A/N:Aaaaaaan here I am giving you lovely readers chapter 2 for the soul. Enjoy! and thank you for your likes / follows / and reviews! I really enjoy reading them. Also, once again, I'm honestly sorry about discontinuing CWTS, I did get some comments saying to please continue and that they're said I'm stopping the story, but, I honestly do not want to keep writing it I wasn't happy with it all, so, sorry again!

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Ch. 2: What Have I Done?

Edd's conversation with Nat played over and over again in his head as he laid awake at night. He simply stared at his bare, white ceiling in the dark as he thought about what to say, what to do, and what could possibly happen. He was a worrier, and he knew it, but it was also in his nature to plan, to think.

He turned to his right and sighed deeply, 'What do I even tell him?... Greetings Eddy! I just wanted to inform you that I have been rather infatuated with you for the past year and a half, but I'm hoping this won't be awkward or anything!...blah!' He turned to his left, hugging a stuffed penguin Ed had helped him win at the Peach Creek fair last summer. 'I do not wish to make it awkward…How will Eddy even react?... I don't think he has a problem with peoples' sexuality…But he is heterosexual…now, now Eddward, do not discourage yourself like this! Think of what Nathan said! Your feelings are real and valuable…I must tell him…I have kept it in for too long…and even if he does reject me at least I will finally have it out of my system.' He buried his face against his penguin's soft fabric. To think that he would be in this emotional predicament, and to think that of all the people it could've happened with, it turned out to be Eddy, his polar opposite. It just didn't make sense, and Eddward was a man of science, of logic and facts! But this…this confused him…and it hurt him.

The longer he went without telling Eddy, the more he continued to like him, and so the heavier the chip on his shoulder got. 'Enough is enough.'

For the entirety of the school day Edd had been acting awkward and nervous, and every time Nat kept asking him about the confession during their second period together for English it just got worse, especially when Kevin almost found out. He didn't want the redhead having one more thing to use against him or to tease him with; Edd had to admit Kevin had calmed down from his childhood years as a bully, but he was still Kevin.

"So are you gonna do it or what?!" Nat whispered harshly, smiling at Edd.

"I told you I would." Edd answered, trying now to get caught by their teacher while they were supposed to be working.

"When?!"

"Afterschool, I think I'll ask him to come to my place or something."

"No! do it during lunch time!"

"What?!" Edd said, almost a little too loud, seeing as a few heads started turning, not really knowing where the sound came from, but they still noticed. "W-what?" he repeated a little more quietly.

Nat snickered, "Do it at lunch time!"

"Do what at lunch time?" Questioned Kevin, "Nat stop bothering him before he gives you a sermon on paying attention to your own work."

Edd puffed his cheeks and sighed, "I would not do that! A simple 'do your work' would suffice thank you very much."

Nat pouted, "I wasn't bothering him Keeevvv, and stay out of this! This is a private conversation between me and Double Cutie, and last time I checked you were a cutie, but not double." He smirked teasingly at his friend.

Kevin smacked Nat lightly at the back of the head, but know that this was now a private, secret thing that was being discussed right next to him made him extremely curious. 'What are these two up to…'

Edd was at his locker leaving his Biology book in exchange for his English books for his homework that night; he could feel his hands slightly shaking as he reached for the books and into his bag, and he could hear his heartbeat clearly in his ears. Part of him didn't understand why he was even this nervous; Eddy was his best friend whom he had known since way early in his childhood, and this should be helpful to him. Even if it didn't go well, he could be able to properly move on…but…obviously a bigger part of him hoped it went well…even if it was just wishful thinking.

He sadly looked down to his feet and sighed. Edd didn't like wishful thinking. It never ended well, like when he was younger and wished his parents would be home more often.

Suddenly his phone buzzed from inside his pocket, and he anxiously turned on the screen, but felt a lot better once he read the new text was not from Eddy.

Nathan: This is totally happening! GOOD LUCK DOUBLE CUTIE WITH A BOOTIE 3

Edd chuckled and rolled his eyes, but he was honestly thankful for Nat's support, and was glad the teal-haired boy had actually been helpful and a good person to talk to about his little secret.

He took in a deep breath and gathered his courage. This was indeed going to happen!

Edd met Eddy outside by the parking lot where the two friends drove back home in Eddy's 2002 Nissan he got as a birthday present from his parents.

"Where's Ed?" Asked the beanie-clad boy as he looked out the car window at the passing buildings. 'Thank the Lord it's a quick drive back to the cul-de-sac."

"Sir Monobrow has football practice today remember?"

"Oh, right…" 'Thank the Lord for that too.' He'd talk to Ed another time soon.

They finally reached Edd's house and they exited the car, but as Edd was walking to his front door to unlock it, he realized his friend was still standing next to his car, giving him an odd look.

"Uhm, is something wrong Eddy?"

"You tell me."

"Pardon?"

"You've been acting pretty weird Double D. What's up?"

"I'll tell you once we're inside ok?"

Eddy crossed his arms and cocked his eyebrow at his friend, "Just tell me heeeere."

'Oh dear…I was really hoping this would be a lot more private…'

Edd looked to his left and then his right, checking that they were the only ones currently outside the cul-de-sac. 'Coast is clear…very well.'

"I must speak with you about a rather important…and personal…matter." Edd tried his best to keep eye contact, but couldn't help but to start fidgeting with his fingers.

"Alright?..."

"Eddy…uhm…We've been good friends for most of our lives now-"

"Best."

"What?"

"Best friends." Eddy smirked.

Edd smiled fondly, "Ahah, yes, best friends. You and Ed have been like brothers to me, but, well…There are things that I have not come clean about to the both of you."

His friend's face became serious, "Is something wrong? Are you sick? Are you moving? WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL US YOU'RE MOVING AWAY YOU ASSHOLE?"

"BECAUSE I'M NOT, NOW PLEASE SHUT UP AND LET ME SPEAK!" Edd sighed and cleared his throat, "Now…I just wanted to tell you that…well…first of all… I'm bisexual."

Eddy rose his eyebrows into a surprised look, and shortly after started to snicker, but quickly stopped once he saw the annoyed and hurt look on Edd's face. "No, no! I didn't mean it like that Double D! I mean…yeah I was kinda getting that vibe from you, yknow? But to actually hear it coming from you, heh, guess my intuition was right! I still got that brilliant sixth sense!"

Edd couldn't help but laugh a little, he felt weird over what Eddy had said that he was getting a "vibe" but he was more than glad that his friend didn't seem to have any issues regarding his sexuality.

"Wait, you said "first of all" right? So there's more?"

Edd's laughter died out in a split second, and he bit his lower lip before speaking, "Yes, there is actually. Now, I don't know how you will react to this, and I am honestly hoping you don't make this a big deal. I truly do not wish for this to affect our friendship in any way shape or form!"

"Dude! Just calm down and spill it out, how bad can it be?"

"I like you."

Silence engulfed them for what seemed like eternity. The breeze was gone. The cul-de-sac seemed deserted. It was like a sudden spotlight had come on over Double D and was keeping him frozen in place. Eddy's face was unreadable, and not a sound escaped from him either.

"E-Eddy?"

"Wow…"

"Like I said, please do not make a big deal out of-"

"How long?"

"…About…a year and a half now?"

"Year and a half?!"

"I'm sorry?"

"No, no, don't apologize. Don't. I'm sorry." Eddy sighed and looked down, rubbing his face as he did so.

'I knew this was going to happen.'

"Eddy. I'm sorry, please forget I said anything."

"How am I supposed to forget something like that?" Eddy's voice was quiet and his hand still covered his face. "Why are you telling me this?..."

"Pardon? Why not?" Edd asked somewhat harshly.

"Because you know I don't like you like that. You know I don't like any guy like that. You know who I like, you know it's not you, and you know it's not a guy."

That hurt Edd like 3 daggers of rejection all at once. He swallowed the new lump in his throat and spoke softly, "Forgive me Eddy. How unthoughtful of me." He said sourly. A simple "No, I'm sorry" would've been more than enough. He felt exhausted now, and just wished to go to his bed. 'Never do wishful thinking Eddward. Never."

Eddy looked up at his friend right after he stopped talking, but the look on his face was one of confusion, and even guilt. "I-no. I'm sorr. I…I'm going home." He quickly entered his car in a flustered state and drove off deeper into the cul-de-sac without so much as a goodbye, leaving Edd still frozen in place, trying to hold back fresh tears. 'Now you've done it Eddward. You should've never said anything. You should've just let these feelings die…It would've been better this way. It always is. School is your main priority right now; love can wait.

He sniffled and wiped his sleeved arm over his eyes. He was trying so hard to contain his feelings, but the pain of the heartache and especially the thought that he might've ruined his friendship with Eddy was even more unbearable.

Unbeknownst to the two men, a certain redhead had witnessed the whole event from his house across the street to Edd's. He had football practice that afternoon, but because of a dentist appointment he had to skip it. When he came home he found the boys talking and it seemed it to be quite serious since neither at them had even turned at the sound of the roaring of his motorcycle or even noticed his presence. Kevin remembered that weird moment during class and Nat and Edd's "private conversation" and judging by the scene, his best guess was that it had to do with Eddy. His curiosity once again got the best of him, and he carefully hid behind a large bush in front of his home, straining his ear to pick up the conversation as best he could. And what he learned he never would've guessed. Not only was Double D, the cul-de-sac-genius and king of Dorks bisexual, but he liked Eddy of all fucking people. Kevin had nothing against his sexual preference, it was his crush that he had so much trouble comprehending. 'Oh man, this is SO WEIRD.' He thought to himself, scrunching his nose in disgust at anyone having feelings for Eddy.

And it was his curiosity that kept him watching till the very end, and he could see the hurt in Edd's face. He waited till the boy finally walked inside his home and closed the door before moving away from the bush and dusting off his pants. Kevin was going to just turn on his heel and walk up to his own room, but something stopped him…pity perhaps? It could be; Kevin had gone through some heartache before with Nazz. He knew it hurt. He couldn't imagine how Edd must be feeling after confessing to his long time friend who isn't even into guys. Something, made him turn on his heel over to Edd's house instead.

'What am I even doing here…He'll be all what the fuck are you doing here?...except without the swearing…ugh.' He knocked twice on the door and waited for it to be opened. 'He probably won't even answer. He's probably already in his room with a bucket of ice-cream crying himself to sleep. Nobody wants to talk to people after a rejection.' But just then, the door opened to reveal a sniffling, pink-eyed Edd.

"Oh, Kevin…How may I help you?" He could tell Edd was trying hard to keep the pain out of his voice.

"I uhh…I just…came to see how you were doing."

Edd gave Kevin a very confused stare, "I've been better I suppose…but…why are you checking up on me? Did something happen I am not aware of?"

"Uhm…I uhh…I might've…maybe…seen what happened… with Eddy."

Edd's eyes widened and his face flushed a deep red, "Oh. Please do not speak of this to anyone. And I implore you don't use it against me…please…good day." Edd was trying to quickly shut the door but Kevin put his foot in the way to prevent him from doing so.

"Wait wait wait! Dork I would not use this against you I just came to see if you were ok! I may be an asshole to you sometimes but even I'm not heartless you know. Besides…I know the feel bro."

Edd looked at Kevin with a weary expression, but sighed, and let him in, "You can sit on the couch if you wish to…want a drink?"

"Water's fine, thanks."

Both boys walked in silence; Kevin sitting on the couch, looking around the unfamiliar room, and Double D walkin into the kitchen for 2 glasses of cold water from the fridge. He joined Kevin on the couch, but didn't dare make eye contact.

"So…you really won't hold this against me?" He asked weakly.

"Of course not…Double D I don't give a shit who you or anyone in this planet is into…what I am confused about is why Skipper of all people. I mean, he's rude, obnoxious, loud, cocky, short-tempered, annoying, I mean the list could go on and on!" Kevin said chuckling.

Edd pouted, "He may be all of those as you claim…but he is also determined, loyal, cunning, smart in his own way, and one my very dearest best friends!...Or…was, at least…I don't know…"

Kevin nodded, and took a sip of his water, "Still, I'm just saying, you could do so much better. Like…the captain of the chess club or something!"

Edd scoffed, "Michael? He does not interest me in the slightest."

"Better than grumpy Mcgrumpypants."

Edd sighed, getting a little annoyed with his surprise guest, "Eddy's still Eddy, yes…but he has gotten better, and he has matured, it's just that not many people actually take notice of him or give him the chance to prove he has changed. But I have…"

"Eddy will always be Edd. Just like you will always be you and I will always be me. People don't change that easily, especially someone like Eddy."

"Someone like Eddy?" Edd furrowed his brows at the redhead.

"If he didn't change from age 5 to age 16 then do you truly believe he has changed? Sure maybe a few improvements here and there, but if he really did change, then he wouldn't be Eddy."

"Or maybe you're just one of those people who don't give others the chance to prove themselves and simply judge them based on your own assumptions and past with the individual. Not really taking into consideration a certain thing called "growing up" or "growing out of it"."

"Or maybe some dorks just stay as stupid dorks they're whole fucking lives-HEY WHAT THE HELL MAN?!"

Edd had stood up and poured the remainder of his glass of water over Kevin's head. Kevin glared up at Edd's cold and annoyed eyes, feeling the ice even in his voice as he spoke to him, "I think it's time for you to get out."

"Fucking Christ, why did you do that!"

"Leave."

"Double D-"

" Leave. N o w."

It took a moment for Kevin to realize that his stupid mouth probably got the best of him again, and instead of comforting someone, he just ended up making it worse. 'How typical of me…shit.'

He huffed through his nose, but did as he was told; he stood up from the couch, not even looking at Double D and exited the house, slamming the door shut behind him.

"Idiot…"