of Las Noches and landed with a splat, her blood pooling around her head as she shrunk to the pathetic form of a child. It wasn't satisfying back then either. No, victory is not what I thought. The only difference from this time and the last, is I can't bring myself to walk away. There is no sudden cloud of pink dust, no crack in the skull, no annoying Szayel, nothing. Just me and the moon, and the lifeless body in the sand. I wonder, will Hallibel be angry? Will the sexta? The quatro? Any of them? No, I suppose Ulquiorra wouldn't. Grimmjow will undoubtedly be pissed, and Hallibel..I don't know. She has always been hard to read.
I should leave. I should be parading around the abandoned palace, bragging about my kill, and yet I can't bring myself to move. Her empty eyes are staring at me, as if rubbing it in my face. Even in death, she infuriates me. I am a hollow. A heartless, predatorial beast. We don't feel, we don't show mercy, and we certainly don't love. She has always gone against this. She loved her fraccion, and made it seem like it was the normal thing to do. I despised Tesla. He was a mere tool to me. Grimmjow showed no remorse when his fraccion were killed. It is not normal. Granted, Barragan cared for his, and Starrk as well, though I don't know if Lillinette was considered a fraccion. And of course, Hallibel clearly loves her obnoxious fraccion. Perhaps it is a female thing, to show love. Another reason I hate her. Hollows don't show love, yet these females practically give it out.
She loved me...
Like a fool. And yet..her confession left me shocked and dare I say frightened. Never has she shown such emotion. Despite my attempts, she has always remained controlled and stoic. I don't know why she suddenly broke, but the feeling of her clinging to me...and kissing me...leaves me with a feeling I cannot name. And now, looking at her lifeless body, I feel so empty and incomplete. It infuriates me even more. This is not how I wanted it to end. She gave up. I was suppose to over power her, not win because she let me. No, this will not do. I have to bring her back. But who in Hueco Mundo has healing abilities? She should have instant regeneration..but it doesn't look like she does. She saved me and Grimmjow...but how? I know I've seen it before...she's healed people before...but how?
Her saliva has healing properties...
Oh, that's disgusting. That's fucking vile. But it is the only way. How would I even get some out? Ugh..of course, the uvula. This is by far the most degrading thing I've ever done. Thank whatever higher power there is that nobody else can see this. I would kill them. I suppose I should hurry, before her bothersome fracciones come around and see her dead. Or anyone, for that matter. Now, where did I get her? Ah, on the back. Hm, how does her uniform come off? Ugh, I can't believe I'm undressing my worst enemy, with a giant glob of her spit in my hand. I'm definitely taking a shower after this.
Well, I left a good amount on the cut, so I should probably leave her. We will continue this when she's at full strength. Her love, as she calls it, is a joke. I'm not going to let it get in my way of defeating her. If she wants to pull pathetic moves like that, then fine, but I'll have no part in it. She will die, and she will die the way I want her to, or else I will keep bringing her back until she does it right.
"Nnoi...tra.."
...I sonido'd away, not bothering to see if she was awake. A cowardly act, but now is not the time. She needs to rest, as do I, and then I will hunt her down again. I will win and prove that I am the strongest, and when she falls, I will move on to that damn Hallibel. I am the strongest. No female will take that away from me. And yet..she is not just a female. Her sudden confession of love is affecting me in strange ways and I can't shake it off. Then again, she has always affected me in strange ways. From the very first day I became aware of her existence, I absolutely despised her, because she made me feel things I wasn't familiar with. Then she got ranked higher than me...
She is the reason for my destructive behavior and slight insanity. Now she says she loves me, knowing full well I can't possibly reciprocate those feelings. Love is a pointless emotion to me, and every other hollow. It doesn't matter that we have evolved, love still means nothing to us. Yet she is stupid enough to continue clinging to it like a life line. I'll never understand it, and that only angers me more. Every single thing she says or does infuriates me. Even the way she looks is annoying. I think the worst part of it all, is how she makes something inside of me...flutter. My chest constricts, my heart races, my stomach turns, and I get angry. She must die. Then I'll feel normal again.
...Normal?
I can't remember what that feels like.
Hm, oh well. I suppose I should return to my quarters and get some much needed sleep. She must have woken up by now, and is probably walking around, feeling like the dumbass she is. Perhaps I should use my pesquisa to make sure? Not that it matters, I just feel the need to know where she is. Nothing strange about that at all.
Hm, she's still in the same spot...curious...and there's a much more hostile reiatsu, coming straight...for...me...
"Augh!" The air is knocked out of my lungs as a blur tackles me into the wall, effectively smashing it. Well, I saw this coming. Just not soon enough.
"You bastard! Why the hell did you do that?!"
"Why? You really are stupid, aren't you? I despise her, sexta. What do you do to creatures you despise? You kill them. Be glad I was in a good mood and saved her dumb ass"
"Shut up! I told you, if you ever lay a hand on her, I will kill you!" The enraged, blue haired maniac that is Grimmjow yells, keeping me pinned against the floor.
"Oh really! You're gonna kill me? That's funny, since I'm a rank ahead of you! And in case you already forgot, what with that small brain of yours, I just defeated someone who was apparently stronger than me. You don't stand a chance!"
"That's it, I'm gonna—"
"Grimmjow, Nnoitra, stop acting so foolish and get up. You will clean up this mess and return to your own rooms before I show you what true regret feels like" A sudden monotone voice cuts Grimmjow off, and I sneer at the depressing espada. Why can't I just go to sleep already?!
"Fuck off, Ulquiorra" Grimmjow growls, while I pick myself off the now dusty floor. While they bicker, I take the opportunity to make my escape. Stupid asses. I finally make it to my room, and without any grace flop onto my cold bed. Almost instantly, I feel myself drifting off, but then my eye snaps open at the familiar reiatsu behind my door. This, I did not see coming.
"Nnoitra? I...I need to talk to you" My door opens, and then closes, not even waiting for my permission. I sneer, and let out a low growl, warning the very unwanted intruder to go away.
"I refuse to fight you. I just need to talk, just for a little bit"
There's a pause, and I continue glaring at the bitch.
"Hurry the fuck up before I kill your dumb ass again" I finally grumble. Why did I say that? I wanted to say get out, and threaten her, which I partially did. See? The longer she lives, the crazier I get. I can't even say no anymore!
"I just wanted to know...why did you save me? You finally won, so—"
"Bitch I didn't win anything. You pussied out and let me win, and I'm not gonna let that shit fly. So, we're gonna do it again, until you die the right way"
She was silent for a moment, and then her spirit energy darkened, making me blink in confusion. She stood and started walking away, which for some reason made me jump up and take a step towards her. I stopped abruptly however when she sent me a hateful glare, one I have never seen before.
"I will say this once, and once only, so listen well Nnoitra. I will not stay here if you insist on fighting. Since that is your final decision, I am leaving Las Noches, and I am never returning"
Another pause...
"You're what?! Why the fuck—you really are a pussy, aren't you? What reason could you possibly have for running away?!" I scream, taking more steps towards her until she's at arms length. She can't just leave! I'm not finished with her!
"You know full well why I don't want to fight you" She says in a low voice, her head bowed. I feel my face morph into one of shock, and then wipe it off.
"You're still going on about that bullshit? Please. We both know that's the biggest lie in all of Hueco Mundo. You—mmph!" I was suddenly cut off by her lips on mine, once again shocking the hell out of me. That strange feeling I have increases tenfold, and I quickly shove her away.
"Stop doing that!" I growl, wiping my lips furiously.
"Goodbye, Nnoitra" She says, her voice small and defeated. The buzzing sound of sonido fills my ears, and then she's gone. I stand there, frozen and shocked among other things, and then punch the wall with a shout, making a large hole in it. That bitch ran away! Why is she acting so...so...out of character!?
I care for you!
Ah..that's why..but then that would mean...she really does...love me? She's so annoying...but then why do I feel so...strange? It's the same feeling I had when I threw her unconscious body off of Las Noches...I should feel happy since she's gone, but I feel the opposite. But why? I don't think I'll know...unless I confront her...
And kill her properly...
But first, I really do need sleep.
Tomorrow, she dies.
A/N: Ugh, this took so long to finish! Ah Nnoitra, you stupid, stupid spoon. It's love your feeling! LOVE! Well, don't worry, he'll figure it out soon. But before that, a lot more drama has to happen. Bwahahaha! Well, anyone who's reading this, please review!