"TILLY! you're kidding me right?!" "no jen I'm so sorry please hear me out" at this point Jen was too annoyed to stay and listen to anymore of this and began to get up collect her belongings and storm out,Tilly ran after her and pulled her arm "NO get off me! You let me believe you where at university? How could you be so cruel! Are you actually that stupid to not realise that nothing can happen between us with me working at your college!" Tilly was taken back at how mean Jen was being she didn't expect her to act like this? "Jen look,I'm 17 you only have me for one period" Jen started to laugh but in a mocking way "you really are a kid aren't you? Tilly how could you be so naive! As for me teaching you? Are you actually seriously expecting this to work! Delete my number and don't you dare contact me again!" Tilly's eyes filled with tears and she stood motionless how could she be so mean? "Jen please I'm sorry ok" Jen tugged her arm out of Tillys grip and looked Tilly up and down "you're a kid Tilly,nothing more now stay away from me" Jen realised that she was being horrible to Tilly and maybe this wasn't the way to go about it but she couldn't stop the words from leaving her mouth so decided to leave before she could say anything else.
Tilly stood outside the coffee shopping allowing her tears to stream down her face,Jens words had stung her more than she could ever imagine taking a deep breath Tilly made her way home,she felt sick and needed to go home and lie down in order to take in everything that had just happened.
Jen ran through her door causing Dianne to jump "luv are you aright?!" "Uh uh yea I'm going upstairs for a lie down,feeling abit ill" "ok en luv if ya need me just call" "thanks" Jen practically ran into her bedroom and onto her bed where she cried more than she'd ever cried before,she remembered all the hurtful things she'd said to Tilly and began to beat herself up inside for being so cruel,even though she'd only knew Tilly a few days she felt she loved her? Love? No jennifer this is stupid she's your student and a kid! You don't love her you where just fond of her she thought to herself,after a good hour of crying and beating herself up inside she had exhausded herself so much that she fell asleep,still dressed.
Tilly however was feeling like a deflated balloon,going over and over everything Jen had said to her she knew everything Jen had said was right but she never expected it to hurt so much? After all she'd only known her a few days why did it hurt so much? She didn't lov- no Tilly of course you don't 'love' Tilly allowed herslef to say the word,a word she never thought she'd say! No of course I don't love her Tilly told herself,just as Jen did Tilly had exausted herself and fell asleep also,still dressed.
It was morning. Tilly woke happy,happy for a split second until she remembered everything and the pain came flooding back. Jen,jen,jen,jen was all she could think and having to see jen in college! she hated that thought. Eventually she managed to drag herself out of bed and have a shower to begin to get ready for college.
Jen had awoke during the night and had a shower and change of clothes by 5am she was dress and ready for college she couldn't sleep because her thoughts revolved around the beautiful red head,her big blue eyes and big red lips that she longed to kiss and... 'no' Jen thought to herself as she shook her head in an attempt to rid all thoughts of Tilly. She couldn't and wouldn't allow herself! Jen sighed loudly as she pulled herself out of bed to prepare her work stuff.
'Hey Tills,want to grab a coffee before heading to college? My treat' George asked Tilly as enthusiastic as he always is in the mornings,the walk to college was long,very long longer than usually. All Tilly could thing about was jen and how beautiful she was and how much she wanted to kiss her but instead she had to listen to george talk and talk about his and Ryans perfect relationship and how in love they where. Even though tilly loved George,she loved all her friends its just the last thing she wanted was to hear about how perfect somebody else's relationship was when all she wanted was Jen!. Tilly saw Maddie at the gates and took this as an opportunity to get away from the soppy talk from george. Her and Maddie instantly got into a full blown conversation.
Tilly wanted so much to tell her bestfriend about everything that had happened but she knew Maddie would be annoyed at the way Jen had treated her so decided the best thing would be to keep it to herself but this was becoming trickier than she had thought it would be. Her bestfriend new her all to well and knew when she was keeping something from her so as usual Maddie began to question Tilly.
"So who is it? Or should I ask what's happened?" "Um? What are you talking about Mads?" Tilly new full well what Maddie was talking about but decided to play dumb. "you've been off for a while now,like you're keeping something from me? What's on your mind ginge,come on share it with your bestie madssss" Tilly smiled she loved the way Maddie knew her so well but despite how much she loved Maddie she couldn't tell her this,not yet,not until she'd seen Jen today OH NO Tilly blurted out as she remembered she had a period with Jen today,how could she see her? After yesterday?. "Tills? Tills? Why did you randomly shout oh no?!" "Um I just remembered I have an assignment to finish by monday" Tilly hated lieing to her bestfriend but she knew she had to. "You mrs red have to let your hair down once in a while,hey seen as so its friday tonight you are coming over sineads with me and the rest of the gang! I forgot to ask you yesterday because you rushed off so soon" "oh Mads I'm not sure,I have a lot of work to do" Tilly really wasn't feeling drinking she was never the type to get drunk and hated being around drunken people. "Please Tills for me?" Maddie pouted at her ginger bestfriend,Tilly thought about it for a few seconds and decided she owed it to her for keeping secrets from her AND lieing "fine! But I'm not drinking loads and I'm not letting you lead me a stray" Tills winked at Mads "oh would I ever my fav ginger lesbiannnn"
The two linked arms and made their way to their first lesson,Tilly hoped this lesson would go extremely slow as she knew her second lesson was with Jen,she'd have to sit and listen to the women she so longed for as if it was something her life depended on,but after yesterday? Jen must really hate her and was probably going to give Tilly the silent treatment or maybe she'd told kealer? Maybe she's refusing to teach her!. First lesson was hard for Tilly to concentrate as her mind kept going over all the possibilities that where awaiting for her for second period.
*BEEEEEP* Before she knew it the bell had gone that signalled students to make their way to their second sighed and the palms of her hands began to sweat,collecting her things and books she left the class room and slowly,very slowly she made her way to Jens classroom.