A/N: I know everyone's surprised that Blair gave in and said yes even though Chuck was really harsh. But I figured that Blair was strong enough to go through one night of meaningless sex, because she thought that it would open a gateway to Chuck's heart :) I dont know, that was just my perspective of the character of Blair. It might not reflect her actual personality on the show.

Chuck's Penthouse, Banyan Tree Resort, Bangkok – 8:45pm

They had ridden up to the 24th floor in silence, Blair watching Chuck's face. His face was expressionless, and Blair wished that she could tell what he was thinking.

Blair followed Chuck to his penthouse suite, and she jumped when the door clicked shut behind them.

Blair was interested as to how Chuck started his nights off with his lady friends. So she just took off her pumps and sat prettily on the bed. Chuck took off his blazer and undid the buttons on his shirt. Then he pushed Blair onto the bed, crushing her lips with his.

Blair let him kiss her, but realized that things were different. Sure, her body still had electric shocks going through it when Chuck kissed her, but it felt different. He wasn't talking; normally he would tease her playfully whenever they were making out. Blair tried to enjoy the moment but she couldn't. He was kissing her so hard that her lips were numbing. Then Chuck hadn't even bothered to carefully unzip her dress and kiss her all over like he usually did. He just moved her dress up to her waist, took off her underwear and entered.

Blair blinked back tears. He didn't stop to ask if she was ready; he didn't ask if he was hurting her or if he was going too fast, like he always did. What did she expect from Chuck Bass? She tried to tell herself that tonight she wasn't Blair Waldorf to him. She was just another one of his nameless, faceless whores.

"Chuck. Stop, you're hurting me." Blair whimpered after letting Chuck thrust in and out of her for 20 minutes. It wasn't that Blair wasn't enjoying it…it was just that this was no longer sex with Chuck Bass. It felt like sex with a complete stranger who didn't understand her at all.

Chuck ignored her, but he could see the pain in her eyes.

Don't soften up, Bass. She came here to do what you wanted. And she agreed and wanted to do it. You didn't force her. A voice inside Chuck's head told him.

But after ten minutes or so, he couldn't take it anymore. He pulled himself out and zipped up his pants. "Sorry."

Blair wiped away the last of her tears. "It's alright, I guess." She said in a small voice.

Chuck's heart crumpled at the sight of her so vulnerable. But he couldn't let himself soften. He needed Blair to not want him. He needed her to leave and never come looking for him again. He wanted to stop hurting her.

"Well, that was pretty good sex. But now that it's over…let me walk you to the door." He said.

Blair sat on the bed in a small ball, her discarded lacy black underwear still on the ground. "Can I stay here, Chuck? I just…don't want to be alone. And neither do you." She pleaded.

Chuck hated that she knew him so well, and knew that he was tired of being alone all the time. Being with his 'lady friends' was just the same as being alone; he didn't see them, he didn't feel them. Most of all, he didn't need them. But he needed Blair. "I don't think sleepovers were included in this plan we made."

Blair didn't want to sound desperate. But she was. She had totally lost her Blair Waldorf ice queen coolness. "We don't need to cuddle or anything. I just want to be here for you." Blair smiled weakly.

Chuck hesitated. "Fine, but no cuddling. And tomorrow morning, I have to leave early for a business meeting, so just close the door behind you when you leave."

They climbed into the king sized bed, Chuck sleeping as far away from Blair as he could. Blair knew that he would never admit it, but he wanted her to stay.

"Goodnight, Chuck." Blair said, reaching over to give Chuck's arm a light squeeze. She paused and then added, "I love you."

Chuck was glad that his back was to Blair so that she didn't see his pained expression when she declared her love – again. "What did I say Waldorf? No touching."

Blair smirked for the first time in ages. "No, you said no cuddling."

"Goodnight, Blair." He mumbled.

Her grin grew bigger. The old Blair and Chuck banter was coming back slowly.

Chuck closed his eyes, noticing that his back was exposed to the night air due to the fact that they weren't holding each other like they usually did. In between them might have well been another person, but Chuck knew. He knew that over the course of the night, due to the nature of them both, they would find each other in their sleep. He knew that was why he let her stay. He couldn't just open up to her again, but he was trying. He was discreet and subtle, because that was the only way he knew how when it came to honest and real love. He wasn't always that guy taking grand gestures to get a girl. Chuck Bass was taking baby steps.

please review! i want to know whether or not this story is any good.. because this is my first time writing about blair & chuck :)