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The Debt that All Men Pay – Chapter 2
Shadowed darkness engulfed me that night as I slept, my subconscious trapped in the black fogs of my nightmares. I could see Jake in the distance, but with each step I took towards him through the dry mist he seemed to fade farther and farther away, a sad smile creasing his russet face, the face I missed so much, as he waved sadly, slowly before dissipating into the distance.
I woke as he disappeared into the dark, the sheets all around me coated with cold sweat. Tears still stained streaks along my cheeks, even as I slept I had wept. No more tears fell now, my eyes red and dry.
Reaching out blindly through the dark I searched for the comforting cold hand I knew should await me. For a moment I panicked as I felt nothing but air, as though the knife in my heart had been jarred and ripped upon. My breath came in ragged gasps until I remembered the past night, Edward being practically dragged by his family after the funeral. His eyes were dark onyx, shadowed with deep purple bruises. He'd be gone until at least morning.
Minutes passed with slow agony as I lay still, my thoughts a whirling mess within the confines of my mind. I didn't know if I could take much more of this. Everything that showed up before my eyes seemed to remind me of the loss that lodged an arrow in my fickle heart, mocking me, taunting me for my cruel ways.
I had to get out of here. I had to go.
Without giving myself time to reconsider the plot forming in my mind I rose, as quickly as I could manage in my weakened state without collapsing onto the cold floor beneath me. I didn't bother with changing from the light cotton pyjamas hanging off me loosely as I rushed from the room, plucking my truck keys from the bedside table.
Down the stairs I went, silent save the faint creaks of protest as my weight touched down on each stair. The doors lock clicked open silently, not so much as a groan as I swung it shut behind me without really realizing what I was doing. I grimaced at the roar my ancient truck made as the engine caught. Here we go.
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The needle on the speedometer climbed higher and higher, the iron monster of a vehicle screaming in uninhibited protest as I reached the dreaded speed limit on the ancient truck. Rain beat down hard upon the cracked glass of the windshield faster than the wipers could sweep it back, distorting all vision I had on the dark, moonless night. Heavy clouds covered the stars with relentless dark. The forest passed
in a blur on either side of the road, the deep ditches a wide expanse on each edge of gravelled, cracked cement.
And still my eyes were dry, red and puffed in my pale face. Limps waves of brown hair framed my heart shaped face, shoulders hunched forward over the steering wheel. Dry sobs racked my body, each muscle shaking and convulsing. This didn't feel right. When I left, I thought I could get away from the memories plaguing Forks, but they only followed me as I drove farther and farther away from the town that had both brought me together with the one who made my heart complete, as well as been the location of the worst kind of utter pain I had even experienced. A pain ripping my heart in two, leaving only the gaping cavity in my chest. It had closed and healed, slowly, steadily, but surely. But now, the one who had stitched his magic into my life was gone, and with him took the healing that had put me back together. Even though I had chosen Edward, and did not doubt my choice in any way, at any time, I had fallen apart all over again when it was clear that never again would my best friend, my pillar of strength, would ever stand by my side again, never pick me up with I fell down.
And it hurt.
I could feel the hot tears pricking their way back into my eyes, and I pinched my lids together in a vain, last attempt to hold them back. I had promised myself the last tears had been shed, that no more would fall in memory to the one that was already gone and wouldnt ever return.
For that one moment that darkness was complete, I could almost feel the mud sliding beneath the tires as they slid and spun wildly beneath the truck. My eyes opened and time seemed to move in slow motion. The world passed in a blur through the windshield, darkness and rain distorting it all. For a moment it seemed peaceful before the twisting metal closed in around me, heat and noise rushing in on me all at once. One moment I was sitting in the vehicle, flying through the air, the next the glass shattered all around me and the truck was left behind as I continued my flight.
The ground, soft and mucked with rain rushed to meet me as I slammed into the earth, darkness flooded my vision as the world faded from all view.
Authors Note: not that long of a chapter, but it explained what I wanted it to say. And no, she's not dead. Please review!