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Chapter 2: Regrets

Olivia Pope paced her office as she often did at night when she was all alone. She paced like she had a

secret and boy did she have a secret. She had kept her secret for years only one other person knew her

deepest secret that was her closest friend and co-worker Steven. Steven had helped her in the time that

she had needed someone the most. She walked over to her desk pulled open the drawer and pulled out

a picture hidden underneath the fabric. She looked at the picture with longing in her eyes. She thought

about the day the picture was taken.

Flashback

She lay there in the bed looking down at the face of her sweet newborn son. She looked in his eyes,

eyes that reminded her so much of his father. She loved this little baby so much, but she also loved his

father and her love the both of them made her decision for her. She knew that if she told his father he

would insist on raising him no matter what it cost him. She had thought about raising him in secret but

she knew that could go horribly wrong and if it went public that her son was the illegitimate child of The

President of The United States, that she and her son would be hounded by the press and the public.

She wouldn't raise her son in that kind of environment, she loved him too much to let him be subjected

to that type of scrutiny. So she did the only thing she could figure out to do, she had arranged for a nice

suitable couple from Australia to adopt her baby. She and Steven took on alias and pretended that

he was her ex-boyfriend and the father of her baby. Steven had been her rock though this ordeal helping

her through the hardest time in her life. She looked up from her son as Steven entered her room.

"Hey Liv, Tom and Lisa Kendall are here and they want to know if they can come meet the him

yet?" Steven asked concerned about his friend and the obvious pain he could see in her eyes. "Or I

can ask them to come back in an hour or so if you need more time?" Steven continued

Olivia looked down at the little boy in her arms, and knew that if she didn't do this now that she may

never be able to do it. "No, bring them in now, Steven" She said not taking her eyes off of her son. She

Looked up as the two people who would soon take her son from her entered the room.

"Oh my goodness he's adorable, Tom" Lisa Kendall Said to her husband as her eyes found the child who would grow up as her son.

"Yes, he's quite the charmer that little fellow" her husband replied.

Olivia looked down one last time taking in every feature she possibly could as she kissed him on his soft

cheek taking in the smell of his skin. "Would you like to hold him now?" she asked.

Yes, I would" Lisa Kendall replied leaning down taking the baby from Olivia

Olivia watched as the two bonded over their new son her heart aching that she and Fitz would never

have the chance to do that. "What's his name?" Olivia asked having to know what her boy would be

called for the remainder of his life.

"Patrick" Lisa said admiring him. "Patrick William Kendall" She repeated the boy's full name.

Patrick she was in awe as she absorbed her baby's name, it was her father's name. She had been

really close to her father before his death 2 years ago. It was perfect that her firstborn, a child that she

would never be able to know and watch grow in to a man would grow up with the name of the man that

she had most admired and respected in the world. "Patrick that's a strong name" Olivia said to the

Kendall's.

Olivia watched as ten minutes later the Kendall's walked out of the room with her baby, as they took

him out of her life forever. She burst out in tears as the door to her room closed crying for what she

would never have as she felt Steven put his arms around her and she buried her head in chest soaking

his shirt with her tears. Part of her heart had just left the room with her son, part of her heart that she

could never get back.

Present Day

Olivia Snapped out of the flashback, willing herself back into reality as she replaced the picture back

into her drawer and closed it. Even after 6 years her heart still ached to be reunited with her son, but

she knew that was not ever going to happen, it was not a possibility. She had to move on from this

heartache the same way she had moved on from his father. Well, the same way she was trying to move

on from his father. 5 years ago when the scandal of the sex tape broke she walked away from him and

had only seen him a few times since when absolutely necessary and never alone with him because even

after all this time when the two of them locked eyes they both felt pain and sadness but would continue

to burry those feeling in the ground both knowing that they still yearned for each other because a love a

strong as their could never die.

Olivia had forced herself to move on and she had found love again and was engaged to the State

Attorney David Rosen. Even though she had forced herself to move on and she did have true feelings

for David she couldn't get Fitz out of her mind it was okay most of the time unless she had to see him.

Dammit she thought looking at the calendar, Cyrus's and James's Son Tripp's birthday was this weekend

and as his honorary aunt and godmother she was obligated to be at his party. She knew he would be there also, that she would have to face him and she wasn't looking forward to it, but she would go and she would continue to bury her love for him because that was a small price to pay, than price she had already paid for falling in love with the President.

Authors Note: Okay So there's chapter two hope everyone liked it. Please review! Would love comments and ideas please. By the way any who already read chapter on I encourage to go back and re-read the last paragraph because somehow when publishing part of it got erased and I didn't notice it then but I have fixed it now. Thanks for reading

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