I jumped up in my bed for the second time tonight. I was covered in sweat and had, for the thousandth time in my life the feeling of being watched. God this dream won't go away will it? I've been having this recurring dream for about a month now and it still never fails to wake me up and scare the shit out of me.
In my dream I'm walking in what looks like the forest that's near my house. Then without warning six or so giant wolves jump out of the brush nearby, the wolves are moving so quickly that it almost seems like they're chasing something, but what. I follow the wolves easily matching them stride for stride. It takes a while but we finally reach the forest's edge, and that's when I see him. The man my ancestors, or the people I've been calling my ancestors, have been telling me about for years, Nathan Gray. The man or should I saw vampire who single handedly killed three of my ancestors. He's standing by the edge looking at something or someone with the most insane smirk I'd ever seen. It's then that he turns slightly towards the wolves that I can see exactly what he's looking at. It's my house, and I'm outside. It takes a little while every time for me to realize that I'm his next target, that he has found me and now is planning on taking my life, but of course every time I come to that realization my vision fades and I awake once more. But not tonight, tonight my dream lasted for just a second longer, and to my surprise what I saw next horrified me even more than the last. Nathan and I were both lying in coffins right next to each other. It's been so frustrating and I can't decide which is worse, knowing what is going to happen before it does or knowing what is going to happen before it does and not being able to do a damn thing to stop it.
Never the less I had to tell Old Quil what I had seen it might be beneficial to the wolves. Or maybe I shouldn't I mean for the last month Quil has done nothing to help me. The last time I had even seen or heard from him was over a week ago, before I could barely get an hour alone to myself, weather it was him coming to my house for training or a phone call asking me questions until my phone died. Now he won't return my calls or answer his door when I knock. I'm starting to think that I'm truly alone now. Before I thought of Quil as a father figure, my father wasn't much of a dad even when he was here and mother, I felt never really liked me. I mean I know she loves me; she just doesn't really care. Quil was my last little bit of almost family that I had, and now he's left me. I would seem that I can't ever keep people who matter to me with me.
My mind flashed back to the worst time in my life, when Old Quil first came into my life and saved me from myself. I most certainly would have gone crazy if it wasn't for him. I stopped the images just as quickly as they had arrived.
Never the less I picked up my cell from my bedside table and dialed the all too familiar phone number. As I expected my call was sent straight to voicemail.
"Hey Quil, it's me." Even I could hear the pitiful tone of my voice "I just wanted to tell you I had the same dream as always." I waited for a few seconds to see if he would pick up. "Okay well call me when you get the chance." I hung up the phone and put it back on the table.
'You aren't helpless' I told myself 'Get up and do something.' With a huff I got out of my bed and dressed in my running clothes. Putting my iPod in and grabbing my phone and stuffing it into my pocket I rushed out of my house without a goodbye to or from my mom. I had to release all this frustration that had built up over the last few days.
I ran as fast as I could into the woods surrounding my house. I ran without direction; jumping, leaping, and dodging through the forest at breakneck speeds. Blurs of green flashed past as I made my way towards an undecided location.
But something about today seemed different, now I don't want to be all over dramatic and talk about this day being the beginning of my new life, it just seemed, I don't know… I guess better would be the word to describe it. It seemed as if instead of moping around by myself all day I was going to do something incredible. Maybe it was me just getting out of the groove I've been in for the past month.
Well somewhere in my musing it would seem that my run had turned into a jog and that my route had suddenly been directed towards first beach. It seemed like a great, and rare, sunny day in Las Push so I decided, why not. I mean what harm comes from lying on a beach all day getting some rays.
….
I'd been soaking in the sun for countless hours just enjoying what a beautiful day it was. And I didn't plan on moving for a while and when I say that I meant until much later than the sun was trying to stay up. That was until I had a vision, now a vision while I was still awake was alarming but my vision made my heart pound furiously in my chest: twenty or so giant wolves were running through the forest at such high speeds that they had to either be chasing something or late for one of Sam's crazy pack meeting at first beach… first beach the exact spot I was.
I froze.
I was so fucked and I knew it. Wolves were running around La Push so it was impossible for me to run to the safety of my home. And if they were coming here then they would certainly find me and that is something Quil expressly forbids. I was to help the wolves from afar but never interact with them. Just like the outsider I am… 'No No, stop feeling sorry for yourself and think.'
Well I had two options; one, flee from first beach and try to run home or two, stay here and pray that they wouldn't come here.
I like option two. And if anything I could run to water, none of the wolves would be stupid enough to come in after me, especially since the wolves had an extreme disadvantage. So I waited. I waited for hours. Eventually I got tired of just waiting so while I was trapped on the beach I decided to have some fun. Since the beach crowd was diminishing I didn't have much in the sense of entertainment but I did see some kids my age around a fire pit, why I had no idea since it was only about three in the afternoon, but regardless I decided to go make some temporary friends.
I walked slowly over but before I even got half way there I noticed most of the girls in the group had already noticed me and were staring at me intently.
Why not have a little fun with this. While I walked I stripped my tee shirt off and gave them all the best smile I could manage, and as expected two of the girls got up from their seats and half ran over to me.
"Hi" the first girl squealed excitedly.
She was pretty; she had long straight brown hair with a full set of white pearly teeth framed by full lips formed in a perfect smile. I gotta say if I were into women I would definitely go after her.
"So are you new here, cause I haven't seen you at all?" she asked still eye fucking the shit out of me.
Now I don't want to sound conceited but I had a good body. I had had abs, pecks, arms everything a guy would want, the only thing I wish I had was a bit of hair on my body. It's not that I hated it; it's just that I looked like a bottom bitch. Don't get me wrong I'm more of the docile bottom guy in the relationship. I just didn't have that possessive streak in me, but would it kill anybody if I had maybe a little hair on my chest.
The two girls were still looking at me waiting for an answer.
"Sorry. Y-y-yeah I'm new. Just m-moved here." I lied lowering my eyes trying to act like the shy newcomer. I used it a million times when I needed to blend in when the wolves were around town and I didn't want them seeing me. And of course just like every time I worked to perfection. Both girls smiled wildly each taking an arm and leading me over to their group of friends.
"Hey guys this is…" the blonde began but obviously couldn't finish due to the fact that I had never given it.
"Hi" I gave a half wave "My n-name's Desmond." I had to retain the shy personality at least until I 'let my guard down.'
"Well, Desmond." The blonde said my name in a very aggressive tone. "Let me introduce you to our group." She sent a very seductive smirk my way "This is Tyler, Mike, Angela, her boyfriend Ben, that's Jessica," she pointed at the brunette on my other side. "And my name's Lauren. And those are…" I didn't bother listening to all the rest of the names see said pointing to each person as she did do
"And that's Bella." The brunette pointed out a girl who was walking over towards them. I didn't miss the roll of the eyes from Lauren or the smiles from all the guys in the group. Clearly she was a favorite, well maybe amongst the guys the same unfortunately could be say about most of the girls.
"Bella!" the brunette yelled and ran off and grabbed the smaller brunette and yanked the other over towards us, with a few stumbles and close falls the two girls finally made it over to us. "Bella this is Desmond, Desmond this is Bella." Jessica said gesturing to each person in turn.
"Pleasure." I said in a subdued tone
"Same" she responded turning a slight shade of pink as she took in my shirtless appearance.
"Does my being half naked bother you?" I asked in a smartass tone, just trying to make her laugh
"Probably, she's most likely never even made it to second base with her boyfriend." Lauren whispered so no one except me could hear.
Ignoring Lauren I had my attention on Bella. It surprised me when she laughed then just stopped and looked away.
Everyone seemed to ignore Bella as the day went on. The only ones who paid her the least bit of attention were the pretty girl with glasses, her boyfriend, and a kid with spiky blonde hair. I couldn't remember their names but they seemed nice enough. I unfortunately had the spotlight shone on me almost the whole time. Everyone asking every single question that they could manage to think of. Finally Mike and Tyler decided it was time to get Jessica and Lauren wet by abruptly and tossing them into the ocean, with them quickly following.
I finally got the chance to finally sit down. This group of kids was defiantly the most exhausting out of all those I'd blended with. I didn't even know if the wolves had even come to first beach they were that crazy. But I finally took in my surroundings and I still didn't see any freakishly huge boys so I was good.
While the others were in the ocean I took the opportunity to talk to Bella who was seated on one of the logs around the fire pit. I took the seat across from her and waited for her to say something. Luckily I hadn't been holding my breath cause she didn't say a damned thing to me we just sat there in silence. The silence wasn't awkward but at the same time it wasn't comfortable, it was kind of like the breath before the plunge. Waiting for the other person to say something yet neither of us spoke afraid of breaking the silence.
Well someone had to break the silence, might as well be me.
I took a deep breath end stood up and plopping on the log next to her. That's when I noticed it, I had a better sense of smell than humans but not as good as the wolves or vampires but I smelled this. It was faint maybe from the night before but I most certainly smelled a vamp on her but that's not what surprised me. That coupled with the fact that I could clearly smell the wolves. And when I say wolves I mean wolves, as in plural.
"Is something the matter?" Bella asked knocking me from my musing.
"No, nothing at all…" my sentence fell short as I spotted Seth Clearwater walking up towards us. Quickly I acted like my phone vibrated and pretended to look at it. "Um I gotta go." I got up from the log and started walking carefully and casually walked towards the woods. "Tell the others it was nice to meet them." I yelled over my shoulder
"Desmond!" I heard one of the girls yell after me but it was too late for me to turn back now.
Well this is another of my twilight stories and for the life of me I can't see what is so fascinating about these gay love stories. I mean as a gay guy I like them but my friends really like them. And why is it that all my gay friends like these but all my straight girl friends LOVE these kinds of stories. Well I guess that's just the way the cookie crumbles. Well guys I hope you like this and please read and review XD oh and if anyone can name the quote from the twilight book in this chapter I'll give a sneak peek to the next chapter XP