Kenzi sat looking out the window. After leaving the Janus fae's house Vex and her had went back to his apartment that he kept in London. She should be sleeping, she was tired and stressed, but too many thoughts were running through her mind, too many questions and not enough answers. Bring brought back from the dead tended to do that to a person.
She watched as the rain pattered against the window and fell over the city of London. It befitted her mood. She knew she should be ecstatic, she was ALIVE, Vex loved her, and in the morning they would start making the arrangements to return home. However, she was worried and stressed. She knew that there would be repercussions for what had happened. The least of which was explaining to everyone at home about her and Vex being soul bound, and frankly being soul bound worried her as well.
Growing up on the streets made a person see attachment as a weakness, a liability. She had gotten better while living with Bo, but look at what had happened to Hale. One minute he was there and the next, because of her, he was gone. Everyone who had ever loved her had left her, died, or put themselves in danger because of her. She just didn't know if she was ready to have a relationship, one that bound her in such a way to another, especially Vex. She loved him too much to see him hurt because of her. She had already seen in his eyes that what he had been through to bring her back would haunt him for a long time to come. She didn't want to cause another person she loved their life.
Add to that fact that she was no longer human, and not quite sure what she was, and she was a mess. Even though for years she had wanted to be fae, to become one of them, now that she was one… at least somewhat, she was sad. She didn't want to lose the human part of her; she never wanted to gain the attitude that she was somehow better than all the other humans. Everything kept running through her head making her crazy. She let out a sigh and she leaned her head against the rain streaked glass as tears began to run down her face.
Vex leaned against the doorframe as he watched her gazing out the window. He still couldn't wrap his head around the fact that she was back ….and here with him. He could sense her sadness and worry from across the room but knew she needed time to try to sort everything out. There was so much to sort out for the both of them. He didn't want her to know that he was still fighting off images from his past and in enough pain to make cutting off his hand look like a love tap. He had to stay strong for her.
Insecurity rushed through him as he watched her sigh and tears run down her face. A feeling that was as foreign to him as his love for her was. He didn't know how to handle this, this soft mushy feelings stuff. He wasn't any good at it. He was good at killing, creating chaos, and caring about only himself, not anyone else, especially not someone who was his heart. He had ignored his own heart for too long to know how to address it now.
He worried that she would end up hating him for this; that she would learn who he truly was, see him as others saw him. He didn't think he could be what she needed and deserved. He was worried about what the others would say and do when they learned that he and Kenzi were soul bound. Probably accuse him of some nefarious plot. He still didn't much care about their opinions, but knew that Kenzi would.
Vex pushed himself off the door frame and made his way toward her as he saw her shoulders begin to shake. He reached out a hand and lightly laid it on her shoulder, just to let her know he was there. After a second Kenzi reached up wrapping her hand around his and turned to face him. No words were spoken as she buried her head against his chest and wept. Vex wrapped him arms around her, offering the only comfort that he knew how, praying that it was enough, that he was enough.
Dawn had begun to paint the sky when she had finally cried herself to sleep against him. Neither of them had spoken during the night, no words had been needed. He had carried her into the bedroom and cradled her against him, lightly stoking her hair, until he too had fallen asleep.
The next day the Kenzi woke still cradled in Vex's arms. She softly unfolded his arms from around her and turned so she could see him. Dark shadows stood out under his eyes, and there were lines of pain and worried etched on his face. She ran a hand along his forehead, as she did so the lines lessened and the softest smile played across his lips.
He had held her all night, comforted her as she cried her heart out. She would have never thought he was capable of showing such tenderness as he had. Just looking at him now brought flutters to her heart. She loved him, and now in the light of day everything was full of hope, there was still worry, but hope was there as well. She knew that with him beside her they could conquer anything. Even convincing Bo, Dyson, and Trick that what they had was real. She was excited to go see Bo and the team, she knew they must all be suffering still, and she wanted to end that as soon as possible.
The next few weeks and probably months would be stressful. Her and Vex needed some serious alone time to sort things out and figure out how to handle everything, but first she needed to get home. To see Bobo, D-man, Trickster, and even Lauren and let them know she was alive. To find out where they stood on the whole Vexter Kenzi smash up. First however, she had to wake a certain Mesmer up.
Kenzi bent and ligtly kissed Vex along his cheek "Hey Vexy, time to wake up" she whispered as she trailed kisses along his jaw. She felt a change in his breathing and looked up into his eyes. For a moment they just sat there lost in each other's gaze.
"Hello love" Vex said as he grabbed her hand and brought it to his lips, kissing it softly. "How are you feeling?" He asked with worry tinging his voice.
She smiled at him again "Better, my man, better thanks to you. Now get yo ass up. Mama needs some pancakes." She laughed down at him, pleased to see the worry ease from his eyes and a grin appear on his lips.
"Pancakes huh, is that what kids these days are calling it?" He laughed as he quickly turned her over and pinned her down. "Well you just so happen to be in luck dearie, for I am the pancake master." Vex said as he leaned down and kissed her.
Kenzi sank into the kiss that left her breathless. Her entire body tingled with the knowledge that this was Vex, he was hers. She had dreamed about this since he had lived in the clubhouse with her and Bo. The kiss deepened and she could taste the singular taste that was pure Vex.
Suddenly Vex pulled back and looked down at her grinning before he jumped out of bed with a flourish and proclaimed "Cinnamon!" and laughed at the confused look on Kenzi's face.
He reached out and tweaked her nose. "the secret ingredient to my pancakes is Cinnamon." He stated before bounding form the room. Kenzi groaned and threw a pillow at him before slumping back into the bed only to be greeted with a mischievous laugh that was typical Vex.
"Come on love, I learned to make pancakes from François Vatel himself. Well prior to him running himself through with a sword over a dish being served late. He was always a bit overly dramatic." Vex called as he peeked his head around the open door.
Kenzi smiled as she rolled out of bed. She made her way into the kitchen only to see vex dancing around in a pink ruffled apron contrasting spectacularly with his leather pants and fishnet shirt. She plopped down on a counter and watched him work as he told her stories about the intrigues of court life when Vatel was alive. She grinned at him when he handed her a cup of coffee. "Ahhhh, ambrosia" she sighed after taking a sip.
After breakfast they had set about making plans for their return back home. Thankfully Vex had a lot of contacts in the city that could fix her up with a new living identity in no time at all. All the other arrangements were made for the most part. They had even gone shopping for new clothes and shoes for her. Oh the shoes. How she had missed them. Being stuck in the same outfit and shoes for almost a year was almost as bad as dying.
Vex looked over at Kenzi prancing through the living room in yet another pair of shoes that he had gotten her. This particular pair was six inch heels that were black pvc with a pewter colored heel that looked like a spine and laced up her calf. All afternoon they had flitted from one shop to the next laughing and obtaining anything they wished, some by normal means, and some do to one or the others particular skill set. They had even made a game out of it seeing who could walk out with the most unlikely item. He had won of course, Kenzi's face as someone wrapped up a cash register for him was priceless. She had worried some about the consequences until he pointed out the person who did it was the owner of the store. That had sent her into peals of laughter.
However, he knew that this afternoon had partly been a show for both of them; he was still fighting off images and feeling of all those that he had wronged and trying to no curl up in a ball and cry like a ninny. He also knew she was still worried about the reaction her return with him would bring. Suddenly he reached out and grabbed her as she pranced by in her heels and pulled her onto his lap.
"It will be alright love, I know your worried about me, but I am all dark and powerful as they say, I can take anything they throw at me with one hand tied behind my back. Literally." He said trying to ease her worry.
"I know Vexter, I just wish it wouldn't be as hard as I know it's going to be. But you have to promise me, that no matter what they say or do you won't hurt them. " She said looking into his eyes with a pleading look.
"Oh, where the bloody fun in that?" He said until he saw the look on her face "OK, fine, I won't hurt your darling Bobo and her rat pack."
"Thank you Vexy. Now how about we opens da Robot Hookers . You have the home field advantage this time, but I'm still gonna beat you suckka." Kenzi exclaimed as she wiggled out of his lap to retrieve the game.
"So this is it" Kenzi said. She was just the teensiest bit afraid of everything that would occur when they got back home. They were standing outside the airport as some porters loaded their luggage onto some trolleys.
"Yes Love, time to face the music so to speak." Vex said as he wrapped his arms around her. "We will stop at my place before going to the clubhouse and drop everything off. Let you have some time to get all gussied up for the big reveal. Oh I cannot wait to see their faces, do you think I should record it?" He asked only half joking.
Breathing in a deep breath Kenzi nodded her head. As the cab drove her and Vex toward his home she tried to kill the nerves. "Ok Kenzter you can do this, it's nothing much, just the normal everyday Surprise everyone I am back from the dead. I mean they are fae, it has to be somewhat normal for them right." She thought to herself.
"Vex" she suddenly blurted "promise me one more thing before we do this. Promise me that no matter what happens, what we go through, what anyone says, that we will make it through, we will always love each other."
Vex looked down at the amazing girl next to him. "She is so brave" he thought to himself. "Not only is she not a complete and total mess over the being dead fiasco, but is willing to stand up to her friends for me of all people. " He shook his head in bewilderment and awe
"I will never stop loving you Kenzi, you are my heart, I may not always show it, or be the person you need me to be, but know that I will never willingly lose you ever again. You are my heart, and I learned the hard way that I cannot live without you. I give you my blood oath right here and now that I will stand by your side, love you, and never let you go."
Kenzi was amazed at the passion and honesty she heard in Vex's voice. She wrapped her arms around and held onto him as he whispered into her ear "Love, whenever you doubt this or are afraid remember that even death could not stand between us."
"Hot damn man, you know how to turn a girls heart to mush" She joked into Vex's chest as the car pulled up in front of his house. "So, what kicks does a girl wear when having a back from the dead bash anyway?" she asked "I know just the thing love" Vex replied as he led her into the house.